Did I Ever Love Her ?

Is This Happiness ?

In many other ways, I took revenge from each and everyone who laid their hands on me and kicked me and bullied me the whole year. I was feeling way more confident and happier than before.
I found happiness in temporary things and among them was my relationships. I never took any of my relationship seriously because there was no love, all I wanted was peace and yet I couldn't find it anywhere.
The new year party it was, I was invited by a friend of mine and there were his friends too.
Party went till 2 a.m night and everyone's getting calls from their parents. We decided to leave the pub. I went out and my friend called me.
"How you going home buddy?" He asked
"On my bike." I said
"Are you riding alone?" He asked
"Yes. Why, what happened." I asked
"If you don't mind, can you drop Sia?" He asked
"No problem buddy, ask her if she has no problem coming with me. I'll drop her safely." I said
"Sia come here." He called
"He'll drop you to your location." He said to Sia.
"Oh thanks a lot, Aarav." Said Sia
"Where you stay Sia?" I asked
"Downtown road, Shivajipark." She said
"Really? I live just 1 km away from your house. Never knew you stay so close to me." I said
"Haha, but we never knew each other before." She said
"My mistake, Sia. Let's not waste anymore minute. Sit back." I said
"Yeah. It's been so late." She said

She sat behind me on the backseat of my bike and she held the back handle with one hand and the other hand she kept on my shoulder. I shifted gears and we left.

My relationship was going bad.
Then things got worse and I ended a good relation with another girl.
This was all day work for me. Meeting a girl, getting closer, dating, hookup and a quick breakup.
I never then checked on with anyone of them I'd left. It was just a play for a player on levels increasing.

"Do you ever wondered, how badly you treated each and every girl? You are losing your conscience Aarav." Said Daksh
"Bro, this is the age. This is the time to do all this. If you can't be a player of this game, then at least don't complain about it." I replied
"I'm sorry to say this, but by such means of living life won't give you a permanent stable happiness. Think about that brother." Daksh said
"You are stable right? So be at your zone. I don't want to be stable. I can't just live with one girl for so long, like you." I said
"You are getting out of your nerves. Control your mind and let your heart wander." Daksh said
"Please Daksh . Stop all this." I said

Suddenly Daksh's phone starts ringing.
"Hii Naish." Daksh said
"Where are you?" Naish said

Naish is Daksh's second and only girlfriend for now. It's been more than a year for them and every day I just wonder, how cannot both of them just get bored with each other. They both are really good for each other and both of their families knew about their relationship. But this all doesn't makes sense for one to hold on with the same for so long. I mean there are options, there's upgrade for everything around.

"On my way. Just 5 minutes more please." Daksh said
"He's still in my room Naish. Giving me unnecessary lectures here." I shouted
"Sshhh..." Daksh murmured
"5 minutes that's it." Naish said
"I think you're getting late boy." I said
"I know right." Said Daksh
And then he left.
As soon as Daksh left, I called one of my friend to pass my time.
Suddenly I got another call and at the moment I was on a call.
I got messages, lots and lots of messages.
"Where are you? Why's your call busy for so long? With whom are you talking? and etc.
It was getting hard to manage two three girls at same time. I bought another phone and a new number. This somehow helped me but it was still difficult to talk to more than one person at a time.
I spent my all day in this manner.  I don't know what has to be done for the future, but what is happening now at this moment was more than good enough. 
Is this the real happiness, that was lacking in my life?
Get what you go with long, get what you can hold on high. Life won't stop and will the breath will. Get high on happiness, the true one - the real one.