THE WEEKEND ROLLS AROUND quicker than expected, and before I know it I'm sitting on the couch in Michael's basement watching yet another chaotic band practice.
"I can't get it in tune!" Calum complains for the umpteenth time, un-clipping and re-clipping Luke's tuning device onto the end of his guitar once again.
"That stupid thing doesn't work, Calum," I groan — had we not had this conversation a thousand times before? — and storm over to him, snatching the instrument from his hands and bringing it back to the couch with me.
"That's not true," frowns Luke, though I only roll my eyes in return and toss his useless tuner at him from across the room.
As I sit down to begin tuning my brother's bass guitar, I almost forget that Ashton is still in the room — and that we haven't spoken since the night of the party. As the thought returns, I glance up at where he is perched behind his drum kit and am surprised to see that he is already looking at me. I quickly look away, not wanting to maintain the eye contact, and focus on plucking the guitar strings.
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"Alright, let's take a break," Michael announces, the band signing in relief as he does so — they had been trying (and failing) to coordinate a new song for the past hour, and even I was growing frustrated with all the errors.
As the boys place their instruments down and begin conversing among themselves, I see Ashton climb away from his drum kit and begin to make his way toward me. My heart rate increases, and I glance quickly over to where the rest of the band was laughing about something that had happened at school earlier in the week in the hope that I could somehow be saved from this conversation, but I am too late because Ashton is already standing before me.
"Hey," he says awkwardly, shifting side to side across both feet. "Could we, um, talk?"
I glance across at the boys again, but none of them have noticed. "Sure," I nod — I may as well get it over and done with now. "Upstairs?"
Ashton nods in response and turns to walk upstairs without checking if I'm following. Regardless, I take a deep breath and stand to follow him. As I pass by the other boys, Luke finally glances up to see where I'm going, though says nothing even as I begin to climb the stairs, simply watching me go with an unreadable expression.
When I reach the top, Ashton is seated on a stool by the kitchen bench, elbows pressed against the counter. I'm not quite sure where to stand, so I take a seat opposite him.
"I know I should've talked to you sooner," he begins, tone small and perhaps even guilty.
"It's okay," I tell him, and I really do mean it — even now, I'm not ready to speak to him about everything that's happened, let alone a few weeks ago.
But Ashton shakes his head instantly, clenching his jaw slightly. "No, it's not," he insists. A long sigh escapes his lips, and he runs his fingers roughly through his curls. "I never wanted to hurt you." I'm not sure how to respond to this, so I simply swallow silently. "I know it doesn't seem that way, but it's true. I do care for you, Rory."
"Okay," is all I can manage to say. If he cared for me he certainly had a funny way of showing it.
Ashton watches me carefully, perhaps waiting for me to say something more, but when I don't he lets out another rough sigh. "I don't expect you to want to be with me — or even be friends with me, really," he lets out a humourless laugh. "But I want to apologise. For everything. I never treated you the way you deserved, and I don't know why. I just hope you know it's not because of you — it's me."
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the hating game ; lrh
Romance"It feels as though, all this time, I was looking right at him without seeing him for what he truly is." "And what's that?" "Beautiful." Rory has always hated Luke. Luke has always hated Rory. And nothing could ever change that.