My head took awhile to wrap around the new peice of information that the women named Ashley gave me
My hands slowly went limp to my sides as I stared at the twins shocked, confused, hurt, betrayed and anger for falling into whatever game they were planning to play with me "hmm..." I managed to mumble to myself, feeling ashamed and -maybe a little- disgusted with myself?
Blinking my eyes serval times, trying to figure out what i should do with myself in this situation
I quickly remove myself from Jayden's lap, shoved my money -for the food- on the table, before turning around and walking away just like that. What else was supposed to do?!
"Raven!" I heard Hayden call out to me-from behind- but I was already out of their site
'Why did I fall into their little game!' my hands clenched into tight fist as I marched out off the mall. Anger being the main emotion that ran through my vines
'I never had this much fun going on a date before, I even enjoyed this date, I never had this much fun in my life, not even with him' I scoffed at my previous words, already regretting them
I feel like I should have let them explain them self but anger just took over me and I left, not the best choice but anyways 'Ben's coming in a few minutes' Skylar information before retruing to the back of my mind
I sighed feeling all the difference emotions my spirts felt right now, hurt and sadness being the main expect from Anna and Cleo's who were beyond pissed, out ragged
Their aura deadly as fuck and I'm sure I was giving of the same dangerous aura
Their anger was on a whole different level compared to mine 'Aish don't cry now, wipe those tears they aren't deserved it pluse we don't know them that well to actually start liking them now' Cleo ranted aggressively but tried maintaining my inner best from releasing
I sniffed, not realise I was crying until she mentioned it. I lifted my hands up before quickly whipping away the tears away from my face
She's right I don't know them that well so I shouldn't haven't been to attached to them, but I was slowly letting them..... I shook my head clearing all the thoughts away before crossing a street and mingling with a big crowd
My head was lowered to the ground as I walked passed people -all of them moving away from me because of my indifferent aura- thoughts running through my head like they were slowly drowning me in, pulling me down and trying to suffocate me
Letting me drown in their negative words 'Kitten...?' I head Jayden's concerned filled voice threw my links making me scoff at myself
I didn't bother saying anything, what was there to say? Nothing. I sighed blocking my links, only allowing Ash, Zach Ben, Xander and Bella to communicate to me threw my private links
'Venn-' Zach's bored like voice spoke through my head but stopped as soon as it came 'What's going on?' He immediately senced something was off with me and my spirts 'Venna?' He asked again but more alerted
I sighed continuing to walk 'nothing, what's up? Why did you mindlink me, is something wrong? Are you hurt? Ah is Ash hurt?!' I ranted
'I mindlinked you to tell you that I'II be discharged tomorrow morning, nothings wrong, I'm not hurt neither is Ash' I manged to mutter up a faint smile before it was gone 'now, tell me what's wrongs? Who hurt my older sister ? Why are your spirts giving of such a dangerous vibe?' My bottom lip wavered but I didn't let myself cry
Why would I let myself cry? Why was I even hurt by them? This was just a friendly date nothing more nothing less... right? Right!
'Ah what are you talking about, no one can hurt me!' I manged to fake a happy voice 'oh and you now how my spirts are, they always give that type of vibe' I went quite when I felt another person enter our link
'Oh wow, soo who's dieing' Ash teased, Zach scoffed while I sighed 'Geez what did I do now' He snapped at Zach
'No one is dieing, I'II come collect you in a while them we'll vist Zach after that we'll be looking for an apartment we can stay at' I in formed in one go, allowing them to caught the small amount of info 'both of your things are at Hayden and Jayden's house right?' I asked for clarification
In response I got a 'mhm' and 'yeah'. I sighed, I'II have to grab their things quickly with Ben's help... 'but why what happened? Did you fight wit-' I cleared my throat cutting Zach off
'I just thought that maybe we should get an apartment and live how we used to live before.' my voice drifted of as I could imagine both of them giving me a suspicious look
Ash sighed 'that would be nice, don't get me wrong I like living here and all but I miss us three slibings living somewhere alone.' Zach laughed while I smiled
'Agreed' Zach mumbled. Just talking to my brothers made me forget the worries or troubles I had in my life 'do you think I could maybe be discharged today, with the help of you Ofcourse.' Zach asked boredly, I raised my eyebrow looking at him through the link confusedly
'Why.' Ash sighed looking at us through the link with a bored expression fixed on his little face
'So I could go and see the apartment with you guys' I could tell Zach had something more to add to that but he stopped himself for asking or telling
'I'II see what I can do' I hesitated, I was worried about his health but I can't stop him from coming with us 'but first I'II have to check with the doctors that your health is completely fine and that your wounds are OK for you to move around or your staying if your hurt and hiding it away from me' I lectured earning a groan for him in response
I glanced to my right as I felt someone lightly tap my shoulder to grab my attention and also pull me back from my link, with my brothers
"Where are they? I'm going be-" I quickly cut Ben of his rant by hugging him, I alsoo wrapped an arm around Xander's shoulder, stopping his body from fuming in anger "how dare they hurt my child" Ben snarled pulling me closer to his chest
"I'm fin-" I gasped, holding my chest tight as a burning pain ripped through me, leaving me gushing for air desperately
Xander panicked while Ben hurried me to a more private and more quite place behind a huge building
I bit down on my lip, holding my whimpers back while blinking my eyes to get a clear my view off where i was sitting. I pressed down on my chest while forcing myself to take deep breath "I'm going to fucking murder them if it's the last thing I do!" Ben mumbled aggressively
