The Only String Attached

14

"This position is more comfortable, please don't talk anything. Just hold me", he said looking at me with his red puffy eyes.

I wrapped my hands around him again and rested my head on his chest. His chin was resting on my head and he was caressing my back

My eyes too started flowing again. I don't know what is going on his mind,but I was feeling like home.

I'm sure, he is able to hear my heartbeats just as I'm hearing his. His heart was beating rapidly.

This touch of his is foreign to my body.

I lifted my face and looked at him, now he was staring into my soul.

"What happened Mahir"? I asked now getting scared looking at his condition.

"Bela, you were in danger that day. How can you be so careless"? he asked putting one of my baby hairs behind my ear.

"Wha..what are you talking about Mahir"? I asked.

"On my graduation day, what if something happens to you"?he asked.

"Noth..nothing happened na Mahir, I'm...I'm fine now",I said.

"Never be so careless Bela, I..I can't take it if something happens to you", he said kissing my temple.

I closed my eyes feeling relaxed under his touch.

"You shouldn't leave like that Bela",he said.

"God removes people from your life because he heard conversations that no one knows except you",I said sniffing in his arms.

He held me more tightly and pulled me so close.

I just forgot the world around me when I'm in his arms.

I couldn't sense anything except his warm embrace.

He kept his hand under my chin and made me look at him.

"I don't want you in my life, I need you in my life",he said.

We were looking into each others eyes without blinking,tears still flowing from our eyes.

"Don't cry Mahir",I said wiping his tears.

"You cried a lot for me Bela, this is nothing in front of your love, pain and sacrifice",he said kissing my fingers.

I was shivering under his touch. His kisses are sending ticklish sensations.

"Some times I wish I could go back in life, not to change anything,but to feel few things twice",I said.

"I wish even I could",he replied.

"You know Bela some one told me that 'don't push away the people who truly cares about you,because one day you will push them away and they won't come back", he said.

"And I realize those words now",he said still sniffing on my head.

"You or Bani di, no one was wrong Mahir, only the situation was wrong", I said holding his collar.

"I would never hurt you intentionally Bela", he said.

"I know Mahir, but the situation made you hurt me. Not you or di",I said.

"We were never happy after letting you go from our life's Bela,we should have stopped you. But instead, we pushed you",he said.

"It's OK Mahir, it's in the past. We have to move on",I said sobbing.

"Did you move on"? he asked.

"Sure I deleted your photo, your text, your number, but I couldn't delete your face,your voice,your memories. I couldn't delete you from myself",I said.