"They are alive." The man says still flashing the light in my eyes. I grabbed Louis' hand aggressively and he jolted up and looked around at where he was.
The man shines the bright light away from us and he was in a police outfit with his radio on his shoulder. He kept his hand on the button speaking to the other people every few seconds.
"Do you fellas know where you are?"
"Yeah, we just fell asleep." Louis said politely as he could. The officer scuffed and looked at his watch and then at me and could see I was shaking. "Are you ok son?" The officer screamed out making me jump.
"Yeah, I'm fine." I whispered out trying not to sound suspicious. The officer nodded then Louis pressed down on my hand to calm me down and it worked pretty fast. Louis' hands were warm even though it was cold out and his soft hands that he probably moisturized daily.
"Well, you two get back home now ok? Drive safe." The officer spits at us as he started to slowly walk to his car. Me and Louis stood up quickly and picked up the blanket and ruffled it around to get the sand off. Louis just rolled it into a ball and grabbed my hand and squeezed it twice.
We both hopped into the car and sighed and snapped our heads at each other and laughed. The mood was good until my phone lit up and I got a notification.
Louis glanced at it and noticed my frown. "You ok baby?" I swiped over the notification and just stared at it. "It's your dad's birthday?"
Louis just looked at me waiting for an answer but I couldn't speak. My mouth just froze and my eyes started to water.
"Talk to me please." Louis pleaded. "Yeah, it's his birthday. And I...I dont know what to do, I know both of my parents died but they didnt tell me anything about my dad but they gave me a note he wrote before he died." I could feel my breath picking up and my throat started to close and my voice changed to a higher pitch.
"I'm so sorry but what did the note say?"
I pulled out my wallet that had no money just noted from my parents and found the one from my dad. I opened the piece of paper that was torn and crumpled up and started to read it.
"Dear Harry, if I die I dont want you to go visit me or think about me but when my birthday comes around just go visit your mum. I'm sorry to do this but I dont want you to do anything about me and just know I love you and your sister but it's better this way." A tear pricked my eyes and I quickly wiped it away with my shirt.
Louis put his hand on my shoulder lightly and held it there until I threw the note back in my wallet. I tried not to show I was basically crying on the inside or that I was depressed about this because I knew Louis would feel even madder about this and that would make me feel guilty.
"Do you need a hug?" Louis questioned. I nodded then practically jumped into Louis arm and started crying but didnt make a sound so Louis didnt know I was crying my fucking eyes out. I wiped my eyes off then pulled away and looked into Louis blue eyes and smiled.
I knew if I showed my pain it would all spill out and I wasn't ready for that but how does one just not cry over the fact their dad wrote a note that said if I die forget about me and I can't even visit his grave because I dont know where it is.
I try not to talk about my dad much but his birthday is one of the hardest times in my life besides my mum's birthday and when she died. It's not easy to deal with losing someone but it's been years since my parents died and I still cry just thinking about them.
I snapped out of my thoughts when Louis started the car and I heard the engine roar. Louis swerved out of the parking spot and into the road and started driving. Louis put his hand on my thigh and squeezed it tight. It turned me on a bit but I couldn't focus on that, only on the note that I finally read out loud to someone other than Gemma.
I turned to Louis and he was focused on the road and his thumb was just taping on the steering wheel. I looked at the clock and it was two forty-three, me and Louis slept for hours but I still felt tired. I wasn't even paying attention to where Louis was driving I just thought about how things would have been different if my parents were still alive.
It felt good to imagine all these things like it basically gave me a safe place to be even if it was just for a short amount of time.
"We are here." Louis said snapping me out of my dream. He turned off the car and I saw we were at the cemetery, I couldn't help but smile and run to my mum's grave. Louis tried to catch up but I was too fast and I stopped inches in front of the shiny, grey stone.
I traced my hand over the lettering, studying each name. Louis comes up behind me and places his hand on my back. "Do you want a minute alone?"
"No it's alright, you can stay."
I sat down on the grass that was practically considered dirt and just thought of what I could talk to my mom about.
"Um hi mom, you know this is still new to me but its dad's birthday, and like he said to do I'm visiting you. I wanted to thank you for giving me the best blessing in the world." Once I said that I turned to Louis and he started smiling uncontrollably. "I went to the beach today and it reminded me of when we went all the time. It was so fun. I am going to try and go back to school but if it doesn't work out please dont be mad at me."
"You're going to go back to school?" Louis said quickly. My heart was racing and I didn't know if Louis was going to agree or disagree and his opinion matters a lot to me. "Yeah, I was going to try."
