I lightly banged my head against my locker door and let out a frustrated whine. I crumpled the detention form that was given to me and shoved it deep in my coat pocket. After completely embarrassing myself with Chenle, I missed a second day of school and was now purposely showing up late in hopes of avoiding anyone and everyone for as long as I could.
Unfortunately I had to finally force myself to class. I took a deep breath but stopped a few steps away from the classroom door. I didn't want to go in. I didn't want to see him. I was too embarrassed to face him. I was too embarrassed to face anyone.
Eventually, I finally entered the silent class. As soon as I walked in everyones eyes were on me. Quiet whispers quickly filled the room, watching my every step. Chenle's eyes met mine for a split second before he instantly looked away.
I handed Mrs. Lee my hall pass and quickly rushed to my seat.
"Hey." Yangyang greeted me with a warm smile. "Glad to see you back."
"Y-Yeah." I awkwardly stuttered. "I-I missed everyone." I forced a smile.
Suyeon turned around in her seat and glared at me. "Happy to hear you missed us, I presume that's why you kept ignoring everyone's messages." She sarcastically smiled. "Or were you just too busy lying to your best friend?" She rolled her eyes and turned back around.
I frowned and adverted my gaze to my empty desk. I felt tears wanting to escape my eyes but I fought them back.
A pathetic loser.
Thats what I felt like. No, that's who I was. And just like thousands of times before, I heard whispers of all those laughing at me. But this time their words hurt worst than ever before.
"I heard Jaemin dumped her because she cheated on him. Ugly bitch really thought she was something."
"Did she forget she's a worthless loser."
"Without Jaemin no one would even know her name."
"I heard she forced herself on Chenle and now he can't even look at her hideous face."
Their whispered laughs echoed in my ear.
"What a slut."
"Yah!"
I jumped back at the loud sound of Yangyang raising his voice while he glared at the group of girls a few seats away from us.
"Mr. Liu, is there an issue?" Mrs. Lee who was stepping in for our history teacher asked. "What is so important you must interrupt my lesson?"
"No Mrs. Lee, I apologize." He apologetically stood up and bowed before sitting back down.
The whispers became quieter but they were still there. Although they were not as clear, I knew they were still talking about me.
I spent most of the morning being scolded by different subject teachers because I hadn't turned in the homework that had been ruined. When I wasn't being scolded, I was blankly staring at my desk wishing I was anywhere else but here.
Still, nothing was worst than the moment I had been dreading most.
Lunch.
I decided to spend Lunch alone in homeroom but my plans didn't go exactly as planned.
"Do you plan to avoid the mess you created all day?" Suyeon stood angrily in front of my desk.
"Aish." Sarang clicked her tongue. "Leave her alone, can't you see she's upset." She said as she made her way towards us.
"She's upset?" Suyeon sarcastically laughed." "Oh she's upset? How about Jaemin and Yoori? You don't think they're upset."
"Yoori?" Sarang scoffed. "Why would that snake be upset?"
"Because she liked Chenle, but it turns out that our y/n has been dating him behind Jaemin's back."
"That's not true." I felt my tears break free as I barley managed to speak.
"Oh really? So that picture of you two making out on our senior trip was fake?"
My silence answered her question for me.
"The whole school knows y/n, the pictures were spread everywhere. How could you do that to Yoori, she is our friend?" Suyeon crossed her arms. "But most importantly how could you do that to Jaemin?" She let out another sarcastic laugh. "I guess this cheating thing runs in the family doesn't it."
"Yah!" Sarang snapped at her. "You don't know anything so why don't you shut up."
"Oh but you do?" Suyeon scoffed. "I'm her best friend don't you think I-"
Sarang didn't let Suyeon finish her statement.
"Yeah, you're her best friend?" She sarcastically asked her. "Well you're doing a crappy job acting like one. "
"Like I should take advice from the schools biggest bitch." Suyeon rolled her eyes. "The only reason I pretend to tolerate you is because y/n likes you for god knows what reason."
"Can you two please stop arguing."
My voice sounded like a whisper compared to their loud yells.
"Well the only reason I haven't pulled your ugly damaged hair out..." Sarang paused with a menacing glare. "....actually there is no reason." Without any warning she pulled Suyeons hair, dragging her around the room.
"Yah! Let go you bitch" Suyeon screeched
as she tried to escape from Sarangs hold.
"Stop it!" I yelled at them. "Stop fighting."
The two kept trying to hit each other, ignoring me presence completely. I ran out of the class and looked for help when I saw Yangyang standing in the corridor talking to Jaemin.
"Yangyang!" I yelled, my voice sounding out of breathe. "It's Sarang and Suyeon, they are about to murder each other in class, you need to separate them."
Without wasting any time, the two boys followed me back to our homeroom to see Sarang pinned on top of Suyeon as she sent a hard slap across her face.
Yangyang grabbed Sarang's arms and held them down as he pulled her off of Suyeon. Jaemin held Suyeon back, giving Yangyang enough time to drag Sarang out of the room.
"Su stop!" Jaemin raised his voice at her. "She's gone, just calm down."'
"Screw that bitch!" She yelled and push Jaemin away from her.
"Yah! What has gotten into you?" I also raised my voice at her.
"Me? What has gotten into me?" She scoffed. "No, what has gotten into you? How can you trust that bitch more than me? Why do you care more about her than me? I'm supposed to be your best friend, not her!"
I furrowed my eyebrows and crossed my arms.
"Is this what this is about? You're jealous of Sarang?" I asked in disbelief. "You are my best friend Su, when have I ever said otherwise?" I bit my lip and avoided her gaze. "Well she was right about one thing, you're doing a crappy job acting like one."
She scoffed, letting out a sarcastic laugh. Tears were forming in her eyes as she stared at me.
"Screw you." She muttered before storming out.
"Su, wait."
I tried to go after her but Jaemin grabbed my arm. He stood in front of me, gently pushing my loose hair behind my ear. "Let her calm down." He whispered calmly. "Her, Sarang, you," He caressed my hand softly. "The three of you need space right now."
I nodded and let a deep breath out. I looked up to meet his eyes but a rush of tears broke free.
"I'm sorry I-" I tried to wipe my tears with my hands but Jaemin held them close.
"You don't need to be sorry y/n, about anything." His voice was soft as he gently wiped away my tears for me.
He cupped my cheeks and traced his thumb along my bottom lip. His alluring eyes drawing me into a soft kiss.
It was only a few days ago when his lips felt so familiar and sweet. But now they felt distant and out of place. Like they were intruding where someone else's lips belonged.
Where his lips belonged.
"I-I'm sorry." I pulled away from the kiss.
Jaemin sighed and let go of me.
"You're thinking of him aren't you?"
I felt my heart break knowing I couldn't deny his question.
"I guess this means it's over." He looked at the floor with sadness. "This time for good."
I stayed silent, my tears overwhelming my eyes as I listened to his footsteps slowly disappear.
Was I making a mistake?
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