Demi's POV
Well..today is the day I meet up with Niall at Nando's and I'm stressing. I had told Niall that I really liked him a couple months back before he left for his UK tour.
I told him that if he ever moved to L.A I would try to work things out between us.
That's why I said oh shit while talking to Nick because I had totally forgotten about what I said to Niall.
This is so bad. Im lying to two people! Two people that I love and care about very much. I can't just choose who, I mean it's no that simple I love both of them.
I got up and got dressed to go get some breakfast with Sarah at IHOP like I had promised her the night before.
I feel really bad the whole reason I adopted her was to help her recover and it's like I haven't even been paying any attention to her. Like at all!
For all I know she could be still self-harming. I know she eats now but I haven't checked her wrists in about 2 months.
I went into Alex's room and saw her still sleeping. I went by her side and tried to wake her up.
Alex- Morning Dem.
Demi- Morning gorgeous! Are we still on for IHOP?
Alex- Of course, I'll take as much time with you as I can. We never hang out anymore...
Demi- I know and I'm really sorry I've just been distracted by a lot I things lately and I haven't been paying you enough attention.
Alex- It's ok I understand your a busy woman.
We both laughed but inside I felt really terrible. I have been so focused on Nick and Niall and so many other things I forgot that I have a kid to take care of!
Alex got dressed and we headed to IHOP.
-At IHOP-
Demi- So do you know what you want yet?
Alex- No but I think I want blueberry pancakes!
Demi- You can have whatever you want! This morning is all about you!
Alex- This morning? I thought we could like spend the day together. I wanted to go see "Frozen". I thought it would be cool to go with you.
Demi- Ugh I know I'm really sorry but I'm meeting Niall at Nando's at 6:00.
Alex- Why is it always about guys lately! It's either Nick, Joe, now Niall. You don't even talk to me anymore! :,(
Demi- Alex I'm really sorry I'll make it up to you! I promise, tomorrow it can just be me and you l. We can do whatever you want!
Alex- I guess..
Why do I feel like such a bitch right now! I hate hurting Alex's feelings. I have to make this right!
We basically just sat quiet and ate our food. Alex didn't eat much but it's not cause of the disorder. I could tell that it was because she was upset. Because of me.
Wow Demetria look what your doing to her!
We left IHOP and went home it was about 3:00. We got home and I saw a really angry looking Nick standing by the door.
Nick- What the hell Demi!
Demi- What!?
Nick- You tell me you have feelings for me than I hear from Alex that your going out with Niall tonight! I thought you weren't a thing?
Demi- We're not I'm just meeting him for dinner, he's only here for a couple days and he asked if we could hang out. It's not a date.
Nick- I hope it's not because I'll kick his ass!
Demi- No you won't Nick!
Nick- Why are you sticking up for him!?
Demi- Because he's my friend and he didn't do anything to you! We're just meeting to catch up! THATS IT!
Niall's POV
I can wait to see Demi! I've missed her so much. Ever since what she told me I've been waiting to see how things go.
I can't wait to tell her I bought an apartment here for a couple months while we take a break on tour! She's going to be so exited!
-Calling Demi-
Niall- Hey Demi, are we still meeting at Nando's tonight?
Demi- Yeah, I can't wait to see you!
Niall- You to. I have great news!
Demi- What?
Niall- We'll you'll have to meet me and find out! See you soon Demi, Bye.
Demi- Ya bye.
-End of Call-
Ok now to pick out what I'm gonna wear!
Demi's POV
God can this get any worse!?
-2 1/2h Later-
-At Nando's-
Demi- Nialler! How have you been!
He pulled my into a huge hug.
Niall- Hey Dem, I've been good you!
Demi- Great, so how about we get something to eat I know you have to be hungry!
Niall- Oh I'm starving!
We sat down at a table and ordered our food.
Demi- So how are the boys?
Niall- They're good, they all went out somewhere together.
Demi- Aww I'm sorry you didn't go with them.
Niall- It's ok I've been with them everyday I'd much rather be with you. You know why I asked you here right?
Demi- Yeah... :/
Niall- Why don't you seem happy?
Demi- Because Niall, my feeling have changed since a couple months ago...Im not sure I truly meant why I said to you.
Niall- We'll um, you know I respect your decision but you can't do this to me anymore Dem. I love you I always have but you keep leading me on and making me think you like me back and then you change your mind. It's either you like me or not.
Demi- I know, I know and I'm really sorry. It's just that I want to be friends, Niall I don't want I hurt you.
Niall- Demi you won't, I know you wont.
Demi- It's not that...
Niall- We'll then what is it Demi?
Demi- I've fallen for someone else, someone I've had feelings for a long time but just didn't know it and I can't lie to myself and tell you I'm in love with you because I'm not.
Tears were forming in his eyes. I could see him about to cry but he held it back.
Niall- I understand, I guess now isn't the best time to tell you that I got an apartment here. It's fine, you know how you feel. I'll back off.
He walked out of Nando's with tears rolling down his eyes. How could I do this to him! It just seems that everyone I love is mad at me. I can't take this. I know what I have to do...
________________________________________________ Woah that was intense! What the heck does Demi have to do?! Can't wait for you to find out! Anyway I wanted to tell you that I'm going to make shorter chapters and update more and then like here an there I'll throw in a long chapter. Love you, bye xoxo - Sarah