The Only String Attached

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I was letting my pain out,I will wash it out today.I can't let the pain and guilt eat me.

"I'm lucky to have you Mahir..di is lucky to get you as her first love...we are lucky",she too sobbed.

"OK,I wanted to tell you these words from many days...but I was being a coward.I need to tell you",I said.

She nodded sobbing.

"I..I love you Bela,I fucking love you so much,everyone could recognize that I loved you,but me being a jerk couldn't understand it.But I would not feel that heavy when you left if I was not in your love.Bani would not be that suspicious about me being in love with you...I...I love you Bela.I love you",I said cupping her face.

"Please say...say...it again",she choked.

"I love you Bela,I love you so much.The past is past,I don't want to go back to past again.My future is with you..I will be with you till my last breathe.I love you Bela..I love you so damn much",I joined our foreheads.

"I want to say something Mahir",Bela said.

"I love you Mahir..I love you so much..I've been dying to tell you these words daily..I told you once,but I was not a good state that time.But now I'm telling you again..I love you...I love you so much,don't leave me again,I can't bear it this time",she said hugging me.

"I won't leave you...never.And I love you so much..so much..now I can't think my life without you Bela..I can't",I said hugging her tightly.

I cupped her face and she was still sobbing.I wiped her tears and looked at her.

"There is a lot to talk with you Bela...we have so much time right?"I asked her.

"We have a lifetime now",she said smiling, looking into my eyes.

I cupped her face and looked into her eyes..I was about to slam my lips on hers but she kept her hand in between.

What...why?

"Others are watching us Mahir",she signalled me too look around.

Fuck!

Everyone were looking at us from their balconies.

Shameless people!!

I held her hand and moved to our lobby closing the fucking balcony door.

I want  to propose her properly
"Bela Sharma..I love you.Will you be Mrs.Mahir Sehgal..will you grow old with me?"I asked.

She was chuckling wiping her tears
"I am already Mrs.Mahir Sehgal..and I will grow old with you my love",she said helding my hand.

My love!!!!

I kissed her hands.She was smiling still tears flowing from her eyes.We both went to sit on our couch.

I settled her on my lap and joined our foreheads.

"Bela...I need to tell you one thing,I don't know how you will feel..but Bani dint talk to me for a whole day because of that",I said playing with her fingers.

"What is it Mahir?"she asked.

"I...I once spelled your name...spelled your name while making love to Bani",I said.

Fuck yes..I did that and Bani dint spoke to me for a whole day due to this.

That's why she got to know that I loved Bela more than her.

"You.. what?What..you..you said my name..while..god..what the?Why did you say my name during that time?"Bela said sitting beside me now.

"I..I don't know myself about it..I guess I was..I was thinking  about you that time",I said rubbing my nape.