Sometimes i feel as if im never heard
I talk and talk and yet no one listens
Like they don't understand a singular thing i just saidI try to be as annoying as i possibly can
Just so someone can hear me
Just look at me and see me
My opinions and thoughtsNo one ever listens and i feel like no one cares
Like the more i try to be heard the more they ignore meJust for once in my life i want someone to hear me
I want them to hear what i have to say
I want them to acknowledge meI want to be able to give my opinion without the constant fear of being yelled at or grounded
I don't want to be afraid of speaking up anymore
I don't want to feel like i don't matter anymore
I don't want to feel like my opinion means nothing
Some days i just want to scream at the top of my lungs from the highest mountain
I wonder sometimes if anyone would even notice if i was gone
I feel so worthless
Like an annoying fly that won't leave you alone with there constant buzzing until you kill it
People pass right through me like im not even there
They cut off my sentences as if what they have to say is better then my whole being
Im only convenient when somebody needs me
For once i want somebody to ask me how im doing
For once i just want somebody to hear what i want
I don't know what im supposed to do
I've taken to lying instead of telling the truth more often then not though
I just go along with it
What's the point of making a fuss of things if no one will even look at you
Its fine though
I've long since accepted that no matter what i do ill fall into the back round of my own life
And in those rare times when i do get noticed
And my opinion does get heard
It gets stepped on
Completely and utterly crushed
But maybe its not fine
Im obviously not fine with it if im writing this
But what else can i do
I hate the fighting it cause
I hate the drift it causes
I hate when my heart hurts when they don't listen
So ill lie
Ill pretend its fine
Even though it isn't
Ill just go with itI want to be heard
I do
I just don't know how
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poems i can't tell my therapist about
Poetrythis book is about all the poems I've written. there about different things and i won't expect everyone to get them, but i do. they mean a lot to me and honestly i just need a place to vent. Also I've added songs to each one because without songs i...