Love at first sight

chapter 16

the pain and brusing has gone down alot, so thats a good thing. i can actually walk down the stairs, thank god for medicine to take away the pain that is still left. when i go sit down to watch tv, my phone vibrates. hopefully its alex saying hello, nope to my surprise its from vince and on my screen i see a very drugged out naked picture of me. my day just went to extremely horrible, hours pass and all thats in my head is should i tell alex? i really dont want to because it'll just make things worse than they already are. i dont think i'm going to tell him because those pictures are just horrible and it'll start more drama that i dont need. he gets home and it doesnt look good.

"hey babe." i say hoping to get a smile out of him.

"hi." is all he says.

"how was school?" stupid question.

he looks to see if anyone is around, but they aren't cause my mom took ellie to the park.

"it was horrible okay! you try getting rude ass comments all fucking day an see how you like it! its going to be like that untill you go back to school but they will still say shit!

that sends me into major depressions and i start to go up the stairs.

"nat! i'm sorry!" he yells but i slam the door.

he doesnt come up for a long time until i hear the door open. my back is to the door cause i dont want to see anyone. i hear him put ellie to sleep, so i pretend to be asleep, so i dont have to talk to him.

"i seriously fucked up with mom today el, i yelled at her when i shouldnt have, do you think shell forgive me?

ellie laughs which is always a yes.

"i hope your right" he says.

he lays down next to me, i move my body faceing the door. he breaths really loudly.

"i'm sorry."

the days fly by and i havent really seen or talked to alex, when he leaves i'm sleeping and by the time he comes up i'm "sleeping". i hate this, i really do.

today is the day i have to go back to school. i havent talked to alex this morning,i'm scared that vince might say something, i'm also scared to see everybody because of the hell they put alex through. the drive to schoolwas nothing but awkward. i dont like it. we pull into the parking lot and as soon as he parks it, he walks away and everyone is laughing, especially them. just starring, laughing at me and my boyfriend is no where to be found. my class is in the direction that they're standing at, i really dont want to walk by them.

"wheres your macho boyfriend?" peyton says. i ignore her.

"did you like the pictures i sent you the other day? your still hot even when you're drugged." vince says.

"i didnt know you had big boobs, alex must love them, i guess thats why hes usin you."carlos chimes in.

i think carlos's words hurt the most, but vince and carlos's words together sting. right now all i want to do is cry. i want to go home, i dont want to be here. im going to get all my work and leave! i'll do homeschooling, i dont care anymore, i'm done. i dont want to be near people who ruined my life. when i'm walking down the hall after from getting my work, standing down the hall is carlos. i dont feel safe anymore.

"aye sexy, some good sex we did the other day, want to try it again?" his words burned my ears

i ignored him and kept walking, next thing i know he grabs me and throws me against the wall. it hurt so bad i wanted to cry.

"bitch i know you fuckin heard me!"

as i'm against the wall he grabs my neck and tries to strangle me.

"if you dont answer me when i talk to you i will kill you!" he yells at me inching closer to my face.

"let me show you what alex can never give you." he whispers to me

by this point, i'm begging for my life but with carlos there is no reasoning with him. hes gripping me so tight around my neck, as i try to push away, he kisses me. that moment i broke into amillion pieces. i start to cry even more, we hear someone walk down the hall and his grip losens up and all of a sudden i can breath again. its alex, my savior but him being here with carlos is making this moment a nightmare.

"you fucking dick" he yells.

alex punches him and carlos is down. he grabs him and pins him against the wall.

"i swear to fucking god, if you ever put another hand on my girl again, i will kill you myself!"he yells

carlos think what alex said is the most funniest thing in the world and its not.

"you know when i had "your girl" the other day having sex with her,she wasnt really saying anything but she really couldnt because she was drugged and her mouth was shut!"

alex's face is full with rage.

"she gives great sex, you should know unless you dont get any."

alex punches carlos so hard he flies to the ground and his nose starts to bleed. carlos told everything i couldnt tell him because i was to chicken to. alex grabs my books and helps me out, we start to walk away when carlos decides to yell at alex.

"you'll be sorry you did this martinez!" he yells

alex doesnt care. when we finally get to the car i have to ask him a question that has been bothering me for a week.

"are we going to break up?"

theres a long pause, he looks hurt and confused. if he breaks up with me id leave forever.

"i dont know." he finally answers.

that hit me like a bulldoser, i want to die right now. i'm done dating forever. i really like him, more than anyone i've ever dated. what do i do? when we get home, we dont say a word to to eachother. he goes to the table and i go up stairs. for english i have to write about who i love the most, the people i love most are ellie and alex. he has to read my paper because hes my english partner. i blow through it like is nothing, i walk down to give it to him. to make him pissed off i give him a kiss on the head then grab ellie.

"ellien say i love you daddy"

she laughs and claps "i luh you daddy"

score. i walk back up the stairs. i'm guessing alex is still doing homework because he hasnt come up yet. i hope he likes my paper, i think i did really good. when he comes up, i pretend i'm sleeping. hes talking to himself, hes been doing that alot lately. he wont talk to me about anything.

"what do i do? fuck man." he says

tonight is the night i cry myself to sleep again.