The Only String Attached

19

"Why Mahir"? she asked.

"Bela, one day I will give all your answers",I said.

"Did you find me in London"? she asked.

"No. But I felt like you were near me somewhere,but I came back the next day to India as I got call that mom was not well",I said.

"I'm sorry Mahir. I got to know about Sumi aunty,but I couldn't come", she said sniffing.

"If you want to come, you would really come. But even I dint knew the situation you were in",I said.

"I'm.. I'm really sorry Mahir", she said.

I took her to the couch and made her sit.

"It's OK Bela,it's already over. We can't do anything about it now",I said.

Tears were glistening in my eyes. Mom was very important in my life. She passed away even before holding her grandchild.

Not my mom, even Bani couldn't hold her. She held Mahira only for five minutes.

Bela hugged me wiping my tears.

"If someone important in our life's will leave,it's not necessary that even we should leave", she said.

"I realized that after you left",I said.

Now she was looking at me with guilt.

"It's late,we should sleep",I said.

She nodded. We locked all the doors and went to sleep. I went to sleep with her and Mahira in her room today.

"Why are you not making Mahira sleep in her crib"?I asked looking at Mahira surrounded by pillows.

Bela was smiling looking at me. I know she don't want to sleep alone, so Mahira is sleeping with her.

I should stop playing this game with her. I promised her that I will sleep with her in her room,but I'm going to my room whenever we have an argument.

That's so sick of me.

"I'm sorry again Bela",I said.

"Why Mahir"? she asked.

I signalled towards the bed and she understood.

"It's OK Mahir,I'm fine with it", she said.

"I will sleep beside you no matter what from now, even if we have an argument or not. I will stop being a dick",I said.

"OK ,but please stop cursing", she said closing her ears.

We both laughed and I layed Mahira in her crib. It's safe than the bed for her.

I and Bela settled on the bed facing each other.

"You will leave in this week", she said.

"Hmm I will",I said.

"Suhani messaged me today,she is sending Mahira's dresses day after tomorrow, they will reach before her birthday", she said.

"That's good",I replied.

"Mahir do you still miss Bani di"? she asked.

Of course I miss her. But I'm not feeling lonely now. I'm not able to express my feelings to Bela because of Bani.

I will express my feelings for her the day I will forgot Bani and accept my present. I need to forget my past and accept my present for the futures sake.

"I do miss her,but Mahira and you are filling that void",I said.

"Me also"? she asked with amused expression.