After 25 interminable minutes listening to the yellow submarine song while the driver danced at the rhythm of that song, I see my parents house, the one where I lived part of my life, the one where I was happy, the one where I never felt lonely, the one where I felt loved.
I open the door to see the cozy and homely house where my best memories happened.
I close the door and I immediately see my mom's head turning around from the sofa and landing her eyes on me.
-Maddieee, OMG look how beautiful you have gotten- she says, I could see the tears coming out from her eyes while she ran from the sofa to me.
She engulfs me into a big hug while crying.
-You have no idea about how bad I missed you- she has tears falling all over her face while she tries to wipe them.
-I missed you too mom- I say, looking again trough the house, it is a little bit different as I had remembered it. The walls are now painted of this white cream and I think my mom has changed the curtains as well. I can still see some photos of my childhood and the decoration is now modernized.
-You sure you don't want to stay here?? I prepared your bedroom, is the same as always, well I changed some things, some photos that I have seen in your instagram and I have also-
-Mom, it is okay, thanks but I prefer to stay in the hotel- I say, interrupting her, I feel so bad for her, I know she was excited but I don't like depending on other people because of my lasts relationships, and I know that it might sound stupid but I have to be independent.
Her face lit down a little bit and I immediately felt bad but I needed to do this for me.
-But I'll visit like every day to update you if I get the role I promise- I say, trying to make her feel better.
-I am sure you'll get it- she says, giving me a small smile.
-So where is dad?- I ask, I didn't have the same relationship with my mom that with my dad but I still wanted to greet him since I haven't seen him for almost three years. He taught me everything that I know about photography/ cameras and I am grateful for the dad that I have. Although, I know he is not very happy with me since he forbade me going to LA, and I didn't even say goodbye to him the day that I left I still want to start my life from cero, so at least I want to talk to him.
-Oh, right now he is in Illinois, in his best friend's bachelor party.He is going to stay there for three days if I am not wrong, he wanted to come to see you though, but since Max (his best friend) is going to move with his wife to Utah these are like their lasts days together- She says while sitting again on the sofa.
-Oh, didn't know Max was going to get married again- I say, I wasn't sad at all, do not get me wrong, I love my dad, but he being in Illinois let me have a few days to prepare myself or this conversation. I didn't want to have it today since I am already pretty tired and nervous for the audition.
-Yes, you know how he is, anyways I made you your favorite dessert, the one that I always make on Christmas, you can stay here until you have the audition.- she says, this time I can't say no, she made my favorite dessert and I also wanna stay with her.
-Of course, I mean, I have the audition in 4 hours ish so I can stay here- I say hugging her again, I have missed her so much, she has always supported me.
We sit on the couch and talk for hours, I update her about my life and she does as well even though nothing has really changed in the family since we don't have that much of family members, apparently everything is the same. However, everything in my life is different, i am not the same Maddie, not after all that I have gone through .
-So you have got over these stupid boys, haven't you??- she asks rubbing my arm with her hand, my mom and caro, my best friend, were the only people that I could talk to after the breakups. She knew everything and I was okay with it since she made me realized some things that I couldn't see at the moment or that I wasn't aware of.
-Yes, all I want now is to have a professional job and to do what I love the most, acting- I say sounding confident.
-I am so happy for you baby, and come on, finish your coffee or you are gonna be late- she says standing up and going to the garage since she was going to take me to the audition because my car hadn't arrived yet.
-Okay okayy- I say with excitement, I was really nervous but excited as well since this was one of the main roles that I have ever auditioned to.
After an hour or so looking for a place to park my mom's car we gave up. Didn't think that so many people wanted to act in this show, that honestly looks a little bit like The Goonies.
-You are going to do great sweetie, just relax, this role is yours- My mum says, placing her hand on my thigh.
-I hope so, wish me luck- I say getting out of the car, honestly I don't know were I am supposed to go so I just try to look for anyone who can actually help me.
There are tons of people here and I find a guy who looked like an operator or something so I decided to ask him for help, please Maddie don't screw this up.
-Hi, I am Maddie Cline and I am auditioning for the role of Sarah Cameron, but I don't know where I'm supposed to go.- I say, he immediately smiles at me.
-Hi Maddie- he says offering me his hand so I can shake it- I am Jonas Pate, the director of the whole series.
-Oh- perfect, now I am more nervous if possible.
-We loved your casting video, and you are one of our favorites actresses to play Sarah, to not say our favorite. If you want, you can sit with us to watch the other auditions, but, from what I have seen so far, you have so many possibilities.