Louis quickly hugged me and I lost my balance and fell down. His arms were wrapped around my body tight and his heat was comforting especially when the air was cold since it was early in the morning.
"I'm so proud of you and I know your mom is proud too." Louis started kissing all over my face making me laugh uncontrollably. I was laughing so hard my stomach was in pain.
Once Louis stopped he hovered himself over my body holding himself in place. "God you are so gorgeous." Louis breathed out. "Have you seen yourself, babe? Your so fucking hot like if looks could kill then everyone would be dead because of you." Louis busted out laughing and I didnt understand why. "Maybe you should mention dead while we are in a cemetery."
I realized what I said and regretted it and got embarrassed. Louis was still hovering over me but he just went down and gave me a kiss. He then stood up and just stared at me like some creepy stalker. "Your hair is so curly I love it" Louis blurted out randomly.
"I hate it." I rolled my eyes and Louis gasped dramatically. "But they are one of my favorite things and the fact your dont like your curls makes me sad."
Louis dramatically turned around to not face me and crossed his arms. I started laughing and I could hear Louis quietly laughing. He then stopped and put his arms down and tilted his head.
"What the fuck?" Louis whispered. I ended up hearing him then I quickly stood up and grabbed Louis arm. "What?"
"Is someone watching us?" Louis quickly grabbed me and started moving backward. "What? Where? Who?" I was completely freaked out and Louis was trying to act calm but deep down I knew he was scared probably even more than I was.
I looked behind the tree that was a long way down and saw a figure standing there watching us and I wanted to know how long they were watching us. Every step we took the person would move closer, I could hear my heart beat throughout my whole body and the car was parked pretty far away.
Louis stopped me from walking then the person came running towards u and I saw it was a man. Louis grabbed my hand and we both ran as fast as we could to the car. He quickly fumbled for his keys and unlocked the door and we both got in and before I could buckle Louis was already swerving out of the parking lot.
Louis was driving so fast, hitting every turn like he was a racecar driver and each time I tried to buckle Louis would swerve and I'd miss.
"Babe calm down!" I screamed to Louis. He ignored me and I finally got to buckle and I didnt feel any more safe. "LOUIS WILLIAM TOMLINSON YOU BETTER CALM DOWN OR WHAT HAPPENED TO MY PARENTS IS WHAT'S GOING TO HAPPEN TO US." Once I screamed at him he stopped the car and I regretted what I said and I could feel a tear prick my eye.
"I'm sorry Harry. I just want to make sure your safe and I dont know who that was or what they were doing following us at like three in the morning."
I didnt say anything I just looked around at our surroundings. Louis was stopped in the middle of the road and there were just lots of trees and a few houses along the way. Louis huffed then started driving again.
I ignored Louis the whole way back to his house. I quickly unbuckled and walked in. Jay was sitting on the sofa drinking tea which I can tell she just made and she was doing some work.
Once Louis closed the door she looked up at us and smiled. "Hello boys how are you?" She took a sip of her tea then placed it down and brushed herself off. "We are good." Louis said pushing his way in front of me.
"Splendid! you two look exhausted so you should sleep." Jay went back to her work and didn't look at us. "Oh and Harry the twins missed you a lot so they are sleeping in your bed, I tried to move them but they started screaming and you know how well that goes." Jay said laughing.
"Thanks for the warning." I said laughing with her. I started walking to my room then Louis grabbed my arm and pulled me into his room. "Want to tell me why you ignored me the whole way home?"
Louis didnt let go of me he just held onto my arm trying to get me to look into his eyes. "Harry."
I gave up and looked at him. "I was just in shock and didnt know what to say after what I said." I gently snatched my arm back and Louis covered his face with hands and dragged them down. "Or was it because you screamed that thing about your parents?"
I turned around towards the door and started walking out. "Where are you going?" Louis said with his eyebrows furrowed. "I dont want to talk about this right now. I'll talk to you in the morning." I walked out and went to my room and saw the twins sleeping peacefully. I smiled and picked up Phoebe and moved her so I could sleep on the bed.
Surprisingly she didnt wake up and I was thankful for that cause if she did wake up I would have had to read or tell her a story and I wasn't in the mood. I coved myself with a duvet and tried to fall asleep.
Every time I closed my eyes I would just picture my mom and dad in a car crash, I didnt know what happened or how it looked but my mind was set on this one way. My mom was driving and my dad was in the passenger seat and as they were driving my mom got distracted looking at something, maybe a bird or a beautiful tree or flower. A car beeped at her so she got startled and started driving and a man who was on his phone ran a red light and crashed into the car.
