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CDH

Congenital Diaphragmatic Hernia

Is what I suffered from

The one that almost cut my life

It only took 10 surgeries

To finally live my life

Some days I question

Why can't I just be normal?

Did I really have to live?

I regretted being alive

And hated these scars

They make me hate myself all over again

Sinking me into the bottom of the lake

But at the end of the day

BTS comes to save me again

And even though

I may still have breathing problems

I am a survivor of CDH

Just at 17 years old

I no longer require surgeries

And no longer have chest pain

I just have my surgeries

That I am slowly trying to love

Thanks to them

I am alive today

And even if they look disgusting

I will for sure one day

Appreciate them and fully be

A proud 17-year-old CDH survivor

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My mother always told me God let me live for a reason, and I think my reason is to help you all. My doctors have also told me the same thing. Many of them thought I wouldn't make it, crazy right? But I am glad I am alive.

I want to thank you all for listening and reading my story. I had told many of my stars this story a couple of times, but it's been so long since I've talked about it. I want to thank you all for reading and just know I am okay. In total, I had 10 surgeries done on me. I have one on my neck, three on my stomach, and one below my right shoulder. I have two internally and the other three were redone on the other surgeries because they reopened. I had all these surgeries done when I was born and again when I was 3 years old. The most dangerous surgery was redone three times, and it was the one below my right shoulder. It was where my hernia was and it was close to my heart. I am surprised I am alive. I guess I was really meant to do something in this life.

Thank you to everyone that's in my life. You were all meant to be in my life, so I thank you for everything you've done for me. I love you all so much my stars.