Luna? No sir i'm a Marine

Not exactly love letters

Ps. I also included two songs that I wrote during all this. You can do whatever you want with them. You can burn them, tear them up whatever makes you comfortable.
-Alexandria "

Is this what she really thought? That I could just forget her, that I could move on. That the Moon Goddess made a mistake. She said she knew about werewolves, she read books about us but she obviously doesn't understand that I can't do that. Now that i've found her. I can't let her go. I won't. It would kill me if she left. Literally. The pain of loosing a mate is nothing compared to anything anyone could imagine, especially if it's by choice. Rejection by a mate is horrible. It's what you see in horrors. I need to get her to understand all this. I won't guilt her into staying but I will unlock that chest of emotions for me that I just know she's hiding.

Curiosity over took me as I looked at the two folded sheets.
Songs that she wrote about us.
All her emotion and passion put onto a page. I felt like I was reading her diary. I saw how she sang the night of the Banquet. She didn't do anything by half. She poured everything she had into her singing. I know she also co-wrote all the songs.

I slowly flattened the sheets out. The first one "Big Girls Don't Cry" made my chest tighten. I could feel Damien whining inside me as I kept reading. It was the second one that really screamed Alex alright.

Red

Loving him is like driving a new Maserati down a dead-end street
Faster than the wind, passionate as sin, ending so suddenly
Loving him is like trying to change your mind once you're already flying through the free fall
Like the colors in autumn, so bright just before they lose it all

Losing him was blue like I'd never known
Missing him was dark grey all alone
Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you never met
But loving him was red
Loving him was red

Touching him was like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you
Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song
Fighting with him was like trying to solve a crossword and realizing there's no right answer
Regretting him was like wishing you never found out that love could be that strong

Losing him was blue like I'd never known
Missing him was dark grey all alone
Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you never met
But loving him was red
Oh, red
Burning red

Remembering him comes in flashbacks and echoes
Tell myself it's time now, gotta let go
But moving on from him is impossible
When I still see it all in my head
In burning red
Burning, it was red

Oh, losing him was blue like I'd never known
Missing him was dark grey all alone
Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you never met
'Cause loving him was red
Yeah, yeah, red
We're burning red

And that's why he's spinnin' 'round in my head
Comes back to me, burning red
Yeah, yeah

His love was like driving a new Maserati down a dead-end street

I was just trying to process it all. All the emotions, everything. My head was spinning. I couldn't breathe. I need to go for a run. The pain is overwhelming. It's like someone is standing on my chest. No wonder Alex's body gave up.

I just ran, and ran. Trying to run off the pain, the anger and the self hatred. I just started howling. Damien had full control. Once it started to get dark I headed back. I need to get something to eat and then just like every day i'll sleep on the chair at the foot of Alex's bed.
I got comfy and took one last glance at her before trying to get some sleep. She looks so peaceful, so calm.

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*Alex's POV*

I got a weird sensation starting at my feet and travelling throughout my body. It was like pins and needles. I looked around. I have no clue where I am.

Everything is spinning. Then suddenly it all became clear. It's the lake. The lake where the wolf would visit me in my dreams. It wasn't like the times before. I used to feel safe. The blue eyes used to calm me but there was no sign of them. Not this time.

I felt like I was being sucked in, suffocated. My breathing increased. You don't need water to feel like you're drowning. A voice made me pull to the surface.
"Goodnight princess."

It was so familiar but so far. Whoever it was instantly stopped the prickling and asphyxiation.

I began to regain control of my own body. I finally felt like I was in charge not just watching from the side lines.

My eyes slowly began to flutter open.

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Author's Note :

Next one is going to be filled with sexual tension, feels and emotions.

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