Promise I'm Trying

~six~

Trigger Warning

In class, after lunch, Tyler was thinking about what Josh wanted do. If they were busy al week, what were they doing? 

Jish: Sorry for how quick I was to say no to Brendon at lunch. I didn't ask if you were free this week

Ty: It's fine. What are we doing this week?

Jish: I wanna get to know you better and play some of your songs

Ty: This isn't about... what we talked about last night, is it?

Jish: I do want to know about that and help if I can. I want you to be happy

Ty: I'll talk, but it's stays between me and you

Jish: Okay :)

Ty: :)

They put their phones away. Josh focused on the lesson, but Tyler was filled with anxiety. He was about to have a panic attack. He got up and and ran out of the room, ignoring Mrs. Smith calling for him.

Josh's hand shot up. "I'm-I gotta go." he said as he ran out to chase after Tyler.

He arived at the bathroom to see Tyler sitting on the floor, in the corner, scratching his wrist and re-opening a cut.

"Hey," Josh said softly, "Don't do that," Josh sat down next to Tyler, wrapping his arm around the smaller boy. "It's gonna be okay. I'm here. You're not alone,"

"Go," Tyler choked out.

"No. I'm not leaving until you're okay."

"I-I-I'm fine."

"Clearly not," Tyler leaned his head on Josh's shoulder and cried. He just cried, no words. He wasn't used to people caring about himas much as Josh had in the past two days. Josh was different. He didn't judge Tyler. His mind did. A thought that repeated in his head so often that he was just left crying. It made his vision blurry, so he called the 'person' who represented these thoughts Blurryface. Blurryface was truely was the judge.

~~~

After sitting like that for about ten minutes, Josh  said, "We should go to the nurse and get that cleaned up,"

"No!"

"Okay Ty, let me clean it up then?" Tyler nodded.

"Josh helped Tyler up and lead him over to the sink. Josh turned on the water and put Tyler's wrist under the water. Tyler let out another tear, not because of pain, well at least physical pain. He was mentally exhasted and no one had ever seen his scars. Now someone he'd only known for two days is washing the blood off his wrist.

"Hey, don't cry, it's all gonna be okay. I'm here and I'm going to mae sure you're okay."

"I don't wanna go back to class a-and get in trouble. I don't wanna get you in trouble." Tyler choked out as Josh wrapped a brown paper towel around the wound and applied a little pressure to stop the bleeding.

"Don't worry, that class is over and she doesn't have class any other classes today. We can go explain what happened," Josh said in an attempt to calm Tyler, "Leave the towel on it. You can pull your sweatshirt sleeve over it, so she she doesn't see."

"Okay."

~~~

"Look who decided to come b-" Mrs. Smith stopped talking when she saw Tyler's tear stained cheeks.

"What- Tyler?!"

"Mrs. Smith, Tyler and I were in the bathroom. He had a panic attack and I was there to help him through it. He doesn't have a lot of friends here yet," Josh explained.

"Oh sweetie! I'm sorry to hear that. Please, I'll give you both passes and you both passes and you can spend your last two periods in the councling office."

Tyler grabbed Josh's hand and squeezed tightly.

"Tyler doesn't like to talk to people he doesn't know. He's not a fan of counclers." Josh explained, understanding Tyler.

"That's okay! I don't have anymore classes today. I'll explain what happened to Mr. Iero and you can stay in here," Mrs. Smith said, "Josh, you are a really great friend."

"Boyfriend..." Tyler said under his breath.

"Boyfriend? Tyler's only been here for two days!"

"Yeah, but he's cute and we... had a conversation that made us both close really fast." Josh explained.

"You are really something else, Josh," Mrs. Smith said and Josh rolled his eyes in response.

~~~

Tyler and Josh spent the next two hours talking about music, lyrics, and their interests. Tyler didn't want to talk about what happened and Josh wasn't really ready to address it either. Tyler was just excited to go Josh's house after school. He knew people excepted him there and wouldn't question why he did things, they only wanted to help. Was Tyler falling in love with Josh?

This is a longer chapter (737 words). This story is getting somewhere! Sorry I took forever to update oops. Stay happy, Stay hydrated, Have fun, and Stay Alive |-/

~Lily