Reason to Live

🔵 Prologue 🔵

I don't know why my life's a mess right now. Lucky for some children out there who got the best parents in the world, while some got the irritable ones. But unfortunately for me, I got the latter.

They seemingly fight everyday. EVERYDAY; and I'm sick and tired of hearing their arguments all day. But I have no choice but to stay in my room and distract myself from it. Though they're not actually mad because of me— and they still do take care of me... sometimes, but their on-going arguments everyday about some personal matter affected and changed who I am.

It not only affected me as their son, but also as a student in school. Mostly everyone in school, even my teachers, are frightened because of me. They're afraid of me because of my cold attitude and silent treatment. Not to mention, having this blood-coloured eyes made it difficult for me to interact with some of my schoolmates. Hate to say this but, I'm honestly a loner whenever I'm in school, and I really don't care about it anymore.

But thankfully, not all of them are scared of me. There are some schoolmates who appreciates me for who I am, but only a few. Like I said, I don't care, and I don't need someone, especially a friend.

Is this my life right now? Everyday, I have to go through all these problems without my parents guidance? Too bad, I'm used to it.

My childhood life was a waste, then presently as a teenager, everything just became more arduous. I never thought I would live my life like this.

I guess, this is my life, and I hate it. There's no way this can get better. It's impossible to live a normal life when you carry all those burdens and negativities on your shoulder everyday.

I heaved a long sigh.

What's there to live my life anyway...?