Motley Crue - You're All I Need (Vince Neil/Nikki Sixx/Tommy Lee/Heather)

34: It's Not Love

"I'm not scared, though," I said, looking up to her again. "It's not that, it's jus-," I started before she cut me off.

"It's what, Vince?" Lauren asked, pulling her hands out of mine and stepping away from me. Her expression immediately turned sad and I felt my stomach drop. I hated what I was doing, but it was the right thing.

"I love you," I started. "But not in the way I should, not the way I need to love you to marry you."

"Is there someone else?" She asked, sitting down on a chair and dabbing away the tears forming in her eyes.

"Lauren...," I said, not sure of how to tell her, how to let her down easy. There was someone else, there has always been someone else. But I didn't want to make her feel even worse than she already did.

"Is it Amanda?" Lauren asked, turning away from me. I didn't even say anything in response, unsure of how to explain everything to her. "I should have known. I always knew there was something between you two."

"I'm so sorry, I never meant to hurt you," I said, coming and sitting down next to her. She was crying a lot harder now, almost wheezing into her tissue. I put my arm on her back and rubbed her shoulders, hoping to offer her a little bit of comfort.

"You don't want to marry me anymore?" She asked, looking up at me with reddened eyes. I didn't even say anything before she started crying, even harder this time.

"Please don't get so upset," I said, trying to console her more, but not having much to offer her at this point. "It's all my fault, we just weren't meant to be."

"Then why does it hurt so bad?" Lauren asked, turning to me and looking a bit more calm now.

"Doing the right thing isn't always easy," I said, holding her hand again.

"You've got that right," Lauren said, smiling at me after realizing our hands were joined together again. "I have to tell you something," she suddenly confessed after gazing into my eyes.

"We've got nothing to lose," I reassured her. She gave me a smile and she took a deep breath before confiding in me.

And boy, I did not like what she had to tell me.

~ Amanda's POV ~

I took a cab back to my apartment, my heels clicking on their way up the many steps to my new door. I fumbled with the key, my hands shaky from all of the chaos that had just unfolded. I finally got the door open and I immediately kicked off my heels, slipping off the poofy bridesmaid dress right after.

I wondered how long it was going to take Vince to talk to Lauren.

I decided to get dressed in something a bit more comfortable, but still sexy. If we were going to be getting back together now, exploring what we were to each other, I needed to look and feel good for that.

I glanced at the clock. I've barely been home for ten minutes.

Sitting down on the couch, I flicked the TV on and pulled a blanket over me. I was shivering with nervousness and anticipation. I still couldn't believe what had unfolded between the two of us. Things had changed back and forth quite a few times in the past few months, and especially in the past two weeks. But things were finally the way they should've been all along.

An hour goes by.

The next episode of Happy Days was just starting when I felt my eyes start to grow tired. I struggled to keep them open, Vince would probably be here soon. And I didn't want to wake up frantic to him knocking at my door. I got up and made myself a cup of coffee to stay awake. We were probably going to be up late tonight after all.