-Omg thank you so much, I am really grateful- okay, so that didn't go bad at all, I was happier than ever.
-Your welcome, but you are so talented Maddie, follow me so we can continue watching the auditions- and he starts to walk through some halls until we arrive at some specie of room with a big scenario in it.
-So here is my brother, Josh Pate and her daughter ,Kiki, and there is my son, Coop, and my daughter, Lilah.- They all waved at me so I did the same.
-Hi I am Maddie-
-Cline, yes we all know you, I think that your video was one of the bests so far from what he have seen maybe you won't even need to do a final audition, because we think that you are the perfect person to play Sarah- says Josh smiling, I was quite surprised that they all liked my video, it wasn't that good since I did it a week after my break up.
-Thank you, really, I can't thank y'all enough- I say, sitting on the free chair next to Lilah.
She seems pretty nice, she was blonde, with blue eyes and a big smile. She was reading some comments of some instagram post.
I open my phone and I text my mum updating her because probably she is more nervous than me. I look to my left, to see Lilah and I suddenly see her wiping a tear from her eye.
-Hey, are you okay??- I ask, concerned about the teenager.
-Oh, yes, it is a stupid thing- she says, trying to hold on her tears.
-Look, you can tell me, since I don't know you that much it will make you some good to talk to a stranger- I say, trying to make her feel better.
-Um... so I posted this dump photos on my instagram, and.....Um I didn't look at them really, I just posted a bunch of photos from my last boat trip with some friends. I posted them because I felt happy and- more tears keep falling from her eyes. Thanks god we are in the back of the room so the rest can't see her unless they turn around, and they seem pretty concentrated on the auditions.
-It is okay, you can tell me- I say rubbing her back.
-And... the majority of the comments are from people that say things like, ''Omg Lilah, didn't remember you that fat''- she says using a different voice tone while she scrolls down showing me the comments.
The saddest part is that most of the comments, to not say every single one, were written by girls.
-Hey....Look I don't know if you know this, probably not considering that we have just met, but I struggled with something like this when I was your age. I'd eat 3 almonds per day and I'd beat my ass in the gym. And you know what?? My body didn't change, it didn't. And I was mad, but, with the time, you learn to accept it, and you have to love it. I am so grateful for my body, because it has made me go through the situations in my life, and it is okay if you have not a flat stomach because it is not your fault that you are not built that way. Just remember that all the bodies are beautiful- I say, trying to make the little girl love her body. I would have loved to have someone that said this to me when I was younger, so hopefully she will take my advice.
-I...I din't know that, didn't think that you struggled with that since you have a perfect body- she says.
-See, everyone isn't happy with their body, even if you think that they are. So don't listen to those comments .
-But I want to change it- she says looking down again.
-You always can go to the gym, but if you want to change it do it for yourself not for others okay??- I say, I think that my little speech was worth it.
-Thanks Maddie, didn't think that I would connect so much with a person that I have just met- she says smiling again.
-Same- I say laughing.
Lilah and I really connected and in only 3 hours we talked about everything. She gave me such a great confidence so I even told her everything about my relationships, well, skipping some details of course. I look at my watch to see that I have been here for so long.
-Well, the auditions have finished for today- Jonas says, almost yelling.
Everybody start to clap their hands so I do the same. They seem so nice and I barely know them, I just know that this show is going to be a good thing, everyone seems so familiar.
-Hey Maddie can I talk to you??- Jonas says, everyone was eating sandwiches, chips and drinking some soda so we went to the hall to talk.
I felt really nervous because he probably was going to tell me that they had found someone better.
-So Lilah has told me everything, and I think that you two really connected and also we still think that you are the perfect person to-
-REALLY?? Omg thank you thank you and thank you- I say, I knew by far that this was a new era in my life.
-So in a few days, when we have all the roles booked, we are going to a dinner with the Netflix producers, and we are going to do that all the ways so Netflix can't say no.
-Oh, so Netflix- I say, I couldn't believe that I was going to be on Netflix.
-Yes, and also I would like to have you here the next days so you can do chemistry reads with the other ones- he says.
-Okay, I'll be here.
-And finally, we are going to give you guys apartments so here is your key, they are not the biggest apartments but we thought that they were pretty good for one person- he says rubbing his nape.
-Thank you, kind of thought that I'd have to stay with my parents- I say laughing.
He did the same and I said goodbye to everyone and called my mom so she could pick me up.