IT GETS BETTER WITH TIME. <NOT EDITED>

Chapter Twenty Four-amnesia

Assuming I'm ever going to be okay is just an understatement. Witnessing the only person whom I deeply love, lying on the hospital bed, looking lifeless is honestly an uncontrollable disastrous feeling .

That's just not alright, a whole of three weeks of watching and speaking to him.

Torture, this is.

I'm deeply miserable. I can't even look my baby in the eye, that's because I see Nathi in him.

Morning up until the evening, I'm always here, with him. I need him back to me, where he truly belongs.

He has to wake up, I've abandoned my only first child for crying out loud. For him, atleast he owes me that much.

I can't even eat or sleep, I can't even breastfeed my baby because of my negative energy.

"Mazibuko. Please wake up my love, we need you, your children need you. I swear, whoever did this will pay,"
I utter for the hundredth of times. My fingers are entwined with his, warm and secured in a safe comforting place.

My phone rings.

"Mommy,"
I respond to Nonkosi, my mom's twin sister.

"Please don't tell me you're at hospital again," she sighs.

Where else would I be? I belong here, with him.

"You know he needs me, ma," I utter lowly
How many of times should I say the exact same damn thing.

"Your baby needs you, Busisiwe. You haven't even given him a name."

Nathi has to do that, not me.

"You're well aware why I haven't. I'm waiting for him to wake up," I sigh.

"He will but you need rest too."

Rest? I don't need that, not whlist my man is fighting for his dear life.

Wait I swear I felt a movement.
I hang up the phone with no hesitation and glance back at Nathi.

"Squeeze again love, please," I whisper, while securing his hand with both of my hands.

"Please Squeeze," I plead again with voluntarily tears already threatening to dramatically cloud my eyes.

I wait and wait and wait.

After a while he decides to gently squeeze twice.

I smile when I realize he's also battling with opening his eyes. His finally back to me, to who need him more. I press the emergancy button for the doctor and the tears are already streaming down my face.

Slightly his eyes flutter open and they close again, definitely battling with the brightness of the room.

I let out a chuckle of relief and joy.

"You finally came back to me, I've missed you," I kiss his face and he groans.

Oops, he might be still in pain.

"Where am I?" he finally opens his eyes and scans the room.

"You're in hospital my love," I reach out to his hand and squeeze it.

He scans me, confusion vivid in his pale face.

"And who are you?" He questions while pulling his hand away from mine.

I swear, my heart just sinked.

Please don't tell me he has....

Out of all the punishments I could get, I get this one.