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BYE10: We Can't Have Faith for Everybody Part 2

"You want to talk? Fine, Let's talk. Come with me" sabi ko at saka nagpatiuna na ng lakad. Hinayaan ko siyang maglakad lang sa likod ko. God, what am I thinking? Accepting his proposal to talk to me. Stupid, Beverly. Let's just hope that he's going to say something worth my time.

Nang makarating sa coffee shop ay umupo na kami sa may tabi ng bintana. He sat in front of me, nang matitigan siya saglit ay agad na akong nagiwas ng tingin. He looked like he aged so much within just a week! He already grew some stubble and his hair was much more longer.

"What's your order?" I asked him, still not meeting his gaze.

"Kahit ano lang, anak" I groaned when I heard him call me "anak" Umirap ako, hindi napigilan ang pagtataray.

Wala pang gaanong tao sa coffee shop which is nice. Kung ano man ang paguusapan namin, i know for sure that it'll affect me so much.

"One Cup of Caramel Frappe and One Americano, please" Hinintay ko ang order sa cashier at piniling hindi muna maupo pero ganon na lang ako nanlumo nang mabilis na dumating ang inorder ko. Now, I really have to face him! Ano nga ba ang pumasok sa kokote ko at pumayag ako? Ugh!

Nilapag ko ang americano sa harap niya saka ako umupo sa upuan. Tahimik kong sinipsip ang frappe ko at lumingon sa bintana.

Dad cleared his throat. I frowned at him. Binaba ko na ang frappe. Well, here comes the inevitable. "Okay. Tell me, bakit ka nandito?" I asked.

"Anak, Sorry..." I'm not here to hear his sorry and apologies!

"You know you have to do better than that. Anong kailangan mo?"

"Gusto ko lang humingi ng tawad sa lahat lahat, anak. Hindi ko gustong iwan kayo ni Melda. Andito lang sana ako para makabawi sainyo." His eyes were bloodshot halatang pinipigilan ang pag-iyak.

"Bakit ngayon ka lang?"

"Sinabi ko na sayo, wala akong contact sa inyo. Pinutol niyo lahat ng koneksyon niyo sa akin! Paano ko kayo mahahanap?"

Kung gusto may paraan, kung ayaw maraming dahilan. I remember that quoted passage, funny how it fits the current situation. Nangisi ako nang palihim "Paano mo kami nahanap ngayon?"

"Narinig ko lang sa kapitbahay namin na ka-eskwela mo ang pangalan mo. Nang malaman ko iyon ay agad na akong pumunta sa eskwelahan niyo, sa tuwa at dala ng kuryosidad ko ay sinundan kita pauwi..."

"Do you know how scared I was? What are you? Some kind of freak who follows little girls at night? You could've approached me cautiously!" I whisper-shouted at him not wanting to create a ruckus.

"Natakot lang naman ako...." I scoffed, after all he's done ngayon pa siya matatakot. I hate this.

"So, that's it? Sorry lang? No explanation? Sorry doesn't fix anything. Is it even really your reason why you're here?"

"Anak, sorry kung iniwan ko kayo ng Mommy mo. Sorry kung sumama ako sa ibang babae, pero anak..... Si Melda rin naman ang may kasalanan..." Nagpantig ang tainga ko sa narinig ko. Tangina. Disgust was all over my face. If he's here to play victim, then he should go somewhere else! I am not a fucking hospital.

"You have what? 10 years to think about what you've done and you still have the nerve to blame my mother for your infidelity? Dad, what the fuck is wrong with you?" Nanginig ako boses ko sa inis at galit. The audacity he has to blame my Mother because he's a flirt!