I cried the whole way back to the farm.
I held her body in my arms the whole way. The others tried talking to me and comfort me but I refused to talk to them.
When back I found a place underneath a tree and went to the barn and got a shovel.
I went back to the tree. Midoriya stood waiting for me. I scoffed as I began to dig.
"Please let me help you." He said and I shook my head no.
"I don't need your help. I never did." I growled and he got closer to me.
"Please Y/n." He cried and I growled.
"No! Go cry to your whore!" I yelled and he snatched the shovel from me.
"No you go sit down for a minute!" He yelled at me but calmed down a bit.
"Let me get it started ok. Go get some water." He said softly and I just nodded.
I walked away to the house and I sat on the porch watching him from afar. I heard the door to the house open and I looked over to see his mother. I smiled sadly at her as she walked over with a cup in hand.
"Tea?" She asked and I just nodded and she gave me the cup and sat in the rocking chair next to me. I took a sip of it as she rubbed my shoulder.
"I'm so sorry dear. She was a sweet girl." She said and I nodded as my lip quivered.
"How do you think it happened?" She asked and I sighed.
"She got bit. A whole chunk of flesh was missing out her arm." I sniffed and she rubbed my shoulder more.
"Oh my." She said and I sighed shakily.
"From the looks of it tho she was surviving pretty good. Until she got to that store." I said as more tears fell.
I sat there for a while letting her comfort me as I cried some more. When I was done with my tea I went back to Midoriya.
I stood there for a second and watched him before I stepped in.
"Ok it's my turn." I whispered and he sighed and got out the whole. He handed the shovel over and I got down in it and started digging myself. I didn't notice him leave.
When the whole was done I slowly dragged her body into it. When she was in I got my backpack and got her stuffed toy out. I leaned down and put it in her arms. I smiled sadly and blew her a kiss before I crawled out and started to put dirt over her.
When I was done I sat on the ground and made a makeshift cross out of rope and sticks. I put it at the top of her grave with her shoe tied to it.
When I was done with everything I was a complete mess. Covered in dirt, sweat, tears, and blood. I didn't care at all and sat on the ground in front of the grave my knees up to my chest.
I sat there for hours even long after the sun went down. I heard footsteps behind me.
"Y/n it's dark you need to come inside." Midoriya whispered and I shook my head no. He sighed and sat next to me.
"Y/n I really am sorry about all of this." He said and I sighed.
" I don't want your apology. Besides I'm going to be gone by morning so no need to kiss my ass." I growled and he looked at me shocked.
"You can't just go off on your own. It's dangerous." He said and I sighed.
"I can survive on my own. Now that Emily is gone I don't need to worry about her or anyone else." I said and he scoffed.
"I can't believe you're just going to leave." He growled and I looked at him.
"Why are you so pissed about that?" I asked and scoffed.
"Because we could really use your help." He said and I sighed and got up.
"You have plenty of people in your group to help you out with whatever it is you need help with." I growled and he got up grabbing my hand.
"Don't leave." He growled at me and I looked back.
"I made a promise to you." He said and I ripped my hand out his.
"You didn't live up to that promise." I growled at him and he sighed.
"I know I didn't with that one but I promised to protect you. Let me try and keep that promise." He said and I sighed. I looked him up and down.
"Fine I'll stay. But you are going to have to stay away from me for a while." I said and he huffed putting his hands in his pockets.
"Ok I can do that." He said and I nodded walking away passing the house and going to the cabin on the other side of the farm.
I got to the cabin and walked in. Kiri was making a fire when I walked in. He smiled sadly at me.
"I'm sorry Y/n." He whispered walking up to me. I smiled sadly and he hugged me.
"I got you some food." He said pulling away and pointing. I smiled and rubbed his back.
"Thanks but I'm not hungry." I said.
"Y/n you gotta eat something. Not all of it just a little bit and I won't fight you about it." He said and I nodded. He smiled and sat me down in a chair. He opened up a can of beans and started to heat them over the fire with a v shaped stick he found outside.
I smiled at him. He was trying so hard to make me feel better. He got a cup and poured some of it into it with spoon and gave it to me. I sadly smiled at him and I took it.
We sat there quietly eating. Him sitting on the ground.