A Lifetime Of Care

Chapter 32

"Your dad doesn't know!" Lisa saw him sleeping quite a bit, and her heart was even more upset.

Jungkook looked at her with amusement. "Fortunately, my dad doesn't know."

Lisa opened her mouth, but she didn't know how to refute.

She asked, "You said before that you had nothing to do with those actresses. But there is Miss Jihyo...?"

Jungkook finally heard the problem. He looked thoughtful. The light from the lamp cast the side of his face in a golden-orange light.

“First of all, there’s nothing between me and those actresses. Before you, I had no other so-called women.” He looked at her sideways. “For example, someone who could wake me up in the middle of the night.”

Lisa lowered her eyes and asked, "Your meaning is that she is nothing special to you?"

Jungkook rubbed the space between his eyebrows and carefully thought about it. “She’s not special. But, I must admit that at one time, I have a good opinion of her. It was a long time ago, though.”

His expression was very honest and straightforward. He clearly had no intention to guiltily conceal his relationship with the woman. But, it only made Lisa feel more complicated.

"How did that go?"

He picked up the glass on the bedside table and drank a little water to moisten his throat. Then, after dissipating some dryness, he slowly said, "At first, I saw her and wanted to train her to become a good actress. I had some good feelings during the filming process, but she had Daniel in her heart so there were no opportunities for development. Of course, I think that even if I was given a chance at that time, there would be no good results anyway. "

Lisa frowned. Her most direct thought now was: My guide was so hot. Why would there be no good result?!

“Why?”

“I just wanted to treat her well, but I didn’t really care what she truly wanted.” After saying this, he paused and looked thoughtfully at the woman in front of him. “Do you think it’s the same now?”

Lisa nodded, but immediately shook his head: “I think you are very careful now. Sometimes... I feel taken care of. We all have to adapt to the change of identity, don't we? "

Jungkook looked down and smiled lightly at her. He tried to comfort her, and said, “At that time, some people said that I don’t know how to love. I thought I have changed a little, but there are still some shortcomings that I still need to correct.” Lowering his head, he reached down to cover her cold feet with a thin sheet even as he continued to speak calmly. “I often talk about some love issues in my movies, but I know nothing about love.”

In Cloud Headdress, he focused on whether giving up on oneself for love was worth it, and in Dark River, he explored the notion of whether love exchanged using all kinds of despicable means was really love. Then, in Homecoming, he questioned whether love compared to eternal life.

As Lisa became aware of this, she realized that his feelings and his views on many things were actually very deep and complicated. In contrast, her ideas were always simple and straightforward. She wanted to love, wanted to be love, and wanted them strongly and without hesitation.

She lowered her head and found that Jungkook had covered her feet thoughtfully for her, and her heart warmed at the knowledge.

“I think that things got a little complicated, and I wasn’t sure how to handle it. It wasn’t within my control so I chose to stay away.”

Lisa was slightly surprised. She remembered reading an interview of his a long time ago in a magazine. The reporter had asked him this: “How would you treat the person you love?”

His response was, “I think loving someone is like being a botanist who is treating a plant that is going to be extinct. It is like a pair of lovers frozen forever in time in a bright flower garden that will, in the end, also ultimately fade away with civilization.

At that time, she only had one thought: This man was simply too amazing.

“Then you...why did you want to marry me?” Lisa blurted out the question that she had never dared to ask.

Jungkook thought this problem was not difficult to answer. He looked at her lightly, smiled, and said, “Because, at that time, I was afraid that you might get married. It was a feeling I’d never felt before.”

His words hit Lisa in the softest parts of her heart. Her ears suddenly became hot, and she didn’t know how to respond to his words.

The deepest feelings in the heart was always the most difficult to share with others. Just like Jungkook, who always felt separated from the crowd, as if he was slowly sinking and drowning in the endless deep sea. With the passage of time, this feeling became more and more intense.

But, after encountering her, the pain was also significantly eased.

Lisa became choked with emotions. She didn’t understand what was going on with herself, or why she cared so much about the rumored affair. But, at this moment, she was also not willing to blame him.

“I know I was being willful tonight, but sometimes I also want to have this right.”

“It was my fault. I didn’t like to discuss these types of matters.” He raised his hand and gently pinched her cheek, feeling the soft skin underneath his fingers. “But, if I can soothe your emotions, I don’t mind. In short, Jihyo and I have absolutely nothing between us.”

Lisa pursed her lips, and her eyes grew a little red. Aside from that time at the hospital, this was the second time she had down vulnerability in front of him. She wanted to speak but when she made a sound, she discovered that her voice was hoarse.

"Jungkook, many people will feel the same as me...You and some of the people at the reception are born to be superior to others. It's really good. Initially, I didn’t think so at the beginning, but later I realized that it was true. Meeting you had changed my life. This relationship and this marriage had brought me many unexpected gifts, allowing me to grow and mature and for my family to have a happy event. You’ve given me a lot of happiness. Thank you, Jungkook. I want to cherish it.”

When her words reached his ears, he took her into his embrace. His arms were always warmer than the air. His soft, magnetic voice rang out above her head, “Don’t say ‘Thank you’ to me for such things in the future. Because, I also feel the same.”

Lisa clenched his arm. She didn’t know what to do to get closer to him, but she really wanted to work hard for it. When her tears fell, it echoed the heat in her heart.

She wrapped on arm around Jungkook’s waist and lay down on the small bed. She slowly smiled. “Yes, let’s sleep here tonight.”

Jungkook was surprised. He wanted to say why squeeze in the small bed when they could sleep on the big bed...Was this the so-called husband and wife fun?

Forget it, she was soft to hold anyway.