Insanity why are you my Clarity?

CHAPTER 27 (Sinful)

Lumaki akong naniniwalang si Christian ang Prince Charming ko, dahil marami nang beses niya akong tinulungan sa mga bagay-bagay. Pakiramdam ko siya na talaga kahit dati pa. He’s my salvation kaya kahit anong gawin kong deny sa feelings ko, hahatakin pa rin ako pabalik sa kanya. He seems to have this strong hold to me na hindi ko mabali-bali.

Now, he did this mess big time. Kahit si Mike mukhang nagtaka sa sinabi niya. This dinner is turning out to be a fvcking disaster. Talagang nakikipaglaro siya at ‘di ko alam kung ano ba talaga ang tumatakbo sa isipan niya. Binabaliw niya ako, at ‘yun ang gusto niyang mangyari. Gusto niyang nalilito ako dahil sa kanya. He knows how much hold he got on me. He knows about my love too much kaya ginaganito niya lang ako. How I wish table would turn for me; in my favor.

“Y-yes! Cardio program ng gym na pinupuntahan nila ‘yun. Masyado kasing… tough! K-kaya hindi ko na ‘tinuloy. Mas naging okay sa akin ‘yung sa gym na pinupuntahan ni Mike.” Kinakabahan kong sabi na mukhang okay naman sa kanila.

“Oh, ayaw mo na pala? Sayang expert pa naman ako dun kaya nga toned ang muscles ko eh. You should still consider… the cardio program I taught you para naman mas maging maganda ang program mo.” Then he dangerously smiled at me like he’s about to eat me alive. He looks like a monster na nahihibang na who keeps on dropping all of his bombs at me.

“Ayoko na, I prefer Mike’s gym. Sorry Christot, mas okay kasi… mas performance level.” Natawa kong sabi at natawa naman si Althea Marie pero Mom keeps on giving me bizaare looks. Pakiramdam ko nararamdaman niya ang mali sa aming dalawa.

“So you prefer it now, sayang naman.” Then he gave me a look sharper than a dagger. Masyadong matalim ang tingin niya at hindi ko alam ang isasagot ko sa tinging ‘yon. Pakiramdam ko, he’s looking into my soul na hindi na niya magagawa. I’m building this castle full of thorns and I’m the only one who can get to manipulate inside my castle. He’s not the one to play this game better. It has to be me.

“Oo naman! Syempre bias ako dahil boyfriend ko siya! Sorry Chris, pero mas gusto talagang ka-bonding si Mike since he make me feel special. He keeps on making me feel alive and special and precious! Ngayo ko lang talagang naramdaman ‘to.” Then I kissed Mike on the cheek.

“SPG ka na Alyssa! Jusmiyo ‘wag mong isusuko ang bataan agad-agad sa lokong ‘yan.” Then Althea Marie laughed at alam kong it made my game worse and made his better. He smirked but I let my A-game smile on para hindi mahalatang nadehado ako doon.

“Wag nga ba? Good luck, Mike!” Then Christian laughed hysterically na nagpatawa na rink ay Miranda at sa kapatid niya. Napangiti lang si Mike at namula sa kahihiyan pero ako namumuna na siguro sag alit at inis dahil nagawa niya akong madali doon. It’s my turn now.

“Yep! Kaya ni Mike ‘yan kasi he loves me. Hindi naman siya salawahan na dala-dalawa ang kasama sa buhay. I mean, okay lang as long as he only has me and no one but me. I want to be his princess.” I proudly said that obviously stung him like a bee. Akala niya suguro wala akong maisasagot!

“Nope… you should be his queen, Alyssa.” Then he grinned. I hate it when he does that.

“Nope too! His mother should only be the queen in his life and I am the princess.” I smiled warmly at Mike and he pulled me closer at him na nagpagulat lalo kay Christian. It stunned him that it left him unable to answer back. Masyadong mainit ang paligid para sa amin. The friction is unbearable na alam kong ramdam ng nanay ko.

“Like me! Mom’s only my queen, and Alyssa’s my princess and my girlfriend’s my soulmate.” My brother said in a lively tone.

“Sweet naman. Ikaw Chris, ‘di ako pwedeng maging queen dapat si tita lang ha!” Miranda said but Christian gave him an awkward smile. Alam kong nagulat siya. Alam kong naguguluhan na siya at nagagalit. He’s hurting pero hindi pwedeng dalawa kaming mahal niya. Dapat mamili siya. Tatanggapin ko ang magiging desisyon niya kahit nagpakahirap man akong kuhanin siya.