Every Ending (COMPLETED)

Kabanata 21

She looks worried which makes my heart warmed.

Kumunot ang noo niya nang pinasadahan ako ng tingin mula ulo hanggang paa. Napansin ata ang pagkabasa ko.
"Bakit ngayon ka lang? At bakit basang-basa ka?"

I almost laugh at that. Not because I find her funny but because... she obviously worried because of me earlier and then she's acting mad or maybe really mad at me now.

I smiled at her.

"Nabasa po ako ng ulan kanina at natagalan dahil walang mahanap na motor."

She narrowed her eyes more.

"Bakit ba kasi hindi mo dinala ang payong mo? Ayan tuloy at nabasa ka! Ikaw talagang bata ka! Paano kapag nagkasakit ka, hah?!"

I chuckled. My eyes start forming a tear... I did my best to keep it.

I just can't help to feel happy and glad now. I am such an unlucky person but I guess not totally unlucky since I have someone who loves and cares for me.

Just like my Lola.

Not only her.

Pati si Auntie at si Magnum. Kahit loka-loka 'yon, alam ko naman na nag-aalala din siya sa akin.

Funny thing is... I'm about to cry now but why didn't I earlier? Dala siguro ng sobrang pagod at bigat ng nararamdaman ko kanina.

"Pumasok ka na nga doon at magpalit ka na ng damit!"

Nauna siyang tumalikod at hindi ko na napigilan na may isang butil ng luha ang tumulo sa akin.

I quickly wiped it.

I sighed and fixed myself.

These past few months, I noticed that I'm being too sensitive... I don't if I just miss my life in Manila o sobrang bigat lang talaga ng nararamdaman ko. Or maybe both? Hindi naman kasi ako ganito dati, eh... But I guess madami ng nagbago simula ng lumipat ako dito.

At the same time. Marami din akong natutunan.

But whatever the reason, I'll not take that as a reason to give up on my dreams. I've come too far, madami na akong napagdaanan na pagsubok, If my destiny is not to be happy then let it be... But that doesn't mean that I'll not going to pursue my dreams. I wanted to achieve my dreams not for myself but also for my loved ones.

Kaya hindi ko muna iisipin ang tungkol kay Gen. From now on... I'll just prioritize my studies like what I'm used to.

I quickly charged my phone the moment I came in. Mamaya ay itetext ko sa kanya ang dapat na sasabihin ko.

I've done doing a lot of things and now I'm already laying here on my bed. Typing my message for Genesis. Natagalan pa ako sa pag-iiisip ng sasabihin dahil hindi ko naman apam kung paano sisimulan. Isa pang dahilan ay ang pagkahilo ko. Kanina ko pa gustong matulog pero dahil sa mga naiisip, hindi ko magawa.

Ako:

I'm sorry for what I've said back then. I know that there's no other explanation for that but still... I'm not hoping that you'll suddenly forgive me. I'm just doing what I have to do.