How Dare You? (COMPLETED)

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My dear cousin.

I chuckled. Oo nga pala, magpinsan nga pala kami. Magkadugo kami kaya isang malaking pagkakamali kapag nagkarelasyon kami. Nakakagago 'no? Kung sino pa 'yong taong mahal mo, hindi pa pwedeng mapa-sa 'yo. Ang unfair lang.

Tinitigan ko ang mga bituin sa kalangitan. They're peacefully shining like a bright diamond and no one is disturbing nor hurting them. Sana, isa na lang din ako sa kanila. 'Yong tipong nakalagay sa tahimik, walang mananakit, at hindi masasaktan.

I stared at the whole football field in front of me. Wow, memories. He used to play in this field back then. I wonder, how many championships has he gotten? How many football cup mvp trophies has he taken home? How successful is he after three months?

I'm tired of crying. Hindi ko rin natagalan sa kasal nila Aella kahapon and I wasn't able to meet her, to talk to her. Actually, wala rin naman akong karapatan i-confront siya dahil hindi naman niya alam ang tungkol sa relasyon namin ni Paul noon. There's only one person to blame here, and that's me.

If I am not blinded by love, things won't go that far 'til here. If I controlled myself and my feelings, I won't be hurt and he wouldn't be in danger.

I was stunned when I saw Paul entering the football field while looking at me. No, ayoko nang makipag-usap pa sa kaniya. Ayoko muna. Just let me fucking heal and move on first. Hindi pa ako handa sa anumang sasabihin niya.

"Anik—"

"It's Christine," I corrected. Before, my heart used to melt when he's calling me on my second name but now, I just want him to call me on my first name since he doesn't have the right anymore.

"I'm sorry," I laughed. Humarap akong muli sa kaniya.

"Is your sorry enough to fix me? Is your sorry enough to heal the would that you've planted in my heart? Is your sorry enough to make everything fine?" sarkastiko kong tanong. Bahagya siyang yumuko. Hindi niya magawang salubungin ang mga mata ko. Hindi niya magawang salubungin ang mga titig ko na halos dati ay gustong-gusto niyang salubungin ng tingin.

Oh right, dati. Past na nga pala.

"I-I'm here to fix things...p-please...hear my s-side first.." he begged. Umiling ako. Tinalikuran ko siya saka mabilis na naglakad palayo.

"I loved you!" rinig kong sigaw niya. Tatlong salita, tatlong salita na ikinadurog ko na naman. Tangina, may ilalabas pa palang luha ang mga mata ko?

Hearing your favorite person saying that he's done loving you, is the most painful thing that I've ever heard.

Sana pala nabingi na lang ako. Sana pala nagbingi-bingihan na lang ako. Sana pala hindi na lang ako pumunta rito. Sana pala bumalik na lang ako sa Maldives hanggang maaga pa. Sana...

Sana hindi ko na lang siya minahal.

"I really loved you in the past. But..I fell in love with your bestfriend while you're not here. You can't blame me! You left me hanging without saying a word to me personally. Para akong laruan na iniwan mo lang sa isang tabi ta's babalikan mo 'ko kapag okay ka na ulit,"

I'm numb already so I just smiled at him while tears are dripping down from my cheeks. He doesn't know anything, but I guesss he has the right to know about it already.