Ani's POV
At the airport
I am so damn nervous.I have never been in this kind of situation in my life before..I can feel like my heart is pumping blood faster than usual and I know that's impossible..I'm sweating..I feel like vomiting,having headache,having fever..I feel like my intestines are twisting..What? Of course,that's impossible too...I feel like shouting "I'm not doing this"..And at the same time,I also feel like hitting my head on the wall because I fall in love.I'm still thinking how did this guy,Iyappa even proposed to Amritha?He's so damn brave,not only him,Sreyas,Shank,etc.Sometimes,I feel like love hurts,amazing..Oh my gosh,why am I thinking to much..Stop thinking to much Ani.."Focus"....I feel like crying like a kid..I mean like the kids who will be jumping and crying to get a lolipop or the kids who rolls on the floor to get a teddy bear..
I was thinking and walking left and right at the entrance of the airport while my friends,Iyap,Sreyas and Saju were standing infront of me and watching at the every move I make..At the same time,I'll be looking if Shank and the girls are here or not..
At the other side,Iyap and Sreyas were teasing me as usual...
Saju:(Saju got too irritated)Machan,pavom avan..vedunggada..(I mouthed thanks to him)
Iyap:Support-ah?(Saju noded)
Sreyas:Of course,because he also need to propose right?(said giggling)
Iyap:Yennathan,Sreyas-kum nee love propose panne idea koduthalom,when the turns comes..this is what happens..But still,you have proposed to some girls before right?Yen inthe nervous-ne theringgikalamma?(he asked Saju)
Saju:Dei,moditu iru(he told to Iyap)..Ani,just tell to her,the words which comes out from your mouth,the moment you look at her..don't memorise lines,aporom maratuduve..(he told to me sternly)
The only thing I did is nodding my head to Saj as no words are coming out of my mouth..
Sreyas:Yeppadi da,nee evala nervous-ah irundhaalum,Ani-ku advice panre?
Saju:Ah,guys..They are coming(looking at Shank,Gaya,Hari and Ela walking towards us)All the best Anil(he told to me)And,boys..How do I look?(adjusting his shirt collar)
Me:Super-ah iruke..All the best(I winked at him)
Shank saw me,and walked towards me..
Shank:Machan,you're looking nervous..Don't keep your face like that(he said gently hitting my face)
Ani:Oh,ok da..
Shank:I told Ela about it already,she's so damn excited.(I saw Ela's face it was like a 1000 watts bulb light)
Ani:Wow,her face is like..
Shank:(he interfere)Don't even say that,I know what are you trying to tell.I can understand..You know girls right?Ela is freaking crazy..She's keep telling like "Aww,sweet" and asking me "How is he going to propose", blah blah blah.(I giggled at the reaction he gave me while explaining to me)Ok,stop laughing..And ya,back to the plan...Everything will be going as we planned...Are you sure,you want to do this here?(I nodded)Ok,machan..Good luck Ani..
Me:Machan,but bayama irruke..
Iyap:Concert-la brave-ah irruke,ipa ennada onnuda perachanai..(he interfere)Just breath in and out..Ok-va..Good luck..
Sreyas:Athan,machan all the best,kalake..(I smiled at him nervously)Aama,Saj enga?
Iyap:Avan,motheye train-ah arambichitaan(he said pointing at Saju talking with Hari)Nee,thaan next..Poda,naanga irakom..Gaya is waiting..
Iyap,Sreyas and Shank hugged me and wished me luck again as if I'm going for my board exams....
These boys are the one,who's getting me nervous,now...This,reminds me of a song for my current situation from Love Panlaama Song from Poda Podi..The song lyrics came in too my mind..
Friends idea-ah kodupaanungaNalla poradhayum kedupaanungaNalla usupethi usupethiye Odamba ranagalam aakuvangaDhayriyama nambikaya i lov u sollathonum...
Ok,whatever...My lady is waiting for me,I need to go.I walked towards Gaya..
Me:Hey..
Gaya:Hey..
Ok,this is damn awkward..You can do this Ani,I told myself..It's nothing much..You can do it..Oh god,why do you let me to come in this kind of situation?
Gaya:Ani,are you alright?
Me:I'm fine,just sad that going to miss you alot..
Gaya:Only me(asked me awkwardly)How about your purple?
Me:Of course,I'm will be missing her,but you more..
After I said the word "you more" ,tears filled her eyes and she gave we a passionate hug(for the first time)..
Gaya:I'm going to miss you too,Ani(she said that,and broke that hug)Sorry..(she turned her gaze on the floor)
Me:No,it's ok..Gaya,I need to tell you something really important..
Gaya:Yes Ani,tell me what is it?
