IT GETS BETTER WITH TIME. <NOT EDITED>

Chapter Twenty one-reality

My baby?

I immediately touch my stomach to feel if my baby is still there.

Phww thank God.

"Oh she's awake, finally, you gave us a fruaght there, Busi," she smiles genuinely.

I scan Dr. Jonson as she checks up on me, making sure whether everything is really fine before she decides to head out to prepare the forms so that I can be discharged.

"How long have I been out?" I question Nathi, and he glances down at me, squeezing my body tighter to him as we comfortably lay on the tiny hospital single bed.

"It's been a day, you scared me," his voice trembles.

A day?

"My mum, she's....she's alive Nathi," I glance up at him but he shakes his head no.

I know what I saw, why is he disagreeing with me? With what I actually saw with my two naked eyes.

"No" he utters.

"What do you mean no?"

Slience.

"Nathi?"

He shuts his eyes closed, "That's not your mom, that's...."

We're interupted by the door when Khanyi barges in unannounced.

"Hey baby," she smiles and stares at me.

I completely ignore her and stare back at Nathi who has long gone broken our glance.

He better say something.

"Nathi, who was that woman?" I slowly mutter.

Silence.....

Okay this silence is starting to annoy me, and why the hell is Khanyi still at the door. Doesn't she acknowledge that we need some privacy.

"Please leave," I direct that to Khanyi.

She knows better than to fight me right now.

"I'll go inform the family that you're finally awake," she utters lowly.

Good, now this man better say something before I push him off of this tiny bed.

"I'll ask this one more time, who was that woman?" I clinch my teeth.

I'm literally trying to keep my patience in place.

"That was your mother's twin sister," he utters avoiding my devastated glare.

"What?" I utter breathlessly.

My mum had a twin? I knew nothing about her. But I did know she had a sister who's at London, or was, actually I don't know anything anymore.

This beeping thing is irritating me, yerrrrrrrr.

"Busi, calm down please," he touches my shoulders firmly.

When the hell did I even get out of this bed? I'm pacing up and down and I'm trying to get this drip off of me.

My mother's twin? When did that all happen?

"Don't tell me to calm down, Nathi. When the hell were you gonna tell me you've found my family, huh?" I yell.

"When you've given birth I was gonna tell you," he utters, concern vivid on his defeated face.

"You should have told me the moment you found out. You lied to me, Nkosnathi, you said you'd protect me, always, but you failed me," I can taste the salty water that drops onto my quivering lips

I'm crying, I didn't want to cry.

"I was more concerned about your health baby, I'm sorry, okay," he tries to touch me again but I move backwards.

"Don't touch me, I don't want you near me. So is your brother, stay the hell out of my life," I drastically cry.

I see hurt in his eyes. He doesn't move but stands still and stares at me.

The nurses make their way in room trying to calm me down.

But I can't.

All of this is just too much for me, I can't take this anymore, I can't.

Sbongiseni is fighting his own battles with Nathi, using me as his weapon instead because he knows if I break, Nathi will break too.

At this moment I hate them both, I just want to be alone and I want to enjoy my pregnancy fully, without any burden.

That's what important right now. My baby.

That ain't going to happen though, I have to face this reality.

"Awwwwwwwwwwww," I scream.

I fall on my knees as the sharp cramp from my belly weakens my entire strength.

Nathi is next to me in slipt seconds and he nestles my head to his chest.

"What's wrong with her?" He angrily shouts at the nurses.

The nurses get me back to bed and inject me.

"I love you," I keep uttering to Nathi who keeps brushing my dreads and growling at the poor nurses.

Why does my life have to be showered with pure pain?