(please put this song on repeat for this chapter: "Agust" by Olafur Arnalds)
Becky's p.o.v:
He is dead
Just when i was finally getting somewhere in my whole damn life and actually making my own family, of course something had to happen
It's life right?
I wiped off my tearsIt's been 6 months
6 damn months
I honestly don't know how to feel
I feel emptyRepeating the same damn routine everyday
Waking up
Going to work
Eating
Going home
SleepingAnd of course I've had hardships on the last one since that day
I haven't had a good sleep ever since-...
I paused my thinking and took a deep breath
I was staring at my coffee on the kitchen table
I called in sick,but I'm not sick
Hailee (my boss)told me i could call in sick anytime i didn't feel like to work
And today was that kind of a day. A day were i would go around the house, laying here and there...
Thinking about him
Thinking about all of it
Reliving it all
Like a fantasy, like it was all a movie
People tell me that i should let go of it already. That I'm just hurting myself in this way. But do you really blame me?
I've had this fear of losing him ever since i told him i loved him in that damn surgery room
And look what happened now.
It's been 6 months since I've seen that beautiful face of him, his deep hazel gorgeous eyes, his perfect curls, his attractive smile
I smiled while a tear slipped on my cheek
I was laying on my bed staring at the ceiling when it hit me again....all of it
The memories of the day he left us....
They did experiments on the burnt body and it matched Austin's DNA
Even doc did experiments on the body's DNA himself bc he didn't trust them
I had hope back then,that it wasn't his body, that it was someone else, it wasn't him
But Doc confirmed the lab tests too.
That was when it hit us all.
I don't wanna go over how difficult and hard it was for us the first month
Michele, me, the boys, the families
The whole funeral
God it was so hard, we would faint out of nowhere due to lack of food or energy or even crying so mcuh and people would take us to hospitals.... Let's not recall those days
I visit the boys and Michele once a week... they're just the same as me
Feeling empty
Depressed
Not to know what to do
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