May time na nagdadalawang isip ako if ipupush ko pa ba yung international career ko knowing na wala na siya. Hindi ako sure if kakayanin ko pa, mag isa dito.
There was this time na gustong gusto ko ng umuwi ng Pinas and be with her. Pero Ella told me na tuparin ko yung pangako, antayin ko munang makatapos si Den before ako bumalik sa life niya.
And besided hindi na din kasi ako sure if gusto pa ba niya ako knowing na umaaligid na sakanya si Mika.
It's been years pero hindi padin ako sanay na waking up without Den's hugs and kisses. Ang sakit gumising with an empty bed and an empty heart. ----
"Babe, I know na we're okay now. Pero for us to completely move forward gusto ko lang maclear lahat ng issues natin before."
I always wondered bakit siya umalis. Kaso natatakot akong magtanong. Natatakot akong malaman kung kelan siya nagsimulang magtago sa akin.
"First, I want to ask you, when did WE become the problem? Because all along I thought nothing would change and we are in this together? So anong nagbago?" simula kong tanong ko kay Den.
"Babe, remember the time na sinabi ko sayo na pumapayag ako na mag-import tayo? Kitang kita ko kung gaano ka kasaya. Alam mo naman how happy I am na makita kang masaya." I just stare at her.
"Alyssa yung araw na umalis ako isa lang naman yung gusto kong marinig from you. I wanted you to support me. Support my personal dream. Kasi ayoko na our relationship will only evolve about you. Gusto ko lang naman marinig mula sayo na andito lang ako susupportahan kita sa kung anong gusto mo kahit na magkakalayo tayo."
"Pero bakit kaya mong iwan yung mahal mo? Kasi Den with you I FOUND MYSELF na. I am complete when I'm with you. Bakit kylangan mo pang umalis, hindi ba you're at the peak of your career din naman dba?" I slowly leaned my head on her shoulder then grab her hand and interlocked with mine.
"Sa totoo lang Alyssa noong asa Thailand tayo, I LOST MYSELF. I lost my personality dahil sa relasyon natin. Hindi na kasi ako makahinga. To tell you honestly yung life natin sa Thailand is just okay. Pero if hindi pa ako aalis, baka hindi ko na machase yung future ko. Alyssa, alam mong childhood dream ko ang maging doctor. Minahal ko ang volleyball dahil sayo. Pumayag ako kasi for one last time I want to cover you. Pero there's only one way, always your way, always your comfort. Where I am? Kelan darating yung time na ikaw naman magcocover satin? Alyssa, hindi na kitang kayang sabayan."
"Sabay kaya tayong maligo?" sinamaan niya lang ako ng tingin.
"Saan lulugar sayo te?" natatawa kong sabi ko sakanya.
"Alam mo Alyssa Valdez. Bwisit ka talaga sa buhay ko."
"I love you Doctora Dennise Lazaro" lambing ko sakanya.
"I love you? Magsorry ka muna kaya. Ilang taon akong nag-antay ng sorry mo noh." Den.
"Babe, I don't want you to let go that time pero parang wala ng magpapabago ng isip mo. Kung akong papapiliin I will choose us pero knowing you alam kong di ka papayag.I want to say sorry dahil I broke you. Sorry for hurting you. I'm sorry if kinahon kita sa sitwasyon na napilitan ka lang. Sorry for assuming things na okay lang sa iyo. Sorry for being manhid."
"Thank you for acknowledging na there's something wrong sa relationship natin. Thank you for taking the leap for our relationship kasi if not baka hindi tayo aabot dito. Den, you may now open the pink box na binigay ko sayo."
She took out the pink box from the cabinet and open it.
Den was clueless at Aly's gift. "Creamline Cool Smashers jersey?"
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"One last season for Alyden?" I said as I took the shirt and wear it to her.
