The Only String Attached

20

"Shut up Yuvi, what are you talking"?I yelled at him.

"Bhai you should never run away from the present situation. It's nothing wrong falling in love for second time. You are just scared to accept it", he said taking my hands in his.

"I know Yuvi,but the guilt is still eating me like a disease. I'm feeling like I'm cheating on Bela by still remembering Bani. I don't want Bani to be a problem in our relationship",I said.

"Mahir bhai, I guess you are clear with your feelings,but you have to wait till Mahira's birthday. Read bhabi's journal. You will get a clarity", he said.

I took him in a hug. I dint knew my little brother is so matured.

All thanks to Vish.

"I dint know my little brother is matured than me"?I said putting my hand around his shoulder.

"I know I am matured enough", he said winking.

"And bhai did you tell Bela about your trip to NY"? he asked.

"I told but,I dint tell that I will leave day after tomorrow",I said.

"But please don't take wrong decisions Mahir bhai", he said.

"I will not",I said.

Yuvi is right. But I'm still feeling like I'm cheating on Bela.

I cannot forgot Bani,but I cannot stay without Bela also.

I don't know how to convey this to Bela, and don't know how she will react.

I took mine and Bani's picture from my table.

"Am I cheating on Bela or you"?I asked.

If I'm looking at Bani's picture I'm getting scared that I'm forgetting her.

I cannot forget her,but should forget for me and Bela.

I'm feeling like an insect trapped in a web.

I will inform Bela tonight about my NY trip.

BELA

Mahira was asleep when I reached home. I made her sleep on her crib and washed my face.

My face is all red and eyes are puffy due to crying.

Hearing those words about me was like someone pouring acid in my ears.

But I should really not waste my time thinking about them. I know what I am and I do not need to explain myself to anyone.

I dint expect this was awaiting for me in the office.

But have to dust it off. We can't cling onto dust even after knowing that we are suffering with dust allergy.

I called Vish and told her about everything. She was literally freaking out.

But was calm when I told that I expressed my love for Mahir.

I know Mahir likes me,but love is still a question mark.

I had my evening coffee and Mahira was playing with all her toys.

She was the teacher and her toys were her students.

I was the principal of her school.

"Mumma see tojo dint do wok,wha punish we give"? she asked like a teacher.

"Hmm don't play with tojo for a weak",I said.

"OK. Tojo u ge back to box", she said putting her toy back in her toy box.

I was laughing at her cute antiques and the door bell ringed. It must be Mahir.

I went and opened the door,Mahir was standing looking very tired.