17

F o u r t y T w o

The gang's house was the quietest it's ever been as they watched J walk out their front door. Wonwoo immediately went upstairs to their-his room because he couldn't handle the pain in his heart from what he had just witnessed and done.

As soon as he walked into the room, his eyes laid upon J's pink hello kitty bear that she couldn't sleep without. His room was the exact same except for the little things that he only noticed because of how long J had been there. Her memory box was gone from the dressing table along with the 7 snow globes Juni had gotten her. The thousands of Polaroids of her and the gang were still there. They were everywhere, in every one of the members rooms and every inch of the house. To remind them that they had just lost the best that that ever happened to them.

Wonwoo didn't know what to do, before he even made it to sit on the bed he screamed as loud as he could falling to the ground because he had never felt so frustrated before. So hurt and guilty. He screamed at the top of his lungs before he started punching every wall in the room, his fists soon met every surface it could, until it made its way to the dressing table mirror which he ended up punching as hard as he could causing it to break. When he looked down at his hands, he noticed they were bleeding. They looked worse than they had ever been after a mission which surprised him because he didn't feel the pain, the pain he wanted to feel, and he knew exactly why. Because the pain in his heart was worse.

He walked down stairs to bandage his wounds and none of the members dared to speak, they all continued looking down as Wonwoo opened the cabinet to get out the first aid kit before finishing up and attempting to walk back upstairs.

The door opened and Wonwoo couldn't help but hope it was J, although he knew she would never come back to him.

Jun came in giggling a little. "I got all the stuff." He nodded his head towards S coups. "Where's J? I got her that chocolate she's been looking for."

No one answered as Jun took a seat in between Joshua and Mingyu. He looked around at everyone before he slowly got up.

"No." "You didn't"

"It was the only way-" Dk began but Jun quickly cut him off.

"That's not fucking true and you know it." Jun yelled. "Tell you're joking." He rubbed his temples. "This is why you sent me to the store, so I couldn't stop you."

No reply.

Jun turned his piercing eyes to Wonwoo who was still at the bottom of the stairs, looking down at the newly placed cartoon bandages J had bought them on his knuckles.

"I told you not to do it." Jun yelled making his way to Wonwoo.

"This is for her own good." Wonwoo barely voiced out.

"Don't give me that bullshit." Jun intervened. "We were capable of keeping her safe."

"No we weren't, he would've found a way to get to her." Wonwoo slightly shook his head.

"this is your fault. You son of a-" the rest of that sentence was cut off as Jun's fist met wonwoo's left cheek causing him to stumble back. The members stood up from their places as Jun grabbed Wonwoo by the collar. "It wasn't just about you and her. She was my best friend too. You ruined it for all of us." He let go of his collar and headed upstairs.

Everyone was taken back. Wonwoo went back into the kitchen to place some ice onto his now bruising cheek as Jeonghan came up to him.

"It's okay." He reassured, taking the ice cubes from wonwoo's hand and wrapping them in a paper towel before gently placing them on his cheek.

"Where are you going?" The two heard S coups call out.

"You let her go out on her own in the middle of the night in this weather with no place to go." Jun simply replied buttoning his sweater. "And knowing her, there's no way she took a jacket or sweater with her."