I quickly made a whistle sound..My friends quickly came towards us and made a circle around me and Gaya..the plan was actually blocking us(my proposal) from the public(my fans)..As soon as the circle was made,I kneel down and handed her "The Pretty Pink Bouquet"..I actually finds the name quite interesting,that's the reason why I told Iyap to order that,lol..The bouquet,featuring white roses, pink carnations, pink Asiatic lilies and Queen Anne's Lace.I hope she likes it...And,I said "I Love You Di"..."Will You Be My Better Half"...Gaya was standing in a confuse state..."Take it" I said handing her the bouquet.."Ani stand up" was the only thing she said..no reply like yes or no...Of course,I know she loves me,but I want to hear it from her mouth.."First,you take this flowers" ,I ordered her,she was thinking for a while and take it from my hand..I got up.."Thanks,but I'm still waiting for your words",I said to her..
Gaya:Ani,I'm sorry I'm not in love with you..
She said without looking at me but putting her gaze on the floor..I smiled at her first,but the word "I'm not in love with you",stopped my smile..
Ani:Hahaha,stop your joke Gaya..(I said while giggling,my friends broke the circle)Seriously,tell me those three words..I'm waiting to hear it from your mouth..Solludi,don't make me wait..Fast,the flight will be her soon..(I said holding her wrist)
She pulled my hand from her wrist, and throwed the bouquet of beautiful flowers on the floor and turned around,not facing me..I standing lika a statue, didn't utter a word
Gaya:I'm sorry Ani,I thought you only as my friend..Forgive me..We could still be friends,if you stop your nonsense now itself..
Those words "I'm sorry...friends" broke my heart into pieces..Is she telling the truth?My eyes was filled with tears but I didn't show it..But still my eyes turned red..
Ela:Gaya!What are you talking about?You're kidding me right?Apart of joke di..Stop it,pavom Ani,his getting hurt..
Gaya:Dude!Don't interfere(she said sternly and turned looking at me)I'm sorry Ani..I don't love you..You need to erase me from your heart..
Ani:Gaya,pls..Don't tell me the word "erase you from my heart",I can't even imagine that in my dream..Your lying to me..I know you love me...There's no life for me,without you..I've dreamed about both of us leaving happily ever after just like fairy tales...(I said while crying)
Gaya:Sorry,Ani..Don't you understand,I've not in love with you from the first..you misunderstood the way I talk and interact with you,that's all..It's just a misunderstanding..
Ani:No..no..no..(I shouted at her,for the first time as I was really hurt)
Gaya:Don't you understand the word "Misunderstand",Ani..(she shouted at me back)You love me deeply in your heart..You love me more than I do..I've seen it in our eyes....
Gaya:What nonsense,are you talking about???Onnaku dhaan loose podichirukke..
Ani:Aama,because of you..I was fine just until I met you..Now,I feel like losing myself,after you said,you don't love me..especially when you tell that you were not in love with from first..Your hurting me so much,Gaya..(I said crying harder)
Gaya:Ani,stop..Don't waste your tears..for me..No use,Ani..Somehow,you need to forget me..
Iyap:Gaya,enough your hurting my friend to much...
Sreyas:Can't you understand his feeling,Gaya..You suck...
Ani slapped Sreyas..Shank came forward to tell something..
Ani:Sreyas,don't you dare too talk to her like that..You too,Iyap..This is my life,don't interfere..I'm telling this to everyone(I said looking at Shank and Ela)
Gaya:Guys,stop it..I don't want anyone to fight because of me..Ani pls forget me(she begged me)I'm sorry Sreyas(she looked at Sreyas and tried walking away but I holded her wrist strongly)Ani,leave me..
Ani:Ok,I'll leave you but tell me that you hate me..
Ela:Ani...What are you talking about?
Gaya:That's not a big deal,Ani..
Ani:Wait,I didn't finish my line..look into my eyes and saw(I said controlling my feelings)
Gaya:Why should I do that?
Ani:So,that you can catch this flight,go back to Malaysia and forget about this incident as fast as you can..
Gaya:I hate you..
Ani:Not that easily dear..Into to my eyes..Don't you understand simple English..Oh wait,en kanna pattu solle..
Gaya looked into my eyes..I saw her eyes were red just like mine,she was breathing faster...She bite her lips..She closed her eyes,tear scrolled down her eye..She opened her eyes,her eyelashes were wet...She focused her pupil into mine..She gulped her saliva(I saw that)..Her nose and her ears were getting red..She opened her mouth,I......I.....(At the same time,I bite my lips,tears scrolled down my eyes as I thought she is going to tell that word..I felt like killing myself,for daring her to look into my eyes)
Nooo!!! ,was the only word she shouted..She pushed me away and walked to the boarding gates..I tried to stop her,but couldn't..
Hey guys,
I know I'm being too cruel..That's the only way to describe about me,according to this emotional chapter...Eventually,I also hate writing this chapter and ya,I also cried while writing this chapter but this is how the story goes on..
I hope you'll bear up with my grammar mistakes and hope you'll like this emotional chapter.Do drop your opinions..I want to know,what you guys are thinking about this chapter as I really put a lot of my efforts on trying to explain their feelings..
The next chapter will be coming soon..And you guys will know the reason behind Gaya's answer..