"Madilyn wake up!"Gemma shouts shaking me.
"What why,"I ask sitting up while rubbing my eyes.
"Because it's 8:50 and we need to get ready for the party,"she explains.
"Oh right,"I say standing up.
"I'm going to make you look so pretty,"she says.
"What I'm not pretty already?"I ask crossing my arms.
"I mean Sam pretty,"she says.
"Wow you say that he likes me already so why do I need to look different?"I ask.
"Madilyn it's a party people always wear makeup and stuff like that,"she point out.
"Yeah and them they end up looking like sluts,"I mumble.
"What?"she ask.
"Nothing,"I say.
"Ok so go get changed then I'll do your makeup,"she says handing me my dress.
"K,"I say grabbing the dress.
I go into the bathroom and get changed. Then I remember the scars on my arms. I put in the dress and go into Gemma's room. She's already dressed she's doing her makeup.
"Gemma we have a problem,"I say.
"What,"she asks.
"My scars,"I say pointing to one of them.
"Oh shit right umm... I don't have anything to go over that dress,"she says.
"Oh... do you have a dress with long sleeves?"I ask.
"No,"she says.
"Well maybe no one will notice,"I say.
"Maybe not,"she shrugs.
"Ok so are you going to do my makeup or what?"I say.
"Yeah come it down,"she says patting the chair in front of her. I sit down and she starts.
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After ten minutes she's finally done.
"Look,"she says pointing to the mirror.
"Woah I look""Hot,"she interrupts.
"I was going to say different but yeah,"I say.
"Sam is not going to be able to take his eyes off of you,"she gushes.
"Yeah he'll probably be staring at my scars,"I say.
"He might but care about those I mean he seems to care about about you,"she says.
"Mhm sure,"I roll my eyes.
"He does I can tell,"she says.
"Ok,"I say.
"So when are we leaving?"I ask.
"We can leave whenever,"I say.
"Ok then can we leave now?"I ask.
"Yeah I was going to ask guy anyways,"she says.
We head downstairs and go to the car.
"Wow my first party,"I say getting into the car.
"Are you excited?"she asks staring the car.
"Kind of nervous to be honest,"I say.
"Don't be you're going to have a blast,"she says.
"I hope,"I say.
"You will,"she says. I just nod.
I look out of the window and watch houses go by.
After fifteen minutes we arrive to the party. We get out of the car and go inside. There were people grinding on each other, making out, and lots of drunks.
"Hey I'm going to go over to Colby!"Gemma yells over the music.
"Ok!"I yell back. She walks away and I'm just standing around not knowing what to do.
"Hey,"someone says from behind me. I turn around and come face to face with Chris Wentworth. He's just as popular as Colby but doesn't really hang out with him.
"H- hi,"I stutter.
"I don't think I've ever seen you around school are you new?"he asks.
"No,"I shake my head.
"Oh,"he says shocked,"What's your name?"
"Madilyn,"I say.
"Wait are you Madilyn West?"he asks and I nod my head,"Wow you're way more pretty than people describe."
"Thanks,"I say nervously.
"Wanna dance?"he asks.
"S-sure,"I stutter.
He takes my hand and takes me over to the dance floor. He places his hands on my hips and I wrap my arms around his neck. I sway my hips to the beat and we stare into each other's eyes. He leans down and presses his lips to mine. Our lips move in sync. He wraps his arms around my waist and brings me closer. His tongue pokes my bottom lip asking for entrance. I open my mouth and our tongues glide over each other. The kiss starts to get heated.
"Let's take this somewhere more privates,"he whispers braking the kiss. He gives me no time to answer and drags me through the crowd and into a bedroom.
"I c-""Shh,"he says then kisses me again.
"I can't do this,"I say against his lips.
"What do you mean?"he asks braking the kiss again.
"I'm a virgin,"I say.
"I've never done this with a virgin before, I bet it's a lot of fun,"he smirks then starts kissing my neck.
"Stop it!"I say.
"What's your damn problem?"he asks.
"My damn problem is that I'm not ready and you're not listening,"I say.
"You don't want to lose your virginity to me? I'm the most popular guy in school,"he says.
"Yeah but I'm waiting for the right guy,"I say.
"I'm not the right guy? I bet I'm the only guy who doesn't care that you cut,"he says.
"You don't know that,"I say.
"I pretty much do. No guy likes girls with marks on their bodies,"he points out.
"Whatever I'm leaving,"I say pushing past him.
My first party is going great so far! Not. I decide to get a drink and try to find Gemma. I walk over to the drinks and get some punch.
"Hey,"someone says from behind me. I swear if it's-
"Oh h- hi Sam,"I say.
"Are you enjoying the party?"he asks.
"I guess,"I shrug then hide my arms behind my back and put my drink down.
"You don't seem very excited,"he says.
