Hi I'm Lauren jauregui I'm 24, im a singer song writer and I miss my ex girlfriend everyday.
It's been a few years since camila cabello and I broke up, but I miss her every single day, I regret how I treated her, I still love her.
I want to go see her, I know where she is, but I just can't I don't have the guts to see her, to face her to maybe bring back the pain I caused her.
Right now I was in my bedroom with my dog cleo asleep by the side of me, I was writing in my book.
It was pretty late at night, this is when I get in my feelings the most.
I feel my puppy wake up and smile softly, she jumps off the bed and I follow her and let her out to go to the toilet.
When she was done with the toilet she sat by the front door to say she wants to go for her walk.
"Okay Mija...I could do with a little walk too" I say, I grab her leash and take her for her walk.
As I was walking her I look at camilas house, I know she is back in Miami I saw the pictures with her and Shawn.
I sigh sadly and keep walking cleo
Cleo stops after a little and I bend down
"What's wrong?" I ask, she grabs a stick and I giggle
"Wanna play?" I ask, she hands me the stick and I take her off her leash I toss the stick and she runs after it.
I was watching my puppy run around and play, this will wear her out so she'll go back to sleep when we get come.
"Cleo!" I call after a while, she didn't come back I sigh
"Cleo! Come here" I say, she does and I pet her
As I was putting her leash back on she runs off before I could grab it. I look and see she's going to a woman, I sigh because she loves to play with everyone.
"Cleo come here, leave her alone" I say, I walk over to Cleo and the woman looks up, my heart jumped as did I.
"Cleo come on" I whisper, I grab her leash she jumps up at camila and I sigh
"Stop" I mumble, I feel myself go down several sizes as camila just looked at me
"It's okay, she's cute...can I pet her?" She asked, i nod softly
As she was playing with Cleo I shiver softly, wrapping my jacket around me a little more camila saw.
"I'm sorry, you can go I know it's cold" she said, I just look down and Cleo sits by my feet looking at me.
"What?" I ask in a baby voice smiling, she spins and I giggle
"No mama, we go home then you can play...no more icky sticks" I say still in the same baby voice, I hear a giggle and blush remembering camila was there.
I clear my throat and glance at her
"Come on cle" I mumble
"Don't hide the voice you talk to her in...it's cute" Camila said, I smile lightly and go to say something but my phone went off, I frown wondering who could be calling me this late at night and grab my phone out of my pocket.
'Ty'
I tense up a little but answer it
"H-Hi" I say, camila frowns
"Where the fuck are you?!" He yells, I know camila heard it because she was wide eyed
"I-I umm...I took Cleo for a walk" I say
"Well you should be here! You didn't tell me or ask me if you could!" He yells, I gulp
"I'm sorry" I whisper
"Get the fuck home!" He yells and hangs up, I blink back the tears of fright in my eyes and take a deep breath.
"Come on Cleo" I say, she gets up and I look at camila then away
"Lauren..." she said as I was going to walk away, I look at her and she walks closer
"Who was that on the phone?" She asked, i shook my head
"My boyfriend" I say softly, she frowns
"You shouldn't let someone talk to you like that" she said, I shook my head fake smiling
"No, it's not like that, it's my fault" I say, she frowns
"For taking your dog for a walk?" She asked, i shook my head
"There's more too it" I say, she nods softly
"Okay...be safe" she said, I smile for real and nod
"Yeh...you too...and it was...nice to see you" I say, she nods
"You too" she said, I nod smiling and walk back home
When I got home I put some water down for Cleo, I got a few toys out for her and walk upstairs.
Ty was sat on the bed and got up seeing me walk in, he walks to me and I tense up again.
"Don't you ever fucking leave with out my permission!" He yells, I nod softly
"I'm sorry, I didn't want to wake you up and Cleo wanted a walk" I say softly
"Then don't fucking walk her until I'm awake!" He yells, I nod softly
"Go sleep downstairs with her" he said, I nod and go downstairs and sleep on the couch, I grab the blanket off the back of it and curl up. Cleo jumps up and cuddles me and I sigh softly, I smooth her and she looks at me as if she knows what's going on.
"Night baby" I whisper and kiss her head, she puts her head on my shoulder and I close my eyes falling asleep.
