It seems like there are different versions of myself.
The versions that I look back upon and I don't remember the girl who is playing in that part.
The version I was playing when I was with you is not someone I'm proud of. You came into my life like a forest fire, blazing your flames across every inch of my body.
I felt lucky to call you mine. Every flower petal that dropped brought me closer and closer to spending my life with you. My life besides a man that really didn't know who I am.
As the weeks went on, we spent more time together. I fell in love with you the way that fall comes to the city. A slow stream and then all at once until you can't remember the way summer felt just weeks ago.
You made me feel like I had always wanted. Someone that was overwhelmingly loved for every part of her.
When we were apart, I had missed you every day. I missed our drives, I missed your hands, I even missed the way your hair stood up in the morning. You were everything to me.
When we met again, I was so excited that I could not stop talking about your arrival.
I waited at the gate, and you were late.
I searched every face, until I finally found you.
Only it wasn't the same as before. There was something hiding underneath that my simple eyes could not comprehend just yet.
I still embraced you and loved you just as much as before. And when the time came where the venom could not be contained, I saw the man I love turn into someone I did not know. I felt every teardrop, every ping in my chest when you told me I wasn't good enough, and every particle in my body screaming at me to tell you that I AM.
I felt myself pulling away from everyone I knew, including myself. I felt my threads tear apart inside of me until all that was left was a girl crying wishing you would just tell me one word.
I never quite understood how you could swear you loved me, yet be the one to ultimately almost break me.
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META
PoetryWhen the metamorphosis came, I was not ready. Change is not easy, when you're too young. My brand new wings sprouted from behind me, it burned like hell, but I stayed strong. There was people that needed me, dreams that I needed to complete. I could...