If I Leave, Will You Love Me? (JENLISA)

I Wanna Hate You

JENNIE POV

Days passed, and I'm still the same person. Just staying quiet without knowing what to do, I asked myself if I was that coward in all things? Because, I can't decide anything alone, whether it's my feelings or my life going forward. To be more exact, I reject my own courage, I don't want to know anything behind this problem because I'm afraid of the truth, and I'm afraid to find out the meaning of my strange feelings for Lisa

It's not because I'm afraid of being wrong, but I'm afraid if it's true

"What are you thinking?"

The man in front of me, who wore a black shirt and a hat of the same color, made my daydream disappear. He smiled at me, holding a coffee cup in his hand. I shook my head and smiled back at him, "Nothing, I was just thinking about what to cook for dinner" I answered incoherently

Jackson, he nodded after hearing my answer. Sipping his black coffee then he took off his hat and fixed his messy hair, I watched him, this was the umpteenth time he did that. "So, you're staying with your friend?"

I just nodded, not trying to explain why I was moving in with lisa. Although Jackson and I were close in high school but we haven't seen each other in a long time, so it's a little awkward for me, especially if I have to tell him about my life, I don't think we're that close anymore. I ran into him by chance while I'm taking out the trash earlier, he offered me a cup of coffee and I was afraid to say no, besides with lisa going to Seoul I got bored by myself at home

"I think we have to hang out together often, it's been a long time, so I kind of miss high school days. Do you mind if I ask you to hang out once in a while? Just to shake off the awkwardness between us" He said, apparently he realized that I felt awkward

I didn't answer right away, didn't know what to give. First of all I'm not in a good mood for things like this, and second I'm not interested at all. This Jackson, he's my first love  but  nothing special when I see him again. He's just like he used to be, he's handsome, has a lot of stories that won't bore me when I talk to him, but .... right now there's someone who doesn't even need to say anything, she can make me feel less bored, just looking at her makes me feel strange,

But I like this strange feeling

"Well, we could hang out sometime. I'm not busy either, and lisa goes to Seoul a lot. " I said, there's nothing wrong because I don't have any friends here

He smiled with satisfaction and nodded: "Oh, I wonder where your unit is? How about we order some pizza and eat at your place? Do you mind?"

I was a little surprised the way he went to the point. I glanced at my watch, it's 7:00 at night, I didn't realize it's been two hours sitting here with him, I don't know when lisa's gonna be back and I'm a little hungry too. I wasn't sure, but I finally nodded in agreement, which he replied with sweet smile

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"Really? And what happened after that?" Jennie asked excitedly while eating the pizza they had ordered

They sat in living room, accompanied by the sound of an abandoned TV, a box of pizza and a bottle of soft drink.  Jackson takes a bite of his pizza, then puts it back on the plate. He looked at Jennie while holding back his laughter, "Then I hid for 1 week, my parents and her parents were so angry, but what can I do? I can't marry her just like that, and I only realized when I was on the altar" Jackson said

Jennie burst out laughing at his story. "Seriously, Jackson. Running away from your own wedding is the weirdest thing I've ever heard! How can you live in peace after all that?" Asked jennie