After Maya's shift, they had gone to Carina's house.
-"You might have wanted to go to your house? You haven't been there in a while."
-"Now that you're my girlfriend again, I can tell you, you're my home."
- "you go get ready in the guest room and I'll go in mine, before I totally lose my mind".
They had gone to get ready on their own and when Maya came out Carina was already in the kitchen, with her back to her.
Carina had on black pants that came up to her chest with two straps like overalls and a white shirt underneath, her hair was loose and naturally wavy.
- "Am I allowed to touch your ass?"
- "you didn't ask me in your captain's room when you put your hands on my butt."
The blonde had come up and ran her hands over her buttocks, coming to grip the brunette's hips.
- "it was short but intense."
- "I would not want to enjoy it"
- "your girlfriend's body?"
- "of my girlfriend I would like her to turn around"
The Italian had turned to face her.
- "no!" she said, dropping her eyes on the blonde.
- "no what?"
- "this too is something that has changed and that I'll have a hard time getting used to, but that I already like very much"
- "what?"
- "a female Maya..." Did she tilt her head to look at the whole outfit of the blonde who wore a blouse of a very pale pink and an ochre skirt.
- "It does not ... I know that you knew me... Much less feminine and girls are not your thing..."
- "girls not, but the femme fatale in front of me... You are..." She began by running her finger through the opening of her shirt that was open to the middle of her breasts: "... Unreal"
- "What's good to eat?" Asked Maya to change the subject.
-"If only my mind could clear and I could answer 'you' I would start right away."
- "and what about food?"
- "so, it's not romantic... But I made you lasagna because it's ..."
- "my favorite food"
- "for this reason. And a tiramisù for dessert and as an appetizer I went to a little Italian store to get some antipasti. I took, I took a bottle of Moscato d'Asti".
- "no alcohol."
-"Maya, I think if there's anyone I can have a drink with it's you, and it's just for your birthday. I don't plan on getting drunk. There's enough for two drinks max each."
- "no Carina, we don't need it"
- "I don't need it. I want to because I want to enjoy this evening with you. I'm not an alcoholic, I've been on two benders in my life".
-"I know you're not an alcoholic. I'm just saying I don't want you to force yourself to..."
-"I don't force myself, I want to".
- "in that case, do you want me to open the bottle?"
- "with pleasure"
The blonde had served two flutes and they had gone to sit on Carina's balcony.
- "are you going to put up with the Seattle weather?"
-"I put up with it for a year. And then, you know ... When I get cold... You'll be there to warm me up."
- "you always find the right words to flirt with"
- "let's just say you inspire me a lot"
They had eaten antipasti and Maya had told about her stay with her grandmother to the Italian.
Then they went home to eat.
After the meal, before dessert, Carina asked Maya to get up and dance with her, she turned down the dimmer switch and put on Feels Like Home by Chantal Kreviazuk.
'Something in your eyes
Makes me wanna lose myself
Makes me wanna lose myself
In your arms
There's something in your voice
Makes my heart beat fast
Hope this feeling lasts
The rest of my life
If you knew how lonely my life has been
And how long I've been so alone
If you knew how I wanted someone to come along
And change my life the way you've done
Feels like home to me
Feels like home to me
Feels like I'm all the way back where
I come from
Feels like home to me
Feels like home to me
Feels like I'm all the way back where I belong
A window breaks down a long dark street
And a siren wails in the night
But I'm alright 'cause I have you here with me
And I can almost see through the dark there is light
If you knew how much this moment means to me
And how long I've waited for your touch
If you knew how happy you are making me
I've never thought that I'd love anyone so much
Feels like home to me
Feels like home to me
Feels like I'm all the way back where
I come from
Feels like home to me
Feels like home to me
Feels like I'm all the way back where I belong
Feels like I'm all the way back where I belong'
Carina had put her arms around the blonde's shoulders and Maya had slid her hands down her back, to the edge of her buttocks.
The hand of the Italian had left her shoulder and had slipped in her neck then against her cheek.
- "Happy birthday my love" made her while coming to pass her index on the lips of the blonde. "I love you". What had earned her a huge smile.
"I have a present for you" she added at the end of the song.
-"I don't need anything"
- "so I have a gift for me, that you will open"
- "you intrigue me"
The Italian had gone to look for a pouch that she had handed to the blonde.
"You're not serious?!"
- "oh yes more than serious"
- "Victoria Secret?! "
- "open"
- "it's really for you isn't it?"
