My whole life seemed to have quite literally flashed between my not so innocent concealed little brown oval shaped eyes as I felt my head heavily hit itself off of one of the newly opened clubs cold marble set of stairs. The harsh impact left me behind with a slight headache and dizziness, that I knew would only last for a few minutes before I healed completely
My eyes shot closed in a large amount of pain when I felt my spine hit of the hard cold stone stairs, leaving me back feeling like I had just again broken one of the bones in my body from my clumsy stupid mistake
There was no such thing as a Prince charming in my life right now to grab me by my waist and prevent me from my painfully hard fall and save me from my bearable pain. That was all bullshit, all that sweet lovey dovey stuff only ever existed in movies, books and peoples imagination, not ever in reality
Reality is a place that you have to force your body and mind to fit in and fight your own demons with your own bare bloody hands, you can have to depend on yourself to get your own work done if you don't want to be disappointed by others work for you
Reality's so much different from what you watch on your TV. Reality's difficult to deal with so instead of just sitting there, on your couch , bed or whatever your doing right now. Stop and think
Just completely stop everything your doing right now and just sit down and think, lightly. Think about the multiple opportunities that lay forwardly in front of you eyesight and all your doing is giving up the opportunities you have and just wasting them by sitting behind a tv, iPad, Phone screen
'Shut the fuck up and just get to the point.' Anna finally let out a groan in annoyance for me totally exaggerating my point from falling down a large set of stairs
But she was quick to stop when my back once again hit of one of the stairs before I landed flat down to the floor with my back to the cold stone. Head ringing loudly, back broken, rib bruised and painfully sore abandon muscles
I hissed batting my lashes together closed before clenching my eyes tightly, now just really wishing them someone could've just grabbed me by my waist and saved me from my hard impact
'Could've gripped the railing.' Zara sassed with a slight roll in her bright yellow eyes at me over exaggerating my pain when I knew I could heal in just a matter of minutes because of my dear lovely spirits, and our incredibly fast healing peaces 'Sarcastic bitch.' Zara hissed with the way I had implied the word dear lovely spirits
'Offence to the fact that our stupid human can't even appreciate our help.' Amber was quick to butt in with the rest of my spirits taking turns to talk over each other to me. Zara's voice was soft but she was now using a fake high pitched voice to talk to me. Fake annoyance lacing her ear piercing voice as she complained about the appreciation that I laced to give them all for sticking up with my bullshit for more years to come
'If me and Amber where let out right now, at the same time.' Zara instantly stopped her speech when i hissed out and my balled hands were quick to outstretch themselves and grip onto my lower abandon in pain but I quickly urged Zara to speak and finish her rant 'then I would have scrapped Ambers face for causing a headache to form in my head with that voice.' She yelled out making me roll my eyes at my Phoenix's normal behaviour
'Bitch try me, I would've beaten you half my to death with my muscles.' Amber half heartedly joked back to Zara. Not intelligently purposely meaning of the words she had just spoken about
'Muscles? Ha!' Skylar let out a loud humorous laugh at Ambers words and all Amber did was flip her off with a low snarl 'hoe I see no muscles except your fatness.' A barely heard snicker passed by my sealed lips at my wolf loud ringing words
'You can't say much Sky.' Cleo seemed to have snapped in just before my spirits could start a full blown -playful- war in my head over the stupidest things they could think of at the moment. It's always like that though, starting a fight over the dumbest things you can think of with your favourite person.
