IT GETS BETTER WITH TIME. <NOT EDITED>

Chapter Fifteen-realization

It's been two weeks since I've been separated from Nathi and everyday is an unbearable torture.So I've been crashing at Khanyi's place ever since.

Now you see the problem starts here, I have no family, no friends, I've got no place to run to whenever things decide to go downhill in my relationship.

Nathi's family is all I've got, I'm a burden to them, that's how I deeply feel and it's reality. Something I'll never run away from.

It's like they're forced to look after me, even though they have never made me feel like a burden, the ache of feeling that way still bothers me.

This is my life and it depresses me at times.

The following day after the party we decided to leave, in fact I begged Khanyi that we leave discreetly. We decided to drive back to Joburg in the wee hours, no one knew we were leaving but atleast we sent a message informing them we have left due to work related emergency, on Khanyi's side of course.

"Seriously Busisiwe? When the hell will you get yourself together?" she irritatedly shouts.

I don't blame her though, I've been sulking and depressed. I'm always stuck in this bed watching movies, crying and just sleeping the pain away. I'm miserable.

She opens the curtains furiously and the bright light that blooms in the room blurs my vision and I lazily cover my face with the blankets.

"Wake the fuck up Busi," she drags the blankets off of me.

I groan loudly and sit up straight feeling completely defeated.

I just wanna sleep the pain away, why doesn't she comprehend?

She sits next to me and rubs my back comfortably.
"He hasn't come knocking to your door again today?" Khanyi questions.

"Nope. It's been three days now and I've decided to even switch my phone off because he has been bugging it with phone calls and messages. I think he's defeated now," I utter completely hurt.

For the past two weeks, he has been here banging the door almost everyday, begging to talk to me but I couldn't. I don't want him near me.

The event of the previous night still plays in my mind and it hits hard.

Nathi is not over his ex and it was clear enough when he even fought with that Kgosi guy.

So what's there to go back to?

"Nathi defeated? Haii, the Nathi I know doesn't give up that easily. He's probably giving you space that you need."

Ofcourse his sister knows him better than I do.

"I miss him," I confess and fiddle with my fingers.

"He misses you too baby. My brother is miserable, Busi, he begged I talk sense into your thick skull but I disagreed. He has to fight for you," she smiles.

"Thanks Sis," I utter genuinely.

"Anytime. Now get your fat ass up and go eat something."

We head downdstairs to the kitchen so we can prepare breakfast.

I'm starving but everything I try to eat ends up in the bathroom basin, and I'm not sure why because I'm a food lover. It could be stress.

We fry beacon and eggs with tomato on the side. I inhale deeply as the smell fills my nostrils pleasingly.

"I hope I won't throw up this time around because the smell is pleasing," I comment as we settle on the couch.

"Stop stressing yourself. How will you eat when you always overthinking stuff," Khanyi groans.