Tuesday October 2 nd 2020
7h13
Carina woke up with her kids and made them French toast for breakfast, everyone was getting up and not arguing with their moms which they tend to do a few times in a while...
Chloe: momma, are our anxiety teddies going to arrive soon?
Carina: uh yeah I think they should arrive either today or tomorrow, don't worry I'm home all day so I will definitely know when they are going to come home okay?
Violet: right our anxiety stuffed animals are on their way home right momma?
Carina: siii , everyone go brush your teeth and hair please
Scarlett: okay i will momma!
Carina: grazie Scarley , Londyn come on you love peaches and strawberries,
Londyn: hmmmm no twank youuu momma! I all done ,
Carina: okay, I'll put them back in the fridge for later, let's go change your diaper and get you ready for the day huh?
Londyn : otay momma!
** Londyn waved byeeee to her older siblings as they were heading to the bus stop near their house, it's at the end of their driveway**
Maya: guys , come on let's go , the bus is here now
Carina: bye everyone! Have a wonderful day today!
8h28 am
Carina: so babe, we're all alone ...
Maya: yes we are, what do you have in mind ?
Carina : nothing really, just want you to be next to me Bambina,
**Londyn is playing with her toys **
Look how cute she is, babbling to herself, Londyn ! What are you doing? Baby girl!! ** Carina laughed **
Londyn : I playing momma !
Carina: you are huh, ohhhh momma loooooooves you so much, come give me a kiss please!
Londyn : ohhh okay momma ! I coming !
** Carina raised her arms and welcomed her daughter into a big hug. Londyn laughed **
Carina: ouhhhh thank you!!!
Londyn : i happy momma not work !
I miss momma when she go bye-bye ! ** she pouted her little lips, Carina picked her one year old daughter and hold her on her chest **
Carina: siiii, I know , but momma is not going to work until a very very long time because I miss you all too!
Maya: that's right, only mommy is working but I work from home so it's better for us!
Londyn : siiii mommy , good job on phone , mommy hero !
** Londyn gave her mommy a big hug too**
Carina; that's right, mommy is a hero,
10h47 am
**Maya comes in the living room and she sees carina on her laptop... while she's holding a sleeping Londyn...**
Hey baby, what are you doing?
Carina: hiii bambina , how was your run,
Maya: it was okay, I didn't run a mile, I wanted to be home quicker to you.
Carina: awnn thank you, and I'm updating my doctor profile on the Grey's Sloan Memorial Hospital website, to modify my hours...
Maya: okay... I thought you were on sabbatical?
Carina: I am but I talked to Stefania and she said she would agree to have me do a few home deliveries only for a while, because we can't live on one salary, you work from home which is fantastic...
Maya: babe I think you are putting too much pressure on yourself to go back to work... I would much rather have you take a full sabbatical than—
Carina: babe, thank you for worrying about me I really appreciate it, but I'm only going to do a few here and there. And I will not overdoing it babe... plus Addie said she's putting me on six months sabbatical, so basically I'm not going to go back to work to the hospital until April or October next year she basically put me on another sabbatical which is like a other kind of maternity leave, because I miss being here at home with you and the kids ,
Maya: alright, I'm trusting you with this.
Carina: grazie bambina
** Carina got online into the hospital portal with everyone's scheduled hours, important meetings, information updated daily etc. she modified her profile...
Carina Deluca
If you have had any appointment with me, just know that I will attend your home births will BE ATTENDING MRS JONES, MRS STORNWALL AND MRS GREEN'S who I am on standby for this week. AFTER I will ask you all to contact Greys Sloan Memorial Hospital and request me , this is for for PERSONAL REASONS, UNTIL FURTHER NOTICE , ALL MY CURRENT PATIENTS ARE IN THE EXCELLENT CARE OF DOCTOR ADDISON MONTGOMERY AND DOCTOR JOSEPHINE WILSON ..
thank you for understanding,
- Doctor Carina Deluca "
**A few minutes later maya comes back and peeps her head against the wall..Maya was looking at her wife with " I'm not sure it's a good idea to go to work even if it's home births" look**
Carina: whaaaaaattttt
Maya: i think you should honour your whole sabbatical baby, cause you went through a very traumatic experience not that long ago and you must rest..
**Carina knew her wife was right so she agreed...**
Fineeeeee, But I have THREE patientS who ARE about to pop, and I told THEM I would be there to deliver THEIR babies I promised THEM.
Maya: okay, that's the only three I will allow you to assist...
Carina: thank you.. owwwww,
Maya: what's wrong baby?
