Levi's p.o.v
It's been two days since New Years, I think Eren is still getting over a major hangover. Lol.
I did receive a message from him saying he needed to talk to me about something important later today. Probably nothing to worry about.
I was given the date of my operation. 30 of march, it seems familiar, like something is on that day..meh when the time comes it comes.
I'm nervous yeah, but I'm more nervous for Eren. If both of us die this was for nothing. But if one of us survives...then what happens? If Eren dies, he saves my life, if I die...he did it for no reason...
I might pull out at the last minute, I don't know. I can't imagine a life without Eren anymore, he's all I have and need. I don't know what I'll do, if he dies...
"Morning..." Eren groaned as he came into my room.
"Ah- morning. How's your head?" I asked.
"Banging, please whisper." He whispered as he took a seat.
"So em...what did you want to talk to me about?" I twizzled my legs of the bed to face him. "It sounded important.."
"Yea..please, don't get mad of what I'm about to tell you..." He asked.
"Why..? What have you done..?" I sighed.
"You can't get mad at me..."
"Eren. Just tell me." I snapped.
He adjusted his back and avoided eye contact with me. "Remember New Year's Eve?"
"Yes I had a wonderful time with Hanji, what about it?" I told him. He's done something bad hasn't he?
"Well me, Jean and a few other friends, we were drinking pretty hard...We then decided to go to someone else's house so me and Jean went with. We sat in the back together."
He's saying jeans name a lot, is this a hint?
"Let me remind you- we were both very drunk-"
"What did you and him do?" I asked. "Tell me." I ordered.
"W-well- promise to get mad?!"
"Eren! Hurry up and tell me!" I snapped.
"Well- he kissed me..." He muttered.
"Well that's fine as long as you stopped it." I told him. He looked up at me with quilt in his eyes like a lost puppy. "Y-you didn't stop it did you...?" My eyes went wider.
"No...inside..I pulled him back.."
"You did what!" I gasped.
"I was drunk ok-"
"Don't blame alcohol! You pulled him back!" I yelled. "You knew what you were doing!"
"I'm sorry..." He whispered.
"Anything else you wanna tell me that happened with him?!" I said sarcastically.
"No because you'll get mad at me.."
"Damn right I will! Because that's a relationship! This is how it works- we fight, everyone fights."
"I know but.."
"Just tell me!" I'm getting irritated at him, I'm ready to burst if he doesn't hurry up.
"I woke up the next morning...and me and him were naked in my bed..."
My heart then stopped, I started blankly at him. He slept with him again...in the place where we first-
I stood up and walked over to him. I lifted my hand and backhanded slapped him of the chair to the ground. "Levi..! I'm sorry- nothing happened I swear!"
"Explain how you were naked then!" I cried.
"We were going to but I stopped it! He told me I cried over you and how much I love you! Then I passed out!"
"I don't believe you."
"N-no please." He clung on to my hips while down on his knees. "Forgive me Levi please...I need you..."
"Why don't you go to Jean inside! He can make you happy in ways I can't, can't he Eren?!" I pushed him away.
"I don't care about that! Out of you and him- I'll always choose you!" I still cling to my legs.
"I don't care..."
"Levi!" Eren snapped. he got to his feet. "I didn't want it! Nothing happened! He just made out! Can't you forgive me for that one little thing!"
Can I? He betrayed me...his lips were on someone else's...he was going to sleep with him, but he thought of me and stopped...
"I'm sorry, I over reacted..." I whispered.
Eren let out a huge sigh of relief. "Thank god..!"
"But...I want you to have some distant from Jean...for the time being..."
"Done!" He then hugged me.
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Later the night Eren was staying over. He's very clinging when he thinks he's losing me.
"I'm going to the vending machine, you want anything?" He asked as he got out his wallet.
"Coffee, please." I asked for.
He then left for a couple minutes.
I noticed his phone then go of on the side table. I picked it up and had a look. Jean- "have you decided yet? Me or Levi?" It read...
I scrolled through the earlier messages.
Jean- "please don't keep me waiting any longer...I need you eren, I can give you a life that Levi can't..."
Eren-"give me time...! Please!"
Jean-"I love you...come to me and I'll show you..."
Eren-"saying that isn't going to make me choose you jean! I do love Levi, but you...you've messed up my head now..."
End.
He was considering it...he was actually considering it wasn't he!
Eren then walked back into the room, he looked at me and then my hands. "Eh why do you have my phone?" He shuttered.
"Your new boyfriend messaged you." I through him his phone and he caught it.
"This meant nothing I swear-"
"You were considering it weren't you?!"
"Yes ok I was! But I choose you!"
"This isn't Pokemon Eren! You can't just use us and pick who you want!"
"I know that! Ok I know that!"
"Eren if you want to be with him, I'm not going to stop you- you wanna go, then go! Don't drag me down any longer with this love triangle!" I cried again. I'm done with this...
"There isn't a love triangle because all I want is you!"
"Why consider it then?!" I yelled.
"YOU WANNA KNOW WHY?!" He yelled back furiously.
"YEA!"
"BECAUSE I WASN'T SURE I COULD DO THIS! I WASN'T SURE I COULD WATCH YOU SLIP AWAY EVERYDAY!" He gasped.
I'm hurt...
"JEAN OFFERED ME A WAY OUT AND I THOUGHT ABOUT IT! I ONLY THOUGHT ABOUT IT! I THEN DECIDED I DIDN'T CARE!"
"What...?" I whispered.
"I CHOSE THE LIFE WITH YOU IN IT THEN WITHOUT YOU! I DON'T CARE ABOUT WHO YOU ARE OR HOW YOU ARE! I JUST WANT YOU IN MY LIFE SO I CAN LOVE YOU AND MAKE YOU LOVE ME BACK!"
"I'm sorry..." I cried into my hands. "I'm sorry for being sick! I can't go on with this! I want to get better! But I can't alone.."
"That's why I'm here Levi, I'm going to save you life...because that's how much I love you..."
"I love you too, I did...I over reacted big time..." I whispered in my hands.
He pulled back my hands and at looked at my face. He brought his head in and kissed me. He placed his hand on my cheek and I leaned in to it.