I won't ever know what really happened but that man was on my list of people I hated with my whole life. How could someone be ok knowing they killed two innocent people with a family? It sickens me.
I must have been dreaming because I woke up with the sun just shining into my eyes. I always hated when I dreamed about that because then it makes my day worse and I get depressed all day and feel bad for Louis and his family.
Tomorrow I was going to go back to school and I was nervous as fuck. I noticed the girls were gone so they must have gone to eat breakfast. I got up and went to shower, I quickly grabbed clothes and a towel and ran to the bathroom.
I undressed and looked at my body and felt disgusted. I looked way too skinny like some twig and I'm surprised Louis didn't say anything about it. I stopped looking at myself and then stepped into the shower.
The curtain flew open and my heart dropped. "Hi, baby." Louis said smirking. "Louis oh my gosh you scared the shit out of me."
"Mind if I join?" Louis said while locking the door. "I don't mind at all."
Louis started to strip and I was getting turned on. Once Louis stepped into the shower I immediately started kissing him roughly. He slipped his tongue into my mouth and I quietly moaned.
"We gotta be quiet, we dont want anyone to hear us." I whispered out to Louis. Louis just nodded then grabbed my ass and started squeezing it. I turned Louis to the wall and picked him up and he wrapped his legs around my waist to hold himself in place.
I slammed him against the wall and he started kissing me again. I slid myself into him, feeling how tight he was such a good feeling. Louis moaned between the kiss and I was trying to hold him up while pushing myself up and down in him.
"Faster."
I obliged and bounced him up and down faster. I was trying not to let anyone hear the sound of our skin slapping together or else they would know we were having sex in the shower. But Louis telling me to go faster didnt help.
"We need to hurry up before they get suspicious." Louis whispered breathlessly to me. "Ok."
I grabbed Louis hard on and started pumping up and down while I kept pushing myself further into Louis hitting his prostate. I kept pumping faster and Louis was moaning like crazy into my ear. Louis came all over me and a few seconds later I came inside of him.
I lifted Louis up and pulled myself out and he stood up and stumbled a bit. He grabbed the wall for support and then washed himself off. "You know I never get tired of fucking you." I said into Louis ear. He turned to look at me and smiled. "Someone is bold aren't they?" Louis said with a chuckle.
"Hey your the one who decided to join me in the shower."
"Its not my fault I missed you."
"I would have seen you after my shower." I couldn't help but laugh and Louis rolled his eyes and went back to washing himself.
Once me and Louis finished with our shower I got dressed and went out to the kitchen while Louis went to his room to get his stuff for school.
I wish I could go with Louis today but I didn't feel ready and he insisted I went when he has almost no classes just in case something happened. So I just had to wait for him to get home and it was many long hours.
I normally hung out with the twins or Lottie but they had school a few hours after Louis now. I was sitting on the couch debating what I wanted to do and I decided to just take a nap or read a book. As I walked to my room I heard a loud fall noise from Fizzys room.
I knocked on the door lightly and waited for a response. "Come in." Fizzy screamed out to me. I opened the door and saw him picking up nail polish that was dropped on the ground. I rushed over to her and started helping her pick them up. She smiled at me and then grabbed the nail polish out of my hand.
I noticed this light blue nail polish and it was beautiful. "I can see you eyeballing the nail polish." Fizzy laughed out. "Oh no, I wasn't, I didn't"
"Harry it's fine. Do you want me to paint your nails?"
I looked at my nails then at Fizzy and she patted her bed for me to sit. I sat down then she grabbed my hand and started applying nail polish. "So people do this all the time?" I said tilting my head. "Mhm, what's funny is whatever color someone's nails are painted says a lot about them."
I raised my eyebrows then Fizzy looked at me and went back to painting my nails. "If someone picks neon nails that means they want to be noticed or seen. If they pick black then they are sensitive. And blue that means they are creative and a forward thinker."
"So every color means something different?"
"Yeah but I'm general people like painting their nails because it allows them to express themselves in a way they want like with colors and designs." Fizzy finished painting my last nail and then showed me. I was in awe my nails looked so beautiful and the color was extraordinary.
"Thank you so much Fizzy." I gave her a hug and she chuckled a bit then hugged me back. "Your welcome Harry."
Me and Fizzy just talked about things like clothes and makeup and how it's used and lots of other stuff. We talked for so long that I heard Louis scream he was home from the door. I gave Fizzy a hug and then ran out to Louis.