- "it depends... You're the one who's going to wear it, but I'd love to see you in it."
The blonde had opened the bag and pulled out a lacy, backless, black bodysuit.
-"I would have liked to see you buy it in the store... How did you justify to the saleswoman to take a different size than what would fit you..."
- "I said it was for my girlfriend"
- "did you tell the saleswoman that?"
- "well yes"
- "you are really very credible as a queer you know... I'd like to see you say that."
- "my girlfriend?"
- "in public!"
- "I could shout it from the rooftops"
- "anyway it's... Sexy"
- "do you like it?"
- "I think I'm going to like the way you look at me when I wear it for sure"
- "glad I got you a second gift"
She had gotten up from the couch they were sitting on and gone to get another package.
- "oh my... Victoria Secret!" laughed the blonde
- "open"
She had opened the pouch and had taken out a bra and a lace shorty burgundy.
- "but love, it's not my size"
- "I know..."
The blonde had frowned slightly before raising her eyebrows once she realized, "nooo!!!"
- "no... What?"
Asked the Italian, biting her lip.
- "it's, it's for, for you?!"
- "I prefer to think of it as... For you"
- "I can't wait to... See it"
- "not... Not tonight, but I think we should really try them out in a little while."
The brunette had gotten up from the couch to go into the kitchen to get the dessert.
- "wait" Maya said as she stood up and ran her hands against her straps to pull her towards her. "You look amazing... Thank you for these beautiful gifts."
Carina had moved her hand up between them and unfastened the button at her breasts.
"You're not possible"
- "it's not my fault"
- "it's mine maybe?"
- "yes, two hundred percent!"
She had gone to get the tiramisu and put a candle on it.
"Tanti auguri a te
Tanti auguri a te
Tanti auguri Bambina
Tanti auguri a te."
Carina had approached and the blonde had blushed. She had leaned forward to bring the candle in front of Maya.
"Make a wish," she made as she looked at her girlfriend before biting her lip.
The captain had in her turn put her eyes on the Italian's mouth and had blown out the candle.
"Didn't you want me to blow out with you?"
- "I really want my dream to come true."
- "I hope it does then... I have a real gift for you"
- "but I like the two gifts I got"
Carina had gone to grab one last package from her TV cabinet. She had handed it to the blonde.
Maya had opened the package and had a huge smile. It was a frame with three pictures, one of them at sixteen and seventeen. A picture of her two years later and a picture of her a few weeks ago.
"I have to say I have mixed feelings..."
- "mixed about what?"
- "I don't know which of my gifts I like best"
- "I suggest we see this detail when I put on this burgundy outfit?!"
- "Hmmm, no, you're right I think this one will be my favorite. But I really like this one too".
Maya had stood up to come and hug the brunette, to thank her.
- "Would you dance with me again?"
-"I could dance with you forever."
The Italian had retrieved her phone that managed the speaker on the coffee table and put on Incancellabile by Laura Pausini.
'A volte mi domando se
Vivrei lo stesso senza te
Se ti saprei dimenticare
Ma passa un attimo e tu sei
Sei tutto quello che vorrei
Incancellabile oramai
Sembrava un'altra storia che
Il tempo porta via con se
Tu non lasciarmi mai
Tu non lasciarmi
E più mi manchi più tu stai
Al centro dei pensieri miei
Tu non lasciarmi mai
Perché oramai sarai
Incancellabile
Con la tua voce e l'allegria
Che dentro me non va più via
Come un tatuaggio sulla pelle
Ti vedo dentro gli occhi suoi
Ti cerco quando non ci sei
Sulle mie labbra sento la voglia che ho di te
Così profondamente mio
Non ho mai avuto niente io
Tu non lasciarmi mai
Tu non lasciarmi
E più ti guardo, più lo sai
Di te io m'innamorerei
Tu non lasciarmi mai
Tu non lasciarmi
Non farlo mai perché
Se guardo il cielo
Io sento che sarai
Incancellabile oramai, oh no, no no
Tu non lasciarmi mai
Tu non lasciarmi
Incancellabile tu sei
Nei miei respiri e i giorni miei
Tu non lasciarmi mai
Tu non lasciarmi
E si fa grande dentro me
Questo bisogno che ho di te
Tu non lasciarmi mai
(Tu non lasciarmi)
Tu non lasciarmi
(Tu non lasciarmi)
E pìu mi manchi, più tu sei
Al centro dei pensieri miei
Tu non lasciarmi mai
(Tu non lasciarmi mai)
Tu non lasciarmi
Da sola senza te
Ora e per sempre resterai
Dentro i miei occhi
Incancellabile'
['Sometimes I wonder if
I would live the same without you
If I would know how to forget you
But a moment goes by and you are
You're all I'd want
Indelible now
Seemed like another story that
Time takes away with it
You never leave me
You don't leave me
And the more I miss you the more you stay
At the center of my thoughts
You never leave me
For by now you will be
Indelible
With your voice and cheerfulness
That inside me never goes away
Like a tattoo on my skin
I see you inside his eyes
I look for you when you're not there
On my lips I feel the longing I have for you
So deeply mine
I never had anything I
You never leave me
You don't leave me
And the more I look at you, the more you know
With you I would fall in love
You never leave me
Don't you ever leave me
Don't ever do it because
If I look at the sky
I feel that you will be
Indelible now, oh no, no no
You never leave me
You don't leave me
Indelible you are
In my breaths and my days
You never leave me
You don't leave me
And it grows big inside me
This need I have for you
You never leave me
(You don't leave me)
You don't leave me
(You don't leave me)
And the more I miss you, the more you are
At the center of my thoughts
You never leave me
(You don't ever leave me)
You don't leave me
Alone without you
Now and forever you will stay
Inside my eyes
Indelible]
- "What do the words mean?" Maya asked.
