The Only String Attached

26

I tested my self for three times when I could sense pregnancy symptoms.

All were positive!

I went to Polo aunty for getting tested again. It was positive again.

I was pregnant Mahir! We were pregnant!

I was on the top of the world,my happiness knew no bounds that day. I came home to inform you about it.

You were sitting in our balcony drinking coffee. I was just staring at you. I dint knew how to tell you about this. I was worried weather you were ready to be a father or not.

Because,if you were still concerned about Bela,I wouldn't share this news with you.

I can't spoil our happy moments,I can't bear this child when you love another women along with me.

I was scared to tell you. But I have to tell you. I couldn't put you in the dark.

You are the father of my baby and you deserve to know.

"What's wrong with you Bani? You dint want to have Mahira? How can you think like that about me"?I was now angry on her.

She doubted me,my love,my honesty,my loyalty.

How can she?

Now I'm feeling the pain which Bela felt when I doubted her love towards Mahira.

I'm sorry Bela. Now I know how you felt. Sorry is not enough.

I told you that I'm pregnant and you were shocked. You were not just you for that ten minutes when I told you. You were happy like no other person in this world.

I was happy that you were happy. This child made our bond more strong. This child dint let you go from me to Bela.

"The fuck is wrong with you Bani? How can you think like that? That child was a ray of hope in my tough life that time. And you thought in this way about it"?I sighed.

I dint knew Bani took it in that way. But she just doubted me about it. Why couldn't she ask me directly?

I'm hurt Bani! Maybe I should say that I'm angry on you.

Yes,I am angry on her!

She dint knew about what I went through, what Bela went through. I thought I was being selfish,but Bani was the one being selfish from that time.

I know you must be cursing me right now Mahir. I know. You are cursing me because you loved Bela.

And no one can change that truth. You just dint realize that time.

Our whole family was happy with my pregnancy news. I was happy that everyone were happy because of our baby.

But I was guilt ridden when I went to inform my dad about it. I can never forget that day in my life Mahir. Even if I die, that day will haunt me.

"How are you now Bela?Are you taking your medications properly"?I heard my dad talking in the phone.

I dint want to evsdrop,but I had to when I heard Bela's name.

I was more scared than being happy. I was scared that she may come back into our life's. I dint want to loose you.

"Bela if something will happen to you,trust me you will see my dead body. I can't loose you my child",I heard my dad sobbing.

What happened to her? Why is he crying?

"Bani di is fine. She is happy just as you wanted Bela. She and Mahir are happy together",he said.