This is like a part 2 to January 21, 2015. Please don't judge I know its not perfect but it's how I feel. So enjoy!
Five years since you've passed
And if I'm honest not much has changed
I still miss you
I still look at your pictures
Seeing how much I resemble you
I still think about how you'll never get to see me graduate high school
Or college
Never get to see me get married
You won't even get to hold or see your future grandchildren
I still remember your laugh but not your voice
But because of you I've never done drugs
Or drank
I've rid my mind of all the painful or sad memories of you
But they still resurface
Those days I miss you the most
When I shut everybody out
And keep to myself
Those are the days when its hard to think
And even harder to breath
From the weight on my chest
To the numbness in my head
My past comes back and gives me a tap on the shoulder
I'll get unwanted flashbacks
And I already know today is going to be one of those days
People will ask if I'm okay
Because today is the day you left me behind
Five years ago
Full of pain and anxiety
Avoiding people and their pity
January 21, 2020
I didn't get this done till this morning due to school and it was supposed to be published yesterday but I was busy so sorry and I hope you enjoyed it
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