He saw me and gave me a big hug. "How are you? I missed you so much."
"I'm good, I missed you too. Me and Fizzy just hung out."
Louis pulled away then smiled. He then grabbed my hands and squeezed them twice then looked down at them. "Your nails look beautiful Hazza." Louis kissed my hands then looked up at me. "Oh um thank you, Fizzy did them." I said nervously.
Louis rubbed his thumb over my hand and then dragged me to the car. He opened the door and I hopped in then he got in. Louis started driving and I didn't bother to ask where we were going because he would never tell me.
I turned up the radio and Bruno Mars's song just the way you are was on. I started signing out of habit and Louis would casually look at me and smirk. "If you're going to stare at me then I want you to sing along." I said giving Louis a glare.
Louis laughed then we were both passionately singing the song in harmony. Louis would change she to he and sing to me and it made me blush really hard.
"His lips, His lips I could kiss them all day if he'd let me. His laugh, His laugh he hates but I think it's so sexy."
"You know for someone who hates being cheesy, you are surely being cheesy right now."
Louis rolled his eyes and then grabbed my hand. "Cause your amazing, just the way you are." We both sang to each other and we both laughed then Louis pulled up at my favorite tea place.
Once he parked I quickly unbuckled and ran out of the car into the building. Louis ran in after me and noticed I was super excited.
"Harry?!"
I looked over and noticed one of the workers Jules was there. She was one of my best friends here but she went to a different school and I was always too busy to hang out with her outside of her work so we only talked here. Louis looked really confused but I walked up to Jules and he followed.
"Jules, how are you?" I gave her a hug and she hugged me tight back then pulled away. "I'm good how are you, I haven't seen you in literally forever."
"I'm good. Oh um meet my boyfriend, Louis this is Jules, and Jules this is Louis." I moved aside so Jules could see Louis and she smiled very brightly.
"Oh, so your Harry's boyfriend. I remember you came in and asked what he gets here, such a gentleman I see." Jules said eyeballing Louis.
Louis just awkwardly laughed and I grabbed his hand. "No need to be nervous, she has a bold personality." I whispered to Louis. Louis nodded then looked at Jules. "Yeah he was having a rough day and I wanted to make him feel better." Louis said pulling me closer to him.
Jules basically screamed aww in the middle of the place causing people to look at us. She looked around and her face got angry. "What are you looking at? I'm fawning over the cute couple now mind your damn business and drink your tea!"
Me and Louis looked at each other and back at Jules and had no words, she brushed her self off then looked at us like she didnt scream at a bunch of customers. "I'm surprised your not fired yet."
"Wow Harry, show some love. I'm really nice to people." Jules said pretending to be offended. "Yeah the nicest."
Jules gave me a fake dirty look then started tapping on the computer thing. "Ok I got your usual and the kind sir who has barely said a word what would you like?" Jules said staring at Louis. He looked at me like a lost puppy and I looked at the menu. "Do you want regular tea or boba or flavored tea?" I was trying to help by giving options but Louis still looked lost.
"Do you want to try boba?" I said to Louis pointing at the picture on the menu. Louis nodded then Jules laughed. "Wow this is some crazy thing going on here. I'm going to go ahead and guess Louis always the one always talking and Harry's the one who rarely says a word."
"Yeah, that seems about right." I said laughing. "Well, not all the time, when you were talking to my ex-girlfriend." Louis said nudging me. Jules immediately got intrigued, I turned to her and I knew she wanted a storytime. "Well, Louis use to date this girl name Eleanor-"
Jules shushed me then put Louis drink on the thing. Once Louis tried to hand her money she slapped his hand. "I got it." Jules said giving us a recited. "You really didnt have to Jules." I said shaking my head. "None sense. I have lunch right now so I'll make your drinks then we can talk." Jules said before she walked to the back of the place.
Me and Louis went and sat down at a table and waited for Jules. "You friend is very interesting. Very very bold but she's nice." Louis said shrugging with a smile.
"Yeah she is definitely something but she is a very nice person. She always makes sure my tea is free and we always talk once I order. I haven't seen her in probably a year."
Louis was about to speak but then Jules came over with our drinks and she got herself a drink. She always got a peppermint tea, I never cared for it because why would you want warm peppermint water?
"Ok spill the tea about Eleanor. But dont literally spill your tea cause I won't be cleaning that up."
Me and Louis laughed and Jules smiled then crossed her legs and sipped on her tea. "Well they both use to date and me and Louis became friends and then we kissed and I ran away."
