He was nice, smart and very good looking too. What more could somebody want? Renjun thought he was kind of cute too, knowing how his ears would turn red when flustered or when he felt shy. Like when he was meeting his friends for the first time, he was a little shy to talk to them, clinging to Renjun.
"He'd definitely be the clingy type." He thought aloud, sighing a little right after. He couldn't help but imagine Jeno clinging onto him and doing his habits like hiding behind Renjun even though he was significantly taller. Or how his hand would automatically search for the sleeve of his jacket or shirt.
Jeno was cute, and Renjun was slowly realizing it, be it from the influence of the beer or the extremely obvious signs he was getting from him.
"I'm so fucking confused."
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"Should I live stream when I get home?" Renjun wondered aloud, seeing Jeno toy around on his phone.
"Hm? This is coming out of nowhere." Jeno replied, looking up at Renjun. Renjun sighed a little, playfully leaning his head on Jeno's shoulder. They were all getting on the bus to go to the location of their school study. Renjun was pretty excited as he would actually work with some kids again. He missed the kindergarten kids a lot, even if he didn't go to work for one day.
"Well, I'm just thinking of ways to kind of do something new for my channel, you know." Renjun looked over at Jeno's phone and saw him playing a game. "You know, now that my channel exploded and I actually have people watching my videos."
"When I saw the haunted house video, it had like 10 million views, give or take." Jeno added, making Renjun sigh. He let out a small frustrated whine, using one hand to rub his hair around. As much as he loved YouTube, he hated that his most popular video was him embarrassing himself. It was all fun and games when he was a small channel, but now 10 million people have seen him say "I almost pissed myself" when he got scared over a stray dog that he thought was a ghost. In his defense, dogs could look scary in the dark.
Renjun could still remember that day clearly and remembered how he had trouble falling asleep. He and Chenle slept in the same room for about a week afterwards, having been scarred for life.
"Don't remind me..." He sighed. The blonde leaned off of Jeno's shoulder, leaving the taller's shoulder exposed to the cold air in the bus. The heater was on full throttle, and still everyone wasn't taking off their jackets at all. Everyone was freezing.
Renjun pouted a little, looking outside the window and wondering what to do with his channel. Obviously, whatever he was doing thus far was gaining him success especially if his channel exploded all of a sudden and basically all his videos have high views. He estimated about 35-40 different videos on his channel, with his most recent uploads having the most views.
"Well, it's not Mr.Beast tier for views." Renjun chuckled, hearing Jeno scoff at him. "His stupid Squid Game video got more views than the show or something."
"Hey~ no way." Jeno said, seeing Renjun pull out his phone for proof. Just as he had said, his phone relayed the proof perfectly. "Damn Junnie. Start making Squid Game videos."
"I'm gonna have to if I wanna get this many views and some more money." Renjun sighed. Jeno chuckled a little, patting his thigh with his hand. Renjun flinched a little at the act, seeing how innocent Jeno was while doing it. Renjun really couldn't stop staring at Jeno's large hand just patting his small thighs. It looked so different when he was doing it. It looked so right.
"Oh? We're moving." Jeno pointed out when he felt the bus start moving on the road. "So what are you gonna do?"
"Hmm... nap maybe." Renjun replied, leaning his head on Jeno's shoulder. He did feel hella tired. He definitely was not a morning person as Jeno had to wake him up several times. He would poke his side whenever he started dozing off by the sink with the toothbrush in his mouth or even touch his shoulder when he was losing consciousness while brushing his hair. It was but another cute thing Renjun did. Jeno's list of cut things Renjun did was getting longer by the day.
Jeno chuckled a little and gave a final pat to Renjun's thigh. "Not what I meant but sure."
"What? Oh you mean the channel?" Renjun realized, his cheeks turning red from some embarrassment. "I'll just keep it as is. I don't think I should really change my style too much because it takes away that authenticity I worked so hard to build. Maybe I can make a small edit of today's study and turn it into some kind if clip or something."
"What's your authenticity?" Jeno asked him, genuinely interested in his remark. He could tell Renjun was more free than other Korean content creators. Many tried so hard to make it like a broadcast he'd see on TV while Renjun's videos seemd so laid back. It showed himself as is. The way he was presented in screen was the same way he was in real life. Jeno could only hope most people would be like that.
"I'd say it's the fact that I just don't care. I could care less what people think of my videos because it's not my career. It's something I have on the side. I feel like that just lets my videos seem more free flowing since my editing is very unprofessional and chill." Renjun chuckled a little afterwards, remmebering something. "We tried to do some professional editing once and it just seemed so awkward and stiff."
"You are kinda awkward when you give presentations." Jeno added, seeing the boy's fist hit his leg lightly, his eyes still closed and head leaning on Jeno's shoulder. Of course, Jeno could only muster out a laugh at Renjun's (very weak) punch. It was adorable to see him get mad. Jeno wasn't very playful, but when it came to Renjun, he couldn't help himself. He felt an urge to tease him more and more every day.
"Yeah yeah whatever. Now shut up since I wana nap before dealing with children." Renjun mumbled, yawning afterwards.
"Aw wait I didn't mean it like that~ Junnie~" Jeno pinched his cheeks, teasing him again. While it did sound like an apology, it was definitely some ("friendly" flirting) teasing remarks Jeno couldn't suppress. Renjun could feel the warmth of Jeno's hand on his cold cheeks, feeling hos thumb and index finger pinch at his skin. He didn't know if it was because Jeno's hands were warm or if he was blushing, but his cheeks heated up easily and his hand went to swat at Jeno's hand.
"Piss off." He grumbled, leaning his head against the window and getting comfy. They still had a long way to go as their study was in a nearby town in the suburbs, not the city.
"Fine, I'll stop." Jeno giggled, eyes crinkling as he smiled. Renjun yawned and shrunk into his coat, trying to harness all the warmth his body could produce. He fluttered his eyes shut, drifting pretty quickly into light sleep. It was obvious to the taller that Renjun was just being angry in a playful way. He knew that joking like that with Renjun wouldn't really cause him to be angry and upset. That was probably one of the reasons Jeno enjoyed talking with Renjun. He just felt comfortable. Jeno wouldn't of imagined in years that he would feel this comfortable with someone since his last relationship. He could just be himself with Renjun. They had similar humor, were in the same major, had similar move preferences and got along well. Well, similar movie preferences without counting the horror ones. Jeno knew Renjun remained scarred for life after going to an actual haunted place.
But that was besides the point.
The point was: Jeno is catching feelings.
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man life's tough 😭😭😭
i really wanna finish this and my other book sometime... whenever that is. but im also starting my first year of uni this year 😭
bioengineering aint an easy major so ima try my best to upload whenever i can. but the truth is, i just been so busy bro.
i hope yall dont abandon this 😭😭😭