Carina: Londyn fell asleep on my forearm and now it hurts because she is heavy.... Can you please come pick her up?
Maya: yeah of course...
Carina: thank you.... ** she now wiggles her arms to get the blood to re circulate in her arms **
Carina: like I was saying, the shooting at the hospital just made my " sabbatical" even more legit because I'm terrified of going back to work, I don't want to always look over my shoulder every time I'm with a labouring momma who she needs me to be a thousand percent there with her, and not having my mind going a gazillion miles per hour, ** she took several deep breath's in and out ** I will honour my full sabbatical babe,
Maya: yea I know, that's why Stefania will help you get over your trauma, babe, it's okay, I just don't want you to overdo it too much, take it day by day,
I'm here for you, we can live on one salary my love, don't worry about it,
Carina: okay thank you! ** she had more tears coming down her beautiful brown eyes, Maya whipped her tears away from her wife's eyes **
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16h36
**Carina has been playing with her little one year old daughter for the past three hours, after she had fed her mashed potatoes and vegetables, she then slowly begins to feel an extremely amount of guilt coming up building in her chest, **
Maaaaaaaayyyaaaaaaaaaaa !
Maya: what babe? Everything alright?
Carina: noooooooooo, **she said in between sobs **
Maya: what is wrong babe, tell me please!
Carina: why haven't I taken the time to with our previous children to do what I diiiiiiiid with Londyn all daaaaaaaaaay!
Maya: you mean play with her all day?
Carina: siiiiii, I feel horrible because our older kids are going to come back home from school in a few minutes and see me on the floor playing with their youngest sister, and they know I never took the time to do things like this with them , I don't——-
Maya: hey hey , shhhhhh it's going to be okay, you did do that when they were really really young , they were all a year old like Londyn is , you don't remember that because it's been so long babe,
Carina: wait really?
Maya: yes , i remember, and if you want now that you are on a full sabbatical from work you can do things with each kid , whether it's helping with homework, playing their favourite sports, play your musical instruments with Chloe and Violet. You are an amazing piano player babe, and it's been a while since you haven't touched your piano, . They are going to love doing these things with you my love, don't feel bad about it, it's completely normal to do things with your last baby ever, that you couldn't do with Chloe, or after Chloe, you wanted to do this with the twins too but you had Chloe and Lorenzo who also needed you for things here and there, I know Lorenzo has a soccer game tonight, I was going to go with him but I think you should go !
Carina: okay, yeah I would love to , thank youuu for reassuring me that I'm not a bad momma !
Maya: anytime,
17h29
Carina: okay Lorenzo, come on we have to go , your game is about to start!
Lorenzo: ohhh okay,
Carina : what ? What's wrong?
Lorenzo: nothing, I thought mommy was coming, that's all,
Carina: ohhh , yea I know you are all used to it being mommy coming with you to your after school curriculum activities, but I'll be going to go to each of yours this week,
Lorenzo: yayyyy, im glad you are coming momma,
** Although he is 13 years old he gave his momma a big hug and kisses, while he readjusted his soccer bag on his shoulders **
Carina: be nice guys!
20h29
**Carina and Lorenzo came back home from the soccer game, Lorenzo was super duper happy that his momma came to his soccer game even though she doesn't know much about sports in general, but he knew that she was trying her best to be there for him and his siblings **
Lorenzo: I had fun momma, thank youuu for coming to my soccer game, I really really appreciate it, I love you momma!
** As the pair were entering the house **
Carina: thank youuu, I had fun too, go get a shower and get ready for bed okay!
Lorenzo : yesss momma!
Maya: hi buddy!
Lorenzo; hi mommy!
Maya: don't make too much noise please, your siblings are sleeping
Lorenzo: got it, I'll be real quick!
**Carina came in the living room and sat down on the couch next to her wife who has a sleeping Londyn on her bare chest **
Carina: what's going on here? ** she whispered and slightly turned her head down **
Maya: ohhh she was throwing a tantrum cause she wanted you, so I took off my bra and shirt so she could feel the warmth of my body against hers!
Carina: ahhh , okay, so how were the kids? They weren't too much trouble right?
Maya: nooo, they were absolute angels !
Carina: that's good! Ouhhhh I am exhausted ! Let's go in our bed , si???
Maya: yes , I was drifting away to sleep too!
Carina: okay!
** They both went to Londyn's room and gave her good night kisses, Carina went to each of the other kids's room and gave them good night kisses too and went to her bed , and said good night to maya and went to sleep immediately . Maya also drifted off to sleep soon after **