I was shocked as I saw her standing in front of her car.
I composed myself and rushed to her.
“Why the hell are you here? You’re a doctor. You should be treating your patients or something. Instead of waiting and driving me home.”
She smiled and took my hand.
“I’m off duty and I love you. It’s my responsibility to take care of you.” Den.
“I don’t want you to take care of me. I can manage. I know how to drive, and I know my way home.” I furiously said.
“Hey! Alyssa.” Tawag niya sa akin.
“You’re a prominent person but you don’t have any delicadeza. Den, ano bang hindi mo gets sa hindi kita gusto.” Sigaw ko sa kanya.
“Ly, stop making a scene here. Ang daming nakatingin sa atin.” Singit ni Ella sa pagtatalo namin ni Den.
“Wala akong pakialam. Mabuti na rin ng marinig ng lahat na I don’t like her and never ko siyang magugustuhan pero ano? Araw-araw pa din niya akong sinusundan.” I was mad. Really really mad.
“Calm down. Nakakahiya, Ly.” Pigil sa akin ni Ella.
Nilapitan ko si Den at sinabing “Umalis ka na and wag ka ng magpapakita ulit sa akin. Stay away from me.” sabay tulak ko sa kanya.
“Alyssa, sumosobra ka na, mag-usap kayo. Hindi yang pinapahiya mo siya. Pinapakita mo pa sa mga tao kung anong ugali mo.” Napipikon na sabi sa akin ni Ella.
"Badtrip!" I walked to the parking and start the engine of my car.
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I’m on my way home ng mapansin ko na may nakasunod sa akin.
Tumabi ako then kinonfront ko siya.
“Why are you following me?” I said looking straight to Den.
“Gusto ko lang makitang safe kang makakauwi.” Den.
Bumuntong hininga ako. “You're so stupid. Follow me.” Then bumalik na ako sa sasakyan ko and drive papunta sa nearest restaurant.
“I’m sorry nasobrahan ako kanina.” Hingi ko ng paumanhin sa kanya.
“It’s okay. It will take a life time bago ako magalit sayo.”
“Napapagod na akong ganito tayo lagi.”
“Ako din naman.”
“You know what, naguguilty din naman ako after kong mainis sayo.”
“Sabi nga nila di ba, wala namang nagsisisi sa simula.” Natatawa niyang sabi sa akin.
“My point ka naman pero ayoko kasi ng tinatrato mo ako ng ganito. Den, anong rason mo bakit you keep on following me?” Pagsang ayon ko sakanya.
“Simple lang because I want show you how much I love you.”
“That’s it?” Taka kong tanong sa kanya.
“Yes.” she simply replied.
“Nahihiya ako sayo den. hindi ko talaga kayang suklian yung mga ginagawa mo sakin.” Hingi ko ng paumanhin.
“Hindi ko naman hinihiling na suklian mo. I’m not expecting anything in return. Masaya na akong pinaparamdam sayo na mahal kita.” She looked away and started to wipe her tears.
“Den, you don’t have to do this. You deserve someone that who will love you the same way back. Someone who would loves you wholeheartedly. That someone is not me. Hindi ko kayang turuan at pilitin ang sarili ko na mahalin ka. Hindi ko kayang ibigay ang pagmamahal ko sayo. Hindi kita kayang mahalin sa paraan na gusto mo. I’m not worthy for you, you’re too good for me. I’m sorry but I cannot accept you.” Alyssa.
“Thank you for being honest. I can't force someone to take risk for me. But doing little things to the one I love is always worth it for me. From now on, please take care of yourself and be happy.” Den said while bitterly smiling.
I can see the tears dripping in her eyes. Ang sakit para sa akin na makita siyang nasasaktan pero kaylangan kong magmatigas.