- "I'd let you go see..." Whispered the brunette against her skin.
They had finished the evening chatting on the sofa, Maya sitting between Carina's legs, with her back to her, before going to bed in their favorite position.
The next morning they woke up in their position. For once, Carina was awake before the blonde.
-"How long have you been looking at me like that?" Maya asked, still a little sleepy.
-"I have no idea, when I look at you time stops."
- "if only..."
The brunette had caressed the back of the captain's neck making circles against her skin with her fingers, tangling them in her hair.
"Hummm."
- "do you like it?"
- "it relaxes, it really relaxes"
- "not as much as..."
- "it relaxes love, really" the blonde cut her off.
- "well I couldn't make you breakfast yesterday but can I make you some this morning?"
- "what time is it?"
- "quarter past seven"
- "Okay then" she said and came to kiss the brunette on her cheek which was on the side of the mattress. From the position she had kissed her very close to her lips and the brunette had pressed on the back of her neck so that she did it again, again and again.
The Italian had begun to place herself on the back while making come the blonde above her. Her lips had passed along her jaw, then in her neck.
Carina had tilted her head to give more room to the captain and one of her legs had gone up against Maya's hip to stick a little more their body.
-"We have to stop," the blonde whispered against her skin.
She had pulled her head back to look Carina in the eyes, the latter had caressed Maya's lips with her index, middle and ring fingers and the latter had kissed them.
The brunette had passed her leg against the buttocks of the blonde and had placed it against her body.
-"I risk the implosion before succeeding psychologically to be ready. I want you so much".
- "Carina it is necessary to get up"
- "I'm not sure I want to"
- "Carina if we don't get up... My next moves may be out of bounds. I don't think I have that much self control. It's been a really long time since I've done anything and even longer since I've wanted you..." Made she by catching the hip of the Italian of her hand, by tightening her fingers while sticking her basin against her.
The brunette had passed her hands in the back of Maya, until her kidneys and she had pushed her phalanges.
-"I want to do violence to myself... I want you so much."
-"I beg you, Carina," said the blonde, pulling the Italian's leg from her buttocks and rising up from her.
-"I'm going to go... To the bathroom and then I'll make you the best French toast of your life".
- "they better be really good to get my mind off of things"
- "I'm going to do my best and put all my love into it"
The Italian had finally stood up and gone into the bathroom under the watchful eye of the blonde, who watched her walk from behind, her buttocks stuck in a short silk short.
She had turned on the bed and had put herself in front of the mattress, she had plunged her head in the pillow of the brunette and had groaned in it.
The Italian had gone out and had seen the blonde lying on the stomach and she had had the same reflex, she had looked at her thighs, then her buttocks.
-"I'm going to make breakfast and you ... I do not know try to come and eat ... Less hot... Take your shower, cover your legs, your arms... I'd like your head too".
---
A few days after Maya's birthday. Carina had not heard from the blonde during the day. She was worried and knew she was at work, even though it was a Saturday. She had decided in the early afternoon to go to the barracks to see what was going on.
When she had arrived, Andy was in the captain's office.
- "Did I miss an episode?"
- "she's still a captain, but I'm filling in for her today."