"YOU RAN AWAY?!" Jules screamed. "Shut up and stop interrupting me." I snapped at her. Jules put her hands up in defense and kept quiet.
"Anyways, so yeah I ran away cause I was sorta mad but confused. Then a few weeks later Louis broke up with her and she was pissed and she saw me and Louis hugging in the halls then got mad so I put her in her place."
"This is a whole new Harry. You once apologized to someone cause they spilled their tea on your table." Jules said shocked. "Haha yeah but I threatened to post the video of her making out with the teacher under the bleachers to everyone."
Jules mouth dropped and I took my hand and shut her mouth. "Holy shit Harry I assume Louis has made you more confident huh?" Jules said smiling warmly at Louis. "I never thought about it like that but yeah he did make me more confident." I put my hand on Louis thigh then he looked at me and had his lip out. "No crying." I said as I yelled at him
I gave Louis a kiss on the cheek and he smiled. "You two are so cute." Jules said interrupting our moment. "Thank you Jules." I said sarcastically.
"Wait a minute. Now I remember where you are from." Jules said staring at Louis. He tilted his head then I remembered what she was talking about. I kicked her leg under the table and she screamed. "Oh for that you little bitch I'm telling him." Jules said with a petty smile.
"Tell me what? I'm confused." Louis said looking at both of us. "I use to go to your school but I moved and me and Harry use to play this game where we would buy a yearbook then pick out a guy for each other then say if we'd date them or not. It was such a long time ago I barely remember the things we said but what Harry said about you stood out and I always remember it."
I just stared at Jules hoping she wouldn't say anymore but I know she would because I kicked her. I really didnt want Louis to know anything I said during that time cause it was embarrassing for me.
"Should I tell him?" Jules looked at me with a grin. "Jules I swear to god I will rip your extensions out of your head right now."
"Fine, that's a conversation you two can have later. I have to get back to work, visit soon Harry love yah lots." Jules got up and walked behind the counter and started taking people's orders. I coughed and looked at Louis. "You um...ready to go?" Louis said unsurely.
I nodded then we both walked out to the car. Once we got in Louis turned to me. "You don't have to tell me alright." Louis said with a smile. "Thank you. I love you so much."
"I love you too baby."
Once we got home I went into my room and dug through my stuff for my old diary or what I use to call a journal. I flipped to page thirty-four and started reading about what happened that day me and Jules hung out.
Dead journal, Me and Jules hung out again and we played our game and Jules picked out two guys for me. George Jefferson and Louis Tomlinson. George was ok looking but Louis caught my eye. He looked very handsome and rugged and without thinking I told Jules "He could rail me as much as he wanted, anytime and any day" I didnt think anything like that could come out of my mouth and if anyone finds out I'll be so embarrassed. And besides Louis is straight and is dating some girl. Eleanor is it? I accidentally called her Elevator once and she heard. But anyways note to myself don't let anyone see this or else they won't let you live it down.
I closed the book then threw it with the pile of books I read then jumped onto the bed and screamed into a pillow. I closed my eyes for a bit and then fell asleep. I woke up to the twins giggling. I lifted my head up to see what they were laughing at and realized they had my diary.
They ran out of the room with it and I tried to run after them but I tripped over a pile of books on the ground. I didnt think they were going to do anything but little did I know they were going to give my diary to Louis.
Louis POV.
"What do you girls have?" I said grabbing the book from them. The book was open to a page that was marked thirty-four and started reading. Once I read the page I realized it was Harry's and I now knew what he didn't want Jules to say at the tea place. I heard Harry run in here and he saw me holding his diary. "Shit, you read it didnt you." Harry took a deep breath and I felt bad.
"Um no I didnt." I lied to him and it made me feel even worse. "I know your lying Louis, your scratching your hand." Harry said looking at my hand.
"Ok I did read it but I didnt know what it was. I just thought it was a book you have read." I handed the diary back to Harry then he looked at the twins who were hiding under my bed. "Girls say sorry to Harry then go to your room please." I said with my arms crossed.
They got sad then walked up to Harry and hugged him and said sorry then ran to their room. "I'm so sorry Hazza."
"Its alright. I knew you were going to find out what I said one day but I didnt think it was going to be today."
I walked closer to Harry and put my hands on his waist. "If you want me to rail you then ask. I'll gladly do it any day and any time you want." I said mischievously.
Harry face started turning into a crimson red and I gave him a kiss then I walked away and locked my door and me and Harry smirked at each other.
The End of Chapter 12.
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