"Well a guy kind of tried to take my virginity,"I say.
"Oh that must've been Chris,"he says.
"Yeah,"I say.
"Ugh he's just a fuck boy I hate him but he's really good friends with Colby so I'm forced to hang out with him,"he says.
"Oh,"I say,"I've never seen them hang out."
"Yeah they don't hang out during school only after,"he says.
"Oh that makes sense,"I say.
"Yeah... so do you want to dance? I mean like you don't have to just with me you could dance with Colby, Gemma, and me,"he says.
"Oh umm I would but I can't,"I say.
"Why not?"he asks.
"I can't tell you,"I say.
"You can tell me anything. I won't judge,"he says.
"Ok well I have scars from cutting,"I say showing him my arms.
"Oh,"he says staring at them.
"Yeah you probably don't want to hang out with me anymore,"I say.
"No I'm just shocked. I've never noticed them before,"he says.
"I have my ways of hiding them, it's just tonight I couldn't,"I say.
"Well you can still dance with us,"he says.
"Really? You won't he embarrassed by me?"I ask.
"Of course not,"he says.
"Ok. I'll dance when I'm finished with my drink,"I say.
"Ok,"he says.
Sam stands next to me until I'm done with my drink. I throw it away and go back over to Sam.
"Ok I'm ready to dance,"I say.
"Ok,"he says. We walk over to the dance floor and find Gemma and Colby.
"Hey guys,"Sam says.
"Hi,"Gemma says. Colby doesn't say anything, he just stands there glaring at me.
"Hey Sam can I talk to you?"Colby asks.
"Yeah sure,"he says.
They walk out of the room and I follow them. They go into a bedroom and I press my ear to the door to listen.
"Dude why are you with her?"Colby asks.
"Why the fuck do you care?"Sam asks.
"I told you that we can't have people like her hanging out with us,"Colby says.
"Why not?"Sam asks.
"Because she's not pretty enough or cool enough. Did you see the scars on her? She's a fucking freak!"Colby yells. I feel tears start to form.
"No she isn't,"Sam defends.
"Yes she is and if you want to continue to be friends with me and be this popular you can't hang out with her,"Colby says.
"But-""No buts it's popularity or her,"Colby interrupts.
"I don't know what to do. Can I think about it?"Sam asks.
"No,"Colby says.
Please choose me.
"I need an answer now,"Colby demands.
"Fine popularity,"Sam says.
I feel my heart drop.
"Good now let's get back to the party,"Colby says.
I quickly go back over to Gemma.
"Hey where were you?"she asks.
"I was in the bathroom,"I lie.
"Oh... ok,"she says.
"Hey guys,"Colby says approaching us.
"Hi,"I say.
"I wasn't talking to you,"Colby says.
"Well you were because you said "Hey guys" meaning you said it to both Gemma and me,"I say.
"Well aren't you just a smart ass,"Colby says.
"I am,"I say.
"Whatever,"he rolls his eyes,"Want to go dance Gemma?"
"Yeah sure,"she says.
I was left alone with Sam. I sit down on a couch near I was standing and Sam sits down too. He doesn't look at me or talk to me. I felt awkward just sitting there but I know that he doesn't want to get caught talking to me.
Sam's POV
Madilyn looked so pretty sitting there. I wanted to talk to her so badly but if Colby saw me he would kill me. I didn't know what to do! I looked at Colby and see that he's pretty occupied with Gemma so maybe I couldn't talk to for a little bit.
"So are you having fun?"I ask Madilyn.
"Are you talking to me?"she asks.
"Well yeah,"I say.
"Why?"she asks.
"Because I want to,"I say.
"Oh,"she says bluntly.
"I-""Hey Sam come here!"Colby yells.
Shit.
I walk over to him and Gemma. Then I notice someone else with them.
"Yeah?"I say.
"This is Kaitlyn,"Colby introduces,"She was wondering if you wanted to dance with her."
This is how it is for me. Colby finds some slut to dance with me, which leads to making out, then ends up being sex.
"I guess,"I shrug. I grab her hand and pull her to the middle of the dance floor. I put my hands on her hips and she puts her hands on my shoulders. She starts grinding her crotch onto mine. I just want this to end. To move things faster I crash my lips onto hers. She automatically opens her mouth. This kiss was sloppy and awful. I break the kiss and grab her hand. I sigh as we go inside of a bedroom.
Someone help me.
She takes off her shirt and shorts. Holy shit was she ugly. She tries to pull my in for another kiss but I stop her.
"I can't,"I whisper.
"Why not?"she whines.
"Because I'm done with fucking sluts like you,"I say then walk out of the room.
As I made my way back to the couch Madilyn and were sitting on I saw her laying there with a black eye and a bloody lip. She was curled up holding her stomach and puking.
What the fuck?
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