Felixity (Chanlix FF, english)

-xXChapter 4Xx-

Chan felt how jealousy burning from within. It always happen everytime he saw Jisung and Changbin together. The bright smile that they were both of them sharing, their voices went soft when they called each other nicknames. Everything of those things made Chan feel rage. He accepted so much, seeing so much love, being around it. Chan remebered Binsung's text messages along the lines: I can't wait to see you again<3 or Good night. I hope you appear in my dreams so I can be happy there too. It was too cute for Chans taste, but there was nobody who ever wrote to him he how much they miss him. Nobody, who was calling at him at midnight just to wish for cuddles. Everyday it was a fight of acceptance but now it was enough. Chan was hating on relationships because he couldn't have one they his friends did.

The rougher he was played basketball, the more his hate started to grow. If he wasn't able to feel the type of love like Jisung and Changbin had,  then he will win this fucking game and nobody will stop him! The thought of an unreachable love created by those two added more fuel to the fire and motivated him, even if it was in a negative way. Chan clenched his teeth and won some points. He was right. Nobody was brave enough to face him. His dark eyes exuded his hunger to win. So much that Chan lost the control of his body and crashed, knee first, onto the hard surface. He felt so much pain. Chan couldn't get up anymore.

Jisung ran towards him. „Is everything okay, Chan?". „I don't know". It was probably just a simple injury and he haden't won thegame yet. Slowly he got up and tried to take a step. Chan regretted it. He felt a sharp pain in his knee and then he knew it wasn't just a simply injury. Their P.E teacher ran towards them. „We have to take you to infirmary and you could wait there until somebody patches you  up and  bring you to a doctor." „But the game...", Chan said worried. If he can't play anymore, how would he be able to fix his frustration? It wil spiral put of control and soon enough at this rate. Chan needed to continue playing. „No you go to the infirmary. Jisung, please help me." He nodded and hold Chans waist. With every step Chan made he felt the stinging sensation on his knee  kept hitting him, each time more painful than before.  This means he needs to rest for some time and his frustration won't be going as well.

His chan was hurt! Felix felt worry in every inch of his body. Poor Chan felt so hard onto the ground. Felix got up and ran out of the gym. The infirmary was inside the main building where Felix was going. Of course he should be careful with his actions, because he didn't want to be seen. He knew the teacher is going to go to the infirmary with Chan. Felix remeber the time when he was also there was once, after hurting himself in the P.E lesson when a ball hit his face. Okay he wa daydreaming that day! Felix reached the door to the infirmary and heared noises from inside. Probably Chan talking to Jisung and his teacher. Felix hoped for Chan was going to be alright. He wanted to go inside it and look after him.

Felix hid himself in the corner between door and wall. Felix waited until he heared the door open. So Chan was alone right now. Should heopen the door? Chan wouldnt sleep, right? Felix was standing in front of the door and rested his hand on thedoorknob. His heart was pounding loudly. Just a few steps and he was going to be very close to his crush. Whycouldn't he just open the damn door?! „Hey, is somebody out there?" Felix stoppedbreathing. He haven't opened the door and still Chan knew somebody was out there. As if Felix heart wanted to be with Chan. Felix pulled his hand away and just want torun away. His fear of facing Chan rose. Felix could see him from a far but it was not possible if he would stand right in front if him. He was afraid of Chan but still he loved him. „Jisung? Are you there?", Chan continued asking. Felix could hear more sounds coming from the room. If Chan opens the door, then he will see him. No, this won'thappen! Too late. Chan already opened the door and looking at him.  

Of course Felix is there, too :'DD

Tbh I am thinking of deleting this whole thing or just leave it unedited, because this story is not worth the effort. I feel extremly terrible everytime I go on wattpad and I just can't deal with everything there. My love for Stray Kids started to suffer again....great