"Babe... I'm going to die. Oh my god." Luke mumbles, trying to reach out for me, but refusing to open his eyes. When he finally finds my waist, he pulls me closer.
I hadn't even realized Luke had stayed at my place until ten minutes ago when I woke up. Though I tried to get up and run away, not wanting to deal with last night, my stirring woke him.
"How are you feeling?" I ask, pushing his curls out of his face.
He weakly smiles at the gesture, though his eyes are still shut. "I really do feel like I'm dying. I went way too hard last night. I can't keep up with your friends."
"I'm gonna go make some coffee. I assume you'd enjoy some?" I tell him, breaking free from his grasp and standing up.
"Yes, please, baby." He mumbles, curling back up in the sheets.
I smile at him, looking at him all cozy in my bed. When thoughts of what happened last night start to creep in, I start to get nervous and swiftly exit the room.
Starting the coffee pot, I sigh, pulling my phone out. Scrolling through my pictures from last night, I smile at all the good times before it quickly went south.
Once the coffee is done I make mine, before making Luke's the way he likes his. Heading back upstairs, I see Nina leaving her room.
"I just made coffee, I know you need it." I giggle, before entering my room again.
Closing the door behind me, I go place Luke's coffee on the nightstand beside him, before I go crawl in bed on the other side. Sitting there with my coffee in my hands, I can't help but smile as I stare down at Luke.
This is all I could want, every morning, for the rest of my life.
"Stop staring at me." He mutters, yawning before finally opening his eyes.
"I wasn't!" I protest, taking another sip of my coffee to try and hide my smile.
Luke finally sits up, his tired eyes looking over at me before he reaches for his coffee. He looks at it closely as if he's inspecting it before he takes a sip.
"How was your night last night, if you even remember it." I ask, getting nervous for his answer.
"It was good. I remember most of it, actually. Except for how I ended up here. I was supposed to go home with Calum."
"Oh." I mumble, anxiety quickly washing over me.
"I'm sure Ashton is in pain this morning." Luke smirks.
"Fuck."
Luke giggles to himself, thinking this whole thing is just hilarious.
"Stop, Luke. It's not funny. I'm going to have a panic attack." I tell him, focusing on my fidgeting hands and not Luke.
He quickly stops laughing, a worried expression taking over his face.
"Kels, I didn't mean to-"
"It's- it's fine. I've been anxious all morning about this. It's my fault anyways. If I didn't say anything to Ashton..." I trail off, unable to speak as it feels like my throat is closing.
"Hey, it's not your fault. He shouldn't have said anything. He was just really really fucking drunk. I'm sorry. I wish I didn't remember."
"No, it's- it's okay. I told him I should be talking to you about it. I wanted to do it on my terms, but, shit happens I guess." I mutter, taking deep breaths and I do my best to calm down.
"I'm here for you. If it helps calm your anxieties about this discussion, I also want to marry you again one day." Luke tells me, as he moves closer to me, wrapping his arms around me.
It's comforting, being in his arms as I come down from this anxiety attack. It's also nice to hear that he's been thinking the same way I have been.
"It does help, thanks." I smile, looking up at him.
He smiles back, quickly kissing my lips.
"Thank you." I whisper again, a shy smile on my lips.
"And as much as I would love to have an in depth discussion about this right now, I need to sleep again. My headache is killing me. I love you so much, Kels. But I wasn't kidding when I said I was dying." Luke weakly chuckles, leaning back as he closes his eyes.
I laugh at him, pressing a kiss to his forehead, telling him to get some rest. Grabbing my coffee before I head out, I smile at him once more as I leave the room.
Once I'm back downstairs, Nina and Ashton are sitting in the living room on the couches, talking about last night. The two both stop talking as they look over at me.
I clear my throat, "I- uh, I should probably get this out of the way. I'm sorry for slapping you, Ash."
"Kels, it's okay. I'm so, so fucking sorry that I said that to him. Nina here was catching me up on last night. My memory is a little hazy." Ashton weakly smiles, patting the seat next to him.
I nervously smile back, going to sit next to him as he had signalled for me to do.
"I wish I actually got to see you smack him, and not just hear about it from Kyle." Nina snickers.
"That's what happens when you're too busy being a whore, Nina." Ashton jokes, making her stick her tongue out at him.
"Is that where you were?" I question, laughing at how Ashton phrased it.
She shrugs, "I was only dancing with some random guy this time. Nothing more."
"Anyway, I feel awful, Kels. If there's anything I can do, please let me know." Ashton tells me, wrapping an arm around me to give me a side hug.
"Luke and I quickly discussed it. He's going back to sleep because he's absolutely fucked. He said that he's had the same thoughts, so, that calmed me down a bit."
"That's amazing!" Ashton cheers, wincing at his own volume.
"Shut up." Nina whines, rubbing her temples.
"Man, you all really went wild last night, huh? It's rare for you all to be like this at once."
"Fuck, I know. I think we all need a nap."
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"Come here, babe." Luke softly laughs, holding his arms out to me as I walk into my room.
"So, uh, we should talk, right?" I ask, wanting to get this out of the way.
He giggles at me, "Kels, there isn't much to say, but sure."
"Well, I mean, Ashton literally told you that I said I want to get married. That's kinda huge."
"Did you apologize to him, by the way?" Luke laughs, as I climb into bed.
"Stop laughing! This whole thing is so mortifying!" I exclaim, a small giggle passing my lips.
"I don't understand why. I'm so in love with you, I'd love to marry you one day."
"You were speechless when Ashton said it!"
"Yeah, because I was so fucking happy! Kels, I know you love me, but I really wasn't sure you'd ever want to get married again. I would've been fine with that, if that's what you wanted. Either way, if we get married or just stay together without a wedding, it doesn't matter to me. I'm with you, and that's all that matters. Although, when I heard you want to get married, I got pretty excited thinking about having an actual wedding with you this time."
I can't help but smile as I look up at him, and he's smiling back at me. We quickly share a kiss, before I pull him into a hug.
"I love you." I whisper, tightening my grip on him as I sniffle.
"Why are you crying? What's gotten into you recently?" He asks, gently rocking me back and forth.
"I really don't know. It's just so wild how we've ended up here. It gets me emotional thinking about all of it." I mumble, refusing to let go of him.
He lightly chuckles, pressing his lips to the top of my head. "I've never been happier, Kelsey. I can't wait for forever with you."
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idk where the few of u that voted and commented went but I miss u besties </3
I kinda maybe know where I'm going w this now??? we'll see tho!!!!