A Thousand Times by E Janetulip

Chapter 25

"나를 감싸줘 (Please cover up for me) my Aurora."

⭐

Is this dream or reality?

-Aurora (오로라)

2018. 05. 12.

It's been two months since college started. I'm starting to lose my mind. At first, I could still go home and visit my parents but as time slips along I'm starting to have more things to do. It's starting to pile up, leaving me not have time to go home and have alone time with my parents. I wish they are all dirty clothes that I could just toss off in our washer and wait for minutes until they are all done. But it's not. You need to have an effort, a time, a brain that's smart, patience, and a lot of foods because I tend to stress eating when my brain doesn't work. I'm starting to double think if I still want to become a psychologist. School is just a pain in the ass.

I'm stuck in my apartment until I finish all the things that need to be done. I know what you're thinking if I couldn't visit my parents why not switch it up and make them go to me. Well, it's not that easy as hearing it. They have work and they are also busy with that. Even though they visit me I still want me to visit them, not the other way around.

It's only been two months and I'm already feeling this way. I miss our home. I miss my bed. I miss everything. I miss everyone the way we used to. If I could do anything just for things to be the same way again, I'd do everything.

As to Seonghwa, just like me busy with school he was also busy training and practicing hard. Same as to San since they are both in the same company. Even though we're all in the same city, it is still hard for us to see each other. If it weren't my university, it's his schedule in his company. 

We mostly talk on the screen but even if he doesn't call or pick up any of my calls I understand because sometimes when I am also drained, all I want to do is sleep. What more if he dances every day for hours? I couldn't imagine myself. The difference between us, school is more on critical thinking and his, is more on physical.

He called me last night after I decided to go to bed and took a break. I made up my mind in continuing to do the rest of my tasks the next day which is today. All I did yesterday was try finishing some homework even today. I also need a break. My brain doesn't work all the time when I want to. I'm not that smart. I'm smart but not that smart. You know what I mean right?

"여보세요? (Yeoboseyo?)" his voice greeted me, he sounded so sleepy since it was already late.

"어 성화씨?(Eo Seonghwa-ssi?)," I answered, "벌써 늦었네, 왜 아직도 안 자고 있어? [It's already late why are you still up?]."

"나 알아 (Na ala), 나는 단지 너의 목소리를 듣고 싶다 [I just want to hear your voice]."

"어 그래? [Eo gurae?]" I heard him mumbling, answering back to me. "오늘 하루 어땠어? 고생 많으셨어요? [How was your day? Did you have a hard time?]" I asked, concerned about him.

"너무 피곤하다 [It is very tiring]."

"마침내 목표에 도달했을 때 곧 결실을 맺을 것이라는 걱정은 하지 마라 [Don't worry that will paid off soon when you finally reach your goal]."

"그러길 바래 [I hope so]."

"그럴 거야, 난 널 믿어. 오늘 수고했고 잘 지내고 있다는 것 잊지 마 [You will, I believe in you. Don't forget you did a great job today and that you're doing well]."

"고마워 (Gomawo)" he softly thanked me.

"계속 해. 할 수 있다는 거 알아 [Just keep it up. I know you can do it]."

"고마워 (Gomawo)," he repeated, "학교는 어때? 잘 지내니? [How's school? Are you doing just fine?]" he asked me because last time I kept complaining about how much homework they gave us.

"그냥 내일 계속할 거야. 난 더 이상 참을 수가 없어, 내 뇌는 이미 작동하지 않아 [I'll just continue it tomorrow. I can't take it anymore, my brain is already not working]."

"무리하지 마라 [Don't overdo yourself]," he reminded.

"알았어 (Arasseo), 걱정하지 않아도 돼 [you don't have to worry]," reassuring him about me. "너도, 무리하지 마 [you too, don't overdo yourself]."

"나는 항상 너를 걱정 할 것이다 [I will always worry about you]," he confessed before continuing. "넌 내 오로라야 [You're my Aurora]," I could feel a smile appeared on his face and felt mine had a small smile by his words.

"너 지금 침대에 있니? [Are you in bed now?]"

"응 [Eung]," I said, nodding my head even though he couldn't see me. How I wish I could see him. We could face time but he told me their lights were already off and his roommate was already sleeping.

"보고싶어 (Bogosipeo)," he mumbled so quietly but I managed to hear him and he continued telling me how his day was.

I closed my eyes, listening to his voice. There is really something in his voice that sounds so calming. His voice alone sounds so calming, it's like the feeling when you listen to slow songs. Hugging the pillow beside me I responded telling I also miss him, "나도 보고싶어 (Nado bogosipeo)."

I heard him let out a yawn from the other side of the line, "성화씨 (Seonghwa-ssi)"

"흠? (Hm?)"

"너는 지금 자야 해, 내일도 일찍 일어나야 해 [You should sleep now, you still need to wake up early tomorrow."

"응, 잘자 (Eung, Jalja)."

"잘자 (Jalja)."

"사랑해 (Saranghae)."

I mumbled sleepily, "성화씨 사랑해 (Seonghwa-ssi Saranghae)." I had a long day after all, "언제나 (Eonjena)."

Our call lasted for about 20 minutes or so. Last night's call was the longest call we had for this week. Even though he was sleepy and probably exhausted with their training, he still managed to call me. I really appreciate the call he made. I appreciate him, Seonghwa. I actually didn't want to call him last night because I knew he was tired just like me but I was more mentally exhausted. I dropped him my messages yesterday because I really didn't want to bother him. I'd let him have his rest but he was the one who called me and said he wanted to hear me so I let him be. That's what we do when we couldn't make a call, we send each other messages. There are times when we sometimes forget leaving messages but we are making up for that day when didn't the next day. I guess this is how it's going for a while until we are free again. Until our schedule is okay again.