Every Ending (COMPLETED)

Kabanata 36

Kabanata 36

Mahal

The cold wind of the last week of October makes me shiver. And I shivered more looking at Gen who's giving me a cold-eyed stare.

He looks at me like I'm someone that he hates the most. That I'm someone that he trusted but then I broke it the reason he'll not going to trust me anymore.

Nasa malayo kaming parte ng kasiyahan kaya imposibleng may makitinig sa amin. No one can also see us here cuz aside from the big and tall trees, there are also some vehicles here to cover us.

"Gen." I whispered in the air.

He clenched his jaw.

Napalunok ako habang pinapanood siyang galit na nakatingin sa akin, umiigting na panga. I never know that he can be this angry, ngayon ko lang nalaman dahil ngayon ko lang din nakita. I guess, he's really that mad, huh?

"I-I'm sorry," I said in a small voice, halos hangin lang ang lumabas sa bibig ko.

I remember the times when I'm always apologizing to him. I'm always doing it because I admit that I'm the one who does nothing but mistakes, palagi na lang mali. Hindi na ako natuto, dahil kung natuto man ako, sana ay hindi ako humingi ulit ng tawad sa kanya ngayon.

He just looked at me, still in a cold way. Hindi ko tuloy mabasa ang iniisip niya- No, hindi ko naman talaga kailanman mabasa ang nasa isip niya mula pa noon.

I used to read people back then through their reactions or faces, but this man is really hard to read. May reaksyon man o wala.

"Why?" He asked in a cold way.

Ang lakas ng loob kong makipagtitigan pa din sa kanya sa kabila ng kabang nararamdaman.

"D-dahil sa mga sinabi ko no-"

"Don't be sorry, Amaia." He paused for a moment. His jaw moves repeatedly while looking at me.

The way he mentioned my name almost breaks my heart. The way he says my name back then was sound careful like it's an important thing that he needs to value but now... may diin at damang- dama ko ang galit niya. Especially the way he looks at me.

And my heart sank and breaks while I'm looking at it.

"Nagpakatotoo ka lang naman, 'di ba?" May diin ang bawat bigkas niya ng salitang 'yon. "That... Ano nga ba 'yon? You like someone else so you want me gone in your life." He whispered a curse. "Bullshit."

He's. Mad.

I gritted my teeth while looking at him. Nagpipigil na may sabihing kung ano kasabay ng pagpigil ko sa namuuong luha sa mata ko.

"'Y-yun na nga, eh." I trailed off, gritting my teeth.

Hindi nakaligtas sa akin ang bahagyang pagkunot ng noo niya. He didn't say a thing the reason I speak again.

"I'm sorry because I don't believe you back then. I'm sorry because what I've said days ago was just... lies. I admit it, yes, I really have feelings for you and you are right that I'm just scared to admit it back then."

Natigilan siya. Hindi ko alam kung dahil ba sa kanyang mga narinig o dahil sa luhang tumakas sa aking mga mata.

Nanginig ang labi ko. I swallowed hard before I continue. While him is getting and getting closer to me. Tila alam niya ang susunod kong sasabihin at isang pagkakamali ko lang, sasaktan niya ako.

My heart went faster and faster.

"Takot lang ako sa madaming bagay kaya hindi ko 'yon maamin... maski sa sarili ko. The reason I've done so many stupid things to you. I'm so sorry, I'm sorry... for hurting your feelings." My voice cracked.