META

Open Letter

I look in the mirror,

and I see an unfinished project.

A half smiling girl,

with marks all over her body indicating what needs to be fixed.

With you not here,

I find myself poking and prodding once again.

Finding each flaw,

and mending them before you can see.

This is not who I want to be.

I want to be grateful for what I have been given,

but I find myself wanting to change it all.

Twenty years have come and gone,

and I feel myself no different than the girl I was five years before.

I am not living my own life,

and instead I am playing the part in the one that you have illustrated.

Is this normal?

To feel so lost, I don't even know who I am?

I never had a chance to discover what I wanted.

So here's an open letter to you.

One day,

I will reverse the damage that you have done.