"I'II gaddly help." announced a very angry Xander. I slowly peeled open my eyes to meet two seat of concern filled eyes -yet behind those eyes was a burning rage, that was waiting to erupt any moment given moment now-
I let my hand fall as I slowly -yet very pain- felt the pain vanishing away from my body, leaving me like it never came -and tried ripping my insides out- and slowly going away
My head fell back on the wall,before I knew it I was seating on the floor with my back pressed against the wall while closing my eyes forcing myself to breath and get myself together
I shook my head trying to clear the clouded thoughts that consumed my head when I went through the pain
I felt Ben kneel down beside me -since I felt his gently fingers brush back a few strands of my hair-
I opened my eyes for them to meet Xander's confused ones. He showed a reassuring smile when he caught me looking up at him, he kneeled down beside Ben while placing a hand on my shoulder and give it a gently squeeze
"You's aren't going to do anything." I echoed my thoughts, after I caught my breath "I might have took it as a misunderstanding or something, whatever, I don't need two mate not now... not ever" I confirmed forcing myself to keep myself together
"The best thing I can do is reject them..." I didn't want to go throw the pain of being rejected again but it's better being alone than getting myself mixed into a new piece of drama in their life
I already caused harm to one of my slibings -which was all my fault but- I'm not going to let that happen again
I felt hurt that I was going to reject them soon, but my slibings don't need anymore drama in their life's,.. and neither do I
"Are you sure that's what you want...?" Ben calmly stork his thumb over my knuckles. I nodded, I wouldn't let my brothers get hurt again! "If that's what you want then we'll" he pointed between him and Xander "be by your side when that happens but other than that could we maybe get of the ground?" He concluded, trying and lighting up the mood
"I agree with Ben, we'll be by your side." Xander stood up beside Ben before pulling his hands out for me to stand up "And will always be with each other though thick and thin." Ben chuckled more to himself but nodded at Xander's words
I nodded grabbing his hand and pulling myself up to stand in between them
"Right." I cleared my through while flattering down my shirt "I'II go collect mine and my brothers belonging from their hou-"
"No nope, not happening I'm going and he's coming along to." Xander offered me to talk back to Ben. I grumbled under my breath
"Fine after that we'll collect Ash, head of to Zach's hospital room and get him discharged than we'll be looking for an apartment to stay at," I sighed this wasn't easy, nothing has been easy in my life
"Well chop chop." Ben clapped his hands, pulling me along with Xander to where he parked his car "we can't just stand here and do nothing other than talk." he hinted "Oh and by the way, if I have to I won't hesitant to kick their ass." he implied
I smiled watching as he walked passed us to open the drives door for his car "But they're also our Alphas." Xander ranted but them shurgged at himself "Whatever I won't mind kicking them in their ass if they hurt my loved ones." I smiled again
As soon as we got in the car Ben drove off "If you fight against your Alphas you two will be kicked out of your pack, and I won't let that happen." I demand "You's aren't fighting or creating a sence there." all I got in response was a nod or a groan
"I don't mind being a rouge." Xander added "But I won't create a sence, if that's what you want." He finished with a slight shrug to his shoulders
I nodded for the second part greatful that he agreed. I sighed, I needed an unexpected event to acure so I could reject them but it's unfair for them... they probably deserve a better mate than me
Maybe the moon goddess paired us three by a mistake, after this rejection I won't have a third chance of having a mate that's what I want then right...?
"After you reject them you know there's a possibility that you could die from the rejection or become a dud." Ben listed the two main side affects of rejecting a second mate
When you turn into a dud, your normal sweet smell turns into a rotten died one that no one can stand. The pack members would do anything to stay away from a dud cause of their sent and cause of how heartless they're known for
Dud are known to be both rustles and heartless, they don't feel anything, or any sort of emotions. They wouldn't feel the sort of sadness, pain or loneliness if someone tried ignoring them or anthing really
Dud are also to be anything but sensitive towards their emotions "I don't mind." I shurgged as he gave me an unreadable expression "and you guys would have to stay away from me if I become a dud" Ben scoffed at the remark
"Since when did we start caring about our -or others- scents,?" Ben questioned, I shrugged again, along with Xander "we barely even look into people's sub genders, well that is they are a threat or if it's necessary to find information like that." He imported
I sighed, staying quite for the whole ride there before I even new it we already had packed my brothers and my stuff and loaded them into Ben's car and where driving to collect Ash.
Who know was at the library, by himself
"I'II go get him." I stated stepping out the car and walking straight towards the dark green coloured doors, of the library
The doors slipped opened and I walked in with my hands shoved into my pockets while my eyes gazed over the large public library book shelves
Stepping inside my eyes quickly fell on Ash who was seating down in the farthest part of the library with his eyes fixed on the computer screen, in front of him
Sighing I walked towards him to see he was just fishing up a few essays and uploading them to his teacher. I smiled watching as he sent -yet again-another one of the Irish essays that was due tomorrow to his teacher "done?" I guessed as he started closing down a few tabs
Ash nodded as he finally senced my presence, shutting down the computer he turned around and faced me "What happened?"