'Fucking hell, shut the fuck up all of yous.' Racheal finally lost her cool with us all bickering over each other like a bunch of toddlers fist fighting over a few stacks of candy bars
But nevertheless she shouted out loud in my head because everyone was getting on her sweet nerves with the loud chaos that was happening all around my head because of my stupid fall
My fingers that were clenching tightly around my stiffened as my body decided that it was the best idea now for my muscles to go stiff. My complaining was stopped and I was somewhat grateful that my body went stiff when I sensed that Rachel had not only snapped at our spirits because of our annoyance but a different reason to make everyone shut up for a while
When she got a strong swift of an oh so fucking familiar overly powerful dominance males scent with her hyper sensitive nose, caused Anna's body to tense up when Rachel when extremely quiet
My fox's large body frame that reached approximately up to 62 cm towering body stood up tall on all fours as her strong jaw was locked shut in place, letting out low little snarls once in a while. While her deep amber coloured eyes were piercing with fierce protection as she sensed that the scent of the stranger ment danger to her humans slightly injured body's
Ambers body language was quick to change as well as there was no scene of playfulness seen in her facial structures as here body squared up in my mind ears vigilant listening from far away for the presence of the male
My eyes that were rested closed listening to my spirits fight against each other stayed close. Hopping that whoever that my fox sensed with her overly sensitive nose would just walk away and not pay any mind to a supernatural person laying on the floor with her hands holding onto her lower abandoned to stop the intense pain from growing
My lower bottom lip was trembling badly and I was quick to tug it into my dried up mouth and press my sharp purely white teeth down onto my flesh harshly when pain once again ripped through my body at the wrong fucking time
I swear I had been cursed -stuck- with impossible bad luck since the day my dear mother had given birth to my worthless shitty little ass. She probably regretted the little mistake she made so that's why she sold me off to people that become my living demos nightmares
Demons that were still wide alive because they always feed of my own fears and sadly my innocent baby brothers Zach's as well. But I was the oldest sister. I was the protector of my siblings meaning I provided protecting for my brothers and took all the beatings
I would take every hit again if it only ment that Zach could forget about his trauma, and the nightmares that he still had but doesn't mention then to me anymore. My heart clenched tightly in my chest as a cold terrifying memory flashed between my eyes of Zach screaming out for me to help him while I lay there, strapped to the bed beaten black and blue with eyes half shut I still struggled to save my brother from the demons that tried to hurt him
I could and would do anything for my brothers. I didn't once complain when I was taking my beating but I always seemed to wondered on thought constantly. That thought was still tuck inside of me but now was being pushed to the back of my head until recently
Why I was never good enough for my biological parents for them to keep me?
Was I too hideous, horrible, monstrous looking? Was I obese? Was I a failure, mistake? Was I not worth their love? Why wasn't I good enough for them to love me? What did little me do wrong to them? Why didn't they abortion me when I was still inside of mom, whom had yet to give birth to an unloved child?
Wouldn't that have been earlier then sell me off and cause my tiny heart hurt. Always standing outside the door of multiple of orphanage, in the pouring rain as a young kid yarned for her mother and father to enter her life again and apologise for leaving her behind like a worthless piece of shit
What did I ever do to my parents for them to give me up like I completely ment nothing to them and their own lifes!?
I slowly but surely scolded myself for re-entering negativity thoughts into my head as I felt like I had enough on my hands for me carry rather then pull the longing to see my parents bullshit out again. I wasn't worth their love for a reason and if they wanted me they would have visited me when they still had the chance
I harshly again bit down on my bursting bottom lip and yanked my troubled deep thoughts about my biological parents leaving me behind to the back of my mind, covering them up deeply with other thoughts. So they wouldn't reach me for a long while from now
I gasped releasing my lip from its painful grip when I felt a large amount of pain starting to ripe up through my lower body muscles and up my whole entire body before I forced my body to lay completely still, to stop the pain from growing even more but in reality it was getting worse
Why wasn't I healing?
My stiffened clenched hands tightened even more around my clothes wounded stomach. I managed to suppress a groan from releasing past my lips when another set of pain nibbled up my body in an alarming rate
My long fingers once refug themselves into my pale skin as I felt Cleo's claws emerge from my short fingernail tips
A muffled gasped passed by my lips as I felt Cleo's insanely shark nails starting to gig through my clothes and into my skin, making all the pain I was currently feeling 2 times worse. I could feel warm liquid starting to oozy out of my injured stomach
What was going on with my body?
I slowly removed one of my sore hands from my bleeding stomach, pushing Cleo's nails out of my stomach and fully smacking my heavily weight arm hard against the cold pavement of the slight wet floor -from my blood- in pain
My hand curved up into tight balled fists as I tried and tried to push myself to sit up in a more up straight position rather than laying down vulnerable on the wet ground
Seeing I just going to fail with each attempt that I tried to make. I surely but painfully decided it was just the best idea to slide against the floor before gripping onto the edge of the wall and pulling myself to sit up straight
Pulling my short idea to action I kicked my legs from under me roughy and pushed my hands against the floor before I felt like I was pulling myself towards the wall looking wall. When my head was close against the wall I outstretched one arm and griped onto the edge of the cold stone before pulling my body up and into a fucking unfortunately uncomfortable sitting position for me to sit up in
At least I was gratefulness washing over me because of the fact that I finally managed to pushed myself up to sit rather then lay down, covered in my own blood like a disgusting like helpless pig
(A/n: no offence to pigs or any other animals that I may disrespectfully mention in this story. Sorry if I hurt anyone with my words or anything)
Better then nothing. I muttered to myself as I felt like my eyes were going to close shut, but before they could my eyes caught the sight of him
One of my leaving nightmares were here while I was falling unconscious because of blood loss