- "but she told me yesterday that she had to work and I haven't heard from her"
-"I told her to send you a message," Andy huffed and lowered her shoulders.
- "was she hurt?!"
- "no, hey no Carina don't worry she's fine. I mean, she wasn't hurt, she, she came home, she has a headache, she was really unwell"
- "but there's her car"
- "yes Vic dropped her off, we're not that crazy. We weren't going to let her drive home in that condition".
- "I'm going to, go to her house"
- "you want the keys?"
- "no, it's okay... I have them"
- "oooh! By the way... Congratulations!"
- "for?"
- "I think the fact that you were a couple again was the first thing Maya said to me when she arrived on Wednesday! But since we haven't seen each other since..."
- "thank you and I promise this time neither of us is going anywhere"
- "Carina... Can I ask you a question?"
- "yes, go ahead"
- "okay, this is going to sound like a weird question..."
- "you're scaring me"
- "did you see Maya again, between the time you left Seattle and the time you returned?"
- "why are you asking me this?"
-"I never did, but I guess when you win an Olympic medal you're supposed to be happy, right? On cloud nine, in heaven, all that, all that..."
- "and...."
- "and Maya was in the same state as when you left in 2010 when coming back from the Olympics."
- "so she really never told you about it..."
- "talked about what?"
- "when I told you that I had worked in London... That wasn't all, I went to Oxford... And I was in London at the same time as Maya in two thousand and twelve... And yes, yes we spent her free time in London, together..."
- "noooo!"
- "yes we did... And we knew it wasn't the right plan, but I was still in love with her, she was still in love with me..."
- "like some things never change"
-"... And it was... Inevitable, the second I saw those gargantuan posters of her, I felt my heart beat for the first time in two years. And when I saw her face... I love her you know, I love her more than... When I saw Maya two and a half months ago, she asked me if I was feel in love with someone else, and I said yes. Yes, I fell in love with my son, but the love of my life, the love with a capital L, is Maya, it's been sixteen years since that love was born. And I know that I make her suffer and maybe it's because of me that she has a headache, the frustration and then she must ask herself three thousand questions, her beautiful brain that is always going at three hundred hours... But I only want her to be happy, really".
- "Thank you Carina."
- "for?"
- "thank you for being honest with me"
- "it's kind of my fault, we promised never to tell, not even to you"
- "thanks anyway"
- "thank you for looking after her while I was away."
- "I always keep my word"
Carina had gone to Maya's house. She had opened the door with her key and was glad the blonde hadn't left the key in the lock.
She went inside the apartment and put her belongings on the dining room table before going to Maya's room.
She opened the door and saw the captain lying in bed in the dark. At least with the curtains closed. She knew that Maya must not be well because it was not like her to go to bed in the middle of the afternoon like that.
She went in and closed the door behind her.
-"amore" She whispered
Carina had heard the blonde sniffle, she must have been crying from the pain.
She had slipped into the blonde's sheets and had come close to her.
She had run her hand over her arm and even then the blonde was sweating.
"My love, you are burning up."
Her hair was soaked and stuck to her forehead. Carina had bent down a little more to bring her face level with the captain's.
Maya's hand had come to clutch the Italian's shirt at her stomach, and the brunette had slipped both her hands into the blonde's hair, to massage her scalp. A hand behind and that side mattress on the top of her head.
Carina could feel Maya relax under her fingers and exhale with relief.
The hand at the back of her head was also massaging the top of her neck.
"I love you bambina" the Italian whispered. "You need endorphins to relax and benefit from their analgesic and anxiolytic action."
She could feel by the way she breathed that the blonde must have been crying. This one could not sleep in spite of her headache, in spite of her migraine.
Carina had pushed lightly and naturally the body of the blonde so that she puts herself a little more on the back, and that her two hands can come to massage correctly her head.
With the weak light that entered the room she could see that the blonde had indeed cried, the dried tears on her face already betrayed her.
The Italian was looking at the face of her girlfriend. Even so she found her sublime, the most beautiful woman in the world.
While massaging her head, Carina had approached her face of that of the blonde who had the closed eyes. She had come to deposit her lips on hers, delicately to brush them, before lowering a little more her head and coming to kiss her again. A kiss always shy but a little more marked.
They had continued to kiss delicately until Maya's face relaxed and the pleasure of this moment exceeded the pain she could feel.
Carina's lips were on hers. She was kissing her. They were finally kissing.
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Hello!
Just 3786 words and a kiss! Damn!
But what does it mean... Let's see in two days!
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