Being Alive ( D.W)

"I Love You, Dean"

I nodded "You talking about retiring? You?"

Dean "If I knew the world was safe? Hell, yeah. And you know why? 'Cause we freaking earned it, honey."

I smiled and hugged him. 

Dean hugged me back. 

Me "Thank you for coming for me"

Dean pulled me closer to him "i'd never leave you behind, Len. I love you too much for that"

I let go of him and looked down. 

Dean grimaced "i said the "L" word, didn't i?"

Me "i wished i could say it back, Dean, i wish but i-"

Dean nodded and put a hand on my cheek "hey, it's okay. It's okay"

Then he put a kiss on my cheek before walking away. 

I sighed and walked to my bedroom. I went to open my door when i heard noises coming out of Jack's room. 

Then i walked into his room and saw him sleeping and talking in his sleep. 

Jack was tossing around "Stop! No!"

Me "Jack?"

I walked over to him and put a hand on his shoulder "Jack?"

Jack jumped up, anxious and disoriented. 

Me "Hey, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa. Easy. You're just having a bad dream."

Jack breathed out "sorry"

I shook my head"It's okay. You don't have to apologize. I have 'em, too. All the time."

Jack "You do?"

I nodded "Sure."

Jack "You, um... What do you see?"

Me "Well, depends. Mostly...mostly people I couldn't save."

Jack nodded "Me, too.Over there in the other world, I said I'd protect those people.But...I saw so many of them die. And...I tried to save them. I...I tried, but... I'm sorry. I wasn't strong enough."

I sighed "Jack "

Then i sat down next to him "it's not about being strong. I mean...Look, what we went through over there wasn't normal. it was bad. Really bad. But you came out the other side because you are strong. But even when we're strong, man, things are gonna happen. We're gonna make mistakes. Nobody's perfect. Right But we can get better. Every day, we can get better. So whatever you're dealing with, you know, whatever...whatever comes at us, we'll figure out a way to deal with it, together."

Jack looked at his hands. 

I grabbed his hand "You're family, kid, and we look after our own."

Jack looked at me and gave me a little smile. 

Suddenly Sam rushed into the room "Len"

I looked at him confused "who died?"

Outside. 

Maggie was lying in the woods dead. Mary and dad had found her. 

Jack "I-I... I said I'd protect her, and, ..."

Sam "Stop, Jack. This isn't your fault."

Dean "What happened to her?"

Mary shook her head "I don't know. Doesn't look supernatural."

Dad "Looks like some son of a bitch beat on her until..."