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Chapter 9

You stared at the small stack of paperwork in front of you.

"Aizawa sensei... these are... adoption papers."

Aizawa sighed. "I am aware. Are you going to fill them out or what?"

"Aizawa sensei... please give me at least today to think this over." You looked down at your lap. "I mean, this is ridiculous, a teacher asking to adopt a student right after seeing her staying on school grounds because she's homeless? Doesn't that scream shady, sensei..?"

Your teacher's face became even more disgruntled than before, if even possible. "I can see where you're coming from, although I do find it strange that you'd rather stay in the school gardens rather than be under the supervision of an adult in a comfortable home."

"Well I find it strange that you want to adopt someone who just joined your first-year class in April."

"Y/n, would you rather stay alone in some nearby apartment provided by the school? You would have to do all the adult work yourself, like cooking and cleaning and shopping and-"

"Look, sensei. I'll admit it, I'm 14. I'm not supposed to be living on my own until I'm at least 18. But you don't know the life I've been living for the past ten years. I've cooked my own meals, even if it was just fried rice or some noodles, since my mother never wanted to do anything with me, let alone eat. All these years of neglect have made me more independent than any 14 year old probably should be, so I don't want you telling me to do something because you think you know what's best for me. All of you adults are the same, you all do what you think is best for the younger generation, but really you're all just being selfish. I don't want to waste my time with another family, especially since I already know how families really are. Even if I did somehow manage to live with another family, it would only be a matter of time before I... before I..."

You wiped your face with your sleeve. You didn't even notice the water running down your face until now.

"It would only be a matter of time before I ruined everything again."

Of course, accepting adoption wasn't something you could decide in one day. Especially since your mother abandoned you; it wasn't like Kyoko and Seiichi L/n weren't your parents anymore. The memories from before you got your quirk were hazy, but still there. Despite the fact that you had a bad childhood until now with your mother constantly giving you glares, ignoring you and forgetting to feed you... well, you always tried to remember her and your father's past selves, the idealized version of them. They weren't bad people, they would never hurt you, they would never leave you, they would feed you delicious food and would always save a bit of their dessert to give to you after meals...

But those memories were quickly fading, the golden hue of the happy memories as fleeting as seeds on a dandelion in the wind. You could hardly remember your father's loving smile or the warmth of his hugs he gave you anymore. Your mother's gentle hands gliding through the strands of your silky hair, brushing it into a braid for school in the morning. Your memories were becoming blurry images, and you were finally starting to realize how different things were now.

Your father wasn't here anymore. Your mother despised you, and hated seeing your face every morning. She never loved you. She left you. She left you all alone. You had nothing left. You had nowhere to go. You meant nothing to her. You were no one.

'Monster.' Y/n's mother called her, seething. 'Murderer.'

No, you were someone. You were a murderer, a monster. Undeserving of love. Undeserving of life. There wasn't even a point anymore. There was no